I’m sad, really.
Looking back, before being here helping, I helped in a Spanish-speaking furry community on Telegram. I spent two years, dedicating myself hours every day to things, be it monitoring chats, talking, and giving life to the chats, or even doing mega huge projects in the community, like contests and events haha.
Months ago I left, simply for telling the truth to one of the owners that the other was… let’s say a bad person, in addition to cheating her at the back (They were a couple). I showed her evidence, testimonies, and everything. At first she thanked me, but then she became more neurotic over time, she blamed me for everything, she blocked me, and now she doesn’t let me go to the community of a thousand people where I had dozens of people who loved me and missed me.
I feel lately… alone. Only in the total sense of the word, on the internet of course. It was my refuge, and I worked hard for it, but now I look back and it’s like… useless effort, wasted and on top of that it was undervalued.
And later you find out from third parties that all the effort I made for the community was simply wasted, no admin or owner does anything, it was filled with riff-raff, and it is slowly… decaying. Two years that without pride I can say I threw away.
It’s not the first time. I am guided by a strong moral compass, I want to do good, and help people who really need it, for me we are all equal, whether we are new or veteran users. And that has led me to problems in the communities, where there always seems to be favoritism. Not just fandom, role-playing communities, anime, everything in general.
I’m starting to think, maybe I’m the problem. Maybe I am a social misfit. Or, gods willing, I’m a bad person, with a hero complex, hahaha.
Only want to vent that here. Maybe someone can give me some support, in form of advices, heh. I always love to know others persons perspectives