Vent Thread

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I’m so sorry. 😔

@Elly Catfox
I’ll survive. I’m not feeling like I can be productive or even play Pokémon but I feel like watching Pokémon content so I’ll do that and hang in there 💜

Well, I fell asleep two hours early last night, had a very peculiar dream and woke up severely dehydrated and chuckling, for some reason. My body may very well not know how to cope with the fact that my mind can’t let go of certain things.

I really miss how my best friend used to treat me, we used to hang and be two peas in a pod. Nowadays, they just hang out with their little group of friends and cast me to the side… it’s like pulling hairs to even start a conversation with them and it sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close. I trusted them a lot, but now, I barely know them anymore.

@FruityPWN
I know the feeling. I don’t talk to my friends all that much either hugs

Others can be so impressionable.

Please help me, I got attacked by another Jewish woman after talking about the end times on a deviant art post (it was related to the post) it started as a stupid argument about if it was 5783 or 5983, I was pulling in things from scripture to prove it’s supposed to be 5983 because we lost 200 years due to Jesus’ death. That’s when she stared talking about only the Torah was valid and that me believing in Jesus was “kinky” whatever the fuck that means, and then it just went racist telling me I wasn’t a valid Jew since I’m patrilineal. I posted the screenshots on a subreddit for cyberbullying support only for people to be on the assholes side, commenting disgusting things on the post and downvoting it.

@Lunarmoon21
Hugs That sounds awful, I’m sorry she put down your beliefs like that

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
They say dna means nothing when ancestry.com says I Ashkenazi Jewish dna

@FruityPWN
You will make it through this

I’m just a fucking useless cracker

@Lunarmoon21
Nonsense. You have plenty of usefulness and value

@Lunarmoon21
I feel the same way but please hang in there

@Elly Catfox
You also have plenty of usefulness and value <3

I’m the useless one. I’m almost okay with that. Almost.

Prolife, provax, intactivist

@Lunarmoon21
Perhaps you have been influenced by the wrong crowd.

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
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I get the impression I hate myself but don’t know why. Talking or thinking about myself makes me uncomfortable. If asked if I hate myself, I quickly get into rationalizations where I say a bunch of reasons that I am a decent person and say them with a sort’ve well-rehearsed faux confidence, but the look on my face while doing so is one of barely masked sadness and disgust, and I feel a sense of dread throughout my being.

I don’t have any “self-hating thoughts” or say, “I hate myself.” But I think I feel like I hate myself. I’m disgusted with myself even though I can list off all the reasons that I don’t like myself aren’t my fault and can externalize them into hating the world around me instead. I still hate myself even though I say I don’t and I don’t know why I hate myself.

Trying to feel confident, love myself, or even think about myself these days feels like Hank Hill trying to talk to his son about emotions or sex. It’s awkward, I get brain fog and anxiety, and I just want it to be over. I can’t confront it effectively.

@FruityPWN
You have usefulness and value too

@Elly Catfox
I used to feel a ton of self-loathing and still can on rare occasion, so I get how you feel. I want to help you feel better, though I’m mostly at a loss for what I can do other than be here for you. And I mean, it sucks because that is all I can really do. Can’t magic your brain into helping you feel better. But I will be here, because I know how awful it feels to feel alone, and how much better it feels to have people there for you. I wish I had answers or at least something, but we’re trying our best and that’s all we can do. Try to think positively if you can, maybe delve into special interests that make you happy if you can. It’s helped me a lot and I’m living proof that you can feel better from trauma and depression with the right healing and time. Not completely better - I hate to say I don’t think that’s possible. But, better. A good deal better. And it’s good that you reach out on the thread here and whatnot because one thing I didn’t used to do was talk to people about how I was feeling, and I’ve been doing better and getting better about talking through my feelings since I started doing that.

I just had the worst stomach bug I’ve had since I was a kid.

I miss my mother

I know how awful those are, having had a horrible one 5ish years ago and food and chemo poisoning my stomach from time to time. Hope you feel better soon!

Sorry for your loss hugs Hang in there

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
My dad had one so bad that throwing up so hard gave him a hernia