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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow :3
Guilt, over all the unintentional pain I caused, is one hell of an emotion. Grief, over realizing every time that person triggered me, it was more intentional than I had thought, is one hell of an emotion. I felt as bad as Fruity did.
But I did it. I stayed safe. I made it. I’m so sorry my mental health was actually much worse than I had previously thought it was. Turns out, today was just an assessment and it’ll take a while for therapy proper to begin but I don’t mind. It was still the first step towards defeating depression and suicidal ideation for good. I can do this. I can get stronger. I can shine brighter than ever :3

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MoonOtter
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Moon.
@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Hey, its alright. We’re all “not-okay” in our own ways. You said you’re going to be going to therapy and have already made some lifestyle changes in your previous posts, that’s awesome first steps. The change doesn’t happen overnight, though, and that’s fine. There will be times you feel like crap, emotionally and mentally, but keep at it. It’s the cumulative work that brings change over time. If you need to step back from the phone/computer and take a break, do what you need to do.

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FruityPWN
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Astra - Helped choose the name for our mascot - Astra.
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Fruitiest of PWN
I am alive, but not living. I can’t take this anymore. My quality of life is complete shit and there’s nobody around or reason for me to continue on any longer than I have to. I feel like I go through the motions of living an everyday life, but for what, an ounce of joy? A slither of happiness? Nothing in my life is worthwhile. I have lost myself in the bullshit that surrounds me all the time, a toxicity that doesn’t let up…I’ve lost that light, or spark if you will, to keep going. I just feel like there’s nothing worth staying alive for, due to the fact that life likes to take my trust and crush it into little, tiny pieces. It feels like my life has ended at such a young age, but I’m still alive. Does that make sense? Why is it such a bad thing to want to die? If it were possible I would gladly give up my life for somebody who is far less fortunate than me and have them make the most of it and make a difference in the world. I feel like I was destined to suffer, like I am being punished and now I am a disgrace, forever to be punished for something I did. I always go to bed, not wanting to sleep, but not wanting to wake up…I do not want to die, but not exist…does that mean that I am selfish? Perhaps, but…I have no drive to keep going anymore, since everything is the same. I have no purpose, no love, no friends, no family…heck, I don’t even think I have money or even a life. Not that I deserve the life I have, anyways, which I don’t. I don’t know what I’ll do. I am alive, but not living.

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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow :3
Well it’s a good thing I returned to Facebook. The reason I left was because, I think it was on the day of the hack, this page posted something that seemed like something I had said, verbatim. With the fact that I had heard people outside my house and also thought I saw people, well I had no idea what all was going on, that further scared me. I have no idea if there actually were people out there, or if I hallucinated. I think my mental health was bad enough that I could have. It’s all better now that I’m eating and sleeping and not absorbing Lysol, like I said. And therapy is around the corner on the 16th. But that’s kinda beside my point.
Because, not only do I have a friend on Facebook who doesn’t have any other social media for me to contact him on, but good lord, someone posted some stuff that has shown me I can’t even be friends with them. I suppose it’s not super egregious, it’s just… stuff I really don’t want to see when I’m sex-repulsed. And all I got was excuses when I asked about changing the audience of their posts so I don’t see them. It really makes me feel like they’ve been being deliberately malicious this entire time. It’s unfortunate to lose someone, especially right now, but it had to be done.
On a brighter note, my close friend/unofficial sibling (I’m an only child but I vibe with this person like a sibling lol) has been opening up to me more and sharing their world and the characters in it with me! >^_^<

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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow :3
Still in pain. The fight may be long sometimes, but I endure for all the people who need me. For the people to whom I matter
Edit: And now, the pain is mostly over. More ibuprofen and a high-calorie meal will set things right again. And if I can routinely overcome this, I hope it’ll serve as an inspiration to anyone reading this. You can overcome your struggles too. Be strong, be well, and be happy, friends >^ w ^<

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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow :3
Ufh I’m pretty chemosick tonight. Thankfully more nausea than pain, and I’ve just taken a nausea pill. It’s a tough fight, but I’m gonna keep fighting and keep winning
Edit: Oh there’s the pain. Oh goodie 🙃 I’ll take ibuprofen and see if I can’t just sleep through this awful night

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Ciaran
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Derpy Fur - Prevented Furbooru's terrible fate in April of 2021.
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Passing of the Eclipse - Joined within the first month of public opening and has had at least some activity as of August 3, 2020.
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If you think there’s a problem, please report it instead of venting about it, ok?
@MoonOtter
This happens from time to time.
The rules that apply are either:
Rule #4 - If you see images that contain themes you do not like, or that you are unable to view in your jurisdiction, you should add the appropriate tags to your filter.
Rule #5 - Do not upload any content that involves underaged characters in sexualized situations (this does include someone rule-playing as underage).
They are using the default filter, and have not been commenting on any images that are above the Suggestive rating. And they have not posted anything in the forums that is sexualized or in any way highlights their age.
So … they’re underage and avoiding anything that would not be age-appropriate for them, so they aren’t breaking any rules by being here.
So it’s not really actionable.
I absolutely agree though that it is super creepy that they mention their age. It’s highly pick related.
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But they seem do be doing it as kind of a “Hi everyone this is me” way, rather than an A/S/L kind of way. So we’re just monitoring the situation, as they say.

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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow :3
I’ll be honest - I’m not doing well at all lately. I’m just kinda in survival mode until I get to therapy. And I don’t know when that will be. It’s part of a long list of appointments we need to make and go to.
The little things help a lot rn. There are doves nesting outside my house. A rainbow appeared near my best friend’s house and she sent me a couple pics. Mom is watching Peter Jackson’s King Kong and it makes me happy she’s enjoying one of my favourite movies <3

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