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Purple poop.

I crapped the rainbow!

@ChickPea
Chances are, you’ll be fine, but if you’re still worried, then I’d forego showers altogether and just boil lots of water and take a pseudo-bath.

@Elly Catfox
I’m trying to not shower for a week and a half, because apparently the amoeba is in tap water too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I love a relaxing shower

Definitely! Remain safe, ChickPea!

Concussion, gotta watch out for that next episode.

@ChickPea
Oh okay, then your nerves got messed with, probably with the goal of calming you down. I’m glad you have begun to find shwari. Hold onto that feeling and try to learn to bring it up again when needed. You get used to the dark, intense energy eventually.

And a concussion too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
No, somehow my nervous breakdown helped me calm down significantly.

@ChickPea
Dang, your mental health is in a rough shape. Keep doing your best to persevere, and try to begin training your mind to stay calm. Shwari.

Know that you can emerge from hell as a far stronger, more powerful purrson if you try, and keep holding on. Are you seeking therapy? That can also help big time.

And I still recommend a relaxing shower. I get the sense that there is no amoeba to worry about. Is there anything that brought this amoeba fear on? Did you come across an article or something?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
The constant barking, and the sheer anxiety and overthinking caused me.

@ChickPea
How did a dog trigger your mental breakdown?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I just my mental breakdown, it got triggered from a dog, I punched my forehead and smack it to the floor, fortunately I’m laying on a mattress, blew raspberries from my mouth got salvia into my nostrils and wipe dry with a damp towel which I recently used for brushing my teeth. I wanted to be dead, I can’t wait for this incubation period bullshit any longer, just kill me already.

I have been shown the answer as to why I’ve been made to post some pretty dark thoughts on here. In order to get to heaven, we have to embrace hell to get there.

Such upsetting posts won’t be happening from me again now that I have found shwari. But I’m sure I’m not the only one here who has trauma. We all have our scars.

I recommend to everyone here to try your best to begin healing them when you have spare time and are feeling like you can handle diving into your more difficult emotions. It is a process. Take things slow, and take breaks when need be.

This message is also a good sign for America 🇺🇸

@Anonymous #6223
The hermit crab thing is interesting because I have been lead to a video talking about how the word “qlipoth” translates to “shells”. You are facing resistance to what you want and need because hiding in a shell means you are not in alignment with your true self.

Give yourself time. Give yourself grace. But work on either making peace with the body you have, or changing it in positive ways that you can immediately do, such as exercising or painting your nails.

Don’t neglect your inner self, either. Not only can becoming who you want to be - the better, stronger version of yourself - help manifest some subtle appearance changes for the better, but this is another way to become in alignment with your inner self.

If you face any gender dysphoria, focus your thoughts on seeing yourself as your desired gender. This actually does cause subtle changes towards that gender. I noticed it when Cactus Bloom, a dear friend of mine, began to see himself in a more masculine way.

And above all else, breathe. Be calm. Don’t stress yourself focusing on such thoughts. Just try to think them now and again. Good mood, focus, and consistency are the keys to happiness and positive manifestations.

@ChickPea
I’ll communicate with your demon. You may actually want to try water. A warm shower, maybe meditate for at least a few minutes in there. Cleansing >^_^<

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
It’s not helping me the fact I am still in this anxious state

@Anonymous #6223
But for real, try to find ways to make peace with your body in its current state. It’s not going to do you a whole lot of good to be stuck in the mental prison of, “I hate my body”. The forces that be tend to dislike negative thinking, and manifesting rewards tends to happen once peace is made with the problem, or if you can show that you’re at least thinking of solutions.

I’m transmasc, but I’m also tiny as hell and no one is going to think I’m a man at first glance. I have so many obstacles to physically transitioning that it may not be possible for me. So I thought about what I can do to feel better. I found that building muscle on my arms helps a ton, and only then did I actually start seeing results. I found I can exist in my own space free of the confines of gender rules, and I actually prefer wearing some glamorous things. Fabulous femboy ✨

I think one thing you could do, is find people who accept your body as it is. I do. I may not even know who you are but, I’m all about body positivity. Your body is a temple. Love it and maybe decorate it ::3

Just cremate my ass.

@Anonymous #6223
🦀🦀🦀 crab party!

If Geriatric Gerard doesn’t crash my funeral on a parade float screaming, “When I was a young boyyy”, I’m not dying.

I’ll stop nyaow, I just thought “Geriatric Gerard” was funny xx3

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Hermit crabbing.

If I died, would anyone even know? Would I even get a funeral? I mean yeah my mom would know but I have no idea what she would even do with my body. What do you even do with a body in that situation? I’m not trying to speak ill of her. She’s not physically strong and we’re probably too poor for a funeral.

If I don’t have the most extra funeral possible, I’m not dying. This obviously means I am too young to die. As is everyone else here.

Long live us 💚

@Anonymous #6223
You need not answer this. Just think about it:

What are some things you can do that would make you feel at home in your body?

@Anonymous #6223
If My Chemical Romance’s “Welcome to The Black Parade” doesn’t play at my funeral, I’m not dying.

I hate my body.