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Purple poop.

I crapped the rainbow!

@ChickPea
Chances are, you’ll be fine, but if you’re still worried, then I’d forego showers altogether and just boil lots of water and take a pseudo-bath.

@Elly Catfox
I’m trying to not shower for a week and a half, because apparently the amoeba is in tap water too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I love a relaxing shower

Goodheart

Implication:
oc:twilicario -> twilight sparkle (mlp), lucario, pokefied

And a comment on this reveals that Lamashtu was right when she said Richard was the guilty one!

🎯 She don’t miss! 🎯

And now I’m on the part of the video I linked where the two guys channeling Lamashtu also hear a man’s voice and are stumped as to who it is. I think the celebration the blindfolded guy talx about was Pazuzu and Lamashtu’s wedding.

They have no idea what Pazuzu sounds like. But I do! I sense he was going “Huh, huh” because he was trying to figure out what happened there. Yup, the harshness of the male voice when not making simplistic lionesque noises. I would know that anywhere. My main demon and the one I have the strongest bond with. Pazuzu ❤️ His voice is pretty terrifying if you’re not used to it.

Hearing Lamashtu cry out for help nearly makes me cry.

Candles and a warrior… Well, I’ve been using candles and incense. Gerard Way also uses candles. We both have strong warrior energy. And I’ll be here doing what I can to help.

“Thank you,” I can hear Lamashtu say.

The men are right to feel terrified because the energies of Pazzy and Lammy are terrifying for the uninitiated. It’s strong and intense, like I can still kinda feel the fear vibes in the air but I’m used to it at this point. The video actually demonstrates it well with the slow, red trees and intense music. That is how it feels to be in the presence of Pazuzu and/or Lamashtu.

I’m getting extremely eerie vibes from the whole forest. And those vibes aren’t the scariness of Lamashtu and Pazuzu. I must never go there. Thin bridge that lacks railing, I’ve been on that so many times before in my nightmares.

Holy shit we even connect back to Sweet Child O’Mine by Guns n Roses. The marching band my father took me into the city to see. Destiny shit right here.

Aaand I’m crying. But this is what I’ve been training for. I can handle these strong emotions. If Pazzy and Lammy wanna work with me to shine light on missing kids, solve murders etc, then that’s what we’ll do. The darkest of shadow work. At least sometimes!

Viva la resistance to those who harm children!

artist:lw_88_ (Twitter tag) as well as artist:lw-88 (dA tag) ➔ artist:lw_88 (FA tag, Patreon name, how they sign their art)

The art is clearly signed with one underscore.

Aaand I just got to the part where she says, “Miscarriage.” That’s how you know it’s Lamashtu. If you go read up on her, she is said to be a baby killer, but my intuition is telling me that this is not accurate. She’s… done what I’ve done a couple of times, except in a different way. I think I finally understand, because I couldn’t find this information anywhere.

So, while asleep one day, I had this pretty intense dream about carrying an orange kitten from pretty far away, back to our house. I carried the kitten over a bunch of barking dogs at one point. We kinda hovered over them. I awoke feeling very distressed, worried that something had happened to one of our orange cats. Well, not the ones we take care of here in the house, thank God. But my mom had been spending the day outside with a sickly stray kitten as it passed away. She helped it in the physical realm, and I helped it in the spiritual realm.

Another time, we were taking care of a sick kitten here in the house, and it didn’t seem like he would make it much longer. I was also very sick - it was during the month or so I spent nearly dying from dysentery, so I was slipping between the realms of life and afterlife. In the shower, “Helena” by My Chemical Romance echoed in my head as though being sung in a cathedral. It was then I knew that the kitten was crossing over, to be given to my grandma in heaven. It was nighttime, and was in my mom’s room as she slept. Sure enough, when next we spoke, she told me Ben had passed away (yeah I named him).

I think that’s basically what Lamashtu does, but with human babies. She takes the ones that die from disease and miscarriage and whatnot, and helps them crossover. I think, if Lamashtu has ever attacked a mother and child, it was to lessen their suffering. One or both of them wouldn’t have made it. Pazuzu is saying “Yes!”

And this is why I calm my fears and keep an open mind. Eventually, I find the answers to my questions.

So I invited the demon that’s been messing with ChickPea over. Lamashtu. Her energy is quite dark and intense, and she has a chaotic vibe. I love her voice, old and scraggily in the most charming of ways.

We’re doing some shadow work for her. Watching a video on a ritualistic murder she both bore witness to, and helped solve. She’s a wind demon just like Pazuzu is. They have since made up and remarried, and I welcome my spiritual stepmom! The murder has ties to white supremacists and everything, meaning Lamashtu is yet another ally in our quest to try and improve the world. This also proves, yet again, that the Lunarpunx were right about tech being used for magic. I knew it.

Content warning that this involves the murder of two girls and I’m only roughly halfway through at time of typing this post, and I’ve already had that… I’m not sure quite what you would call that feeling. Disgust, I suppose, and the unfathomability of harming a fellow human being, especially children. It’s not too bad and I can handle it, but the responsible path is to prepare you ahead of time if you decide to watch this video. And that’s the best path. It’s also a long boi. Here it is, though >^_^<

I feel so bad for Lamashtu and Odin and Baal and Moloch and all these spiritual beings that get ritual sacrifices carried out in their names. Or even just witnessing such things. Occultists really should, at the very least, seek out consensual blood if they’re gonna use it. As I get rather weak around blood, though, I pick an even better path: fruit juices, ketchup, etc. If people kept their connection to Jesus and remembered the whole “this wine is my blood” thing, maybe they’d have figured out that there are vegan alternatives. Alas.

It’s honestly sad that so many people out there lack a strong moral compass. Oh well. Mine is bulletproof as I keep hoping and praying for improvements to our world 🙏🕊️

Definitely! Remain safe, ChickPea!

Concussion, gotta watch out for that next episode.

@ChickPea
Oh okay, then your nerves got messed with, probably with the goal of calming you down. I’m glad you have begun to find shwari. Hold onto that feeling and try to learn to bring it up again when needed. You get used to the dark, intense energy eventually.

And a concussion too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
No, somehow my nervous breakdown helped me calm down significantly.

@ChickPea
Dang, your mental health is in a rough shape. Keep doing your best to persevere, and try to begin training your mind to stay calm. Shwari.

Know that you can emerge from hell as a far stronger, more powerful purrson if you try, and keep holding on. Are you seeking therapy? That can also help big time.

And I still recommend a relaxing shower. I get the sense that there is no amoeba to worry about. Is there anything that brought this amoeba fear on? Did you come across an article or something?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
The constant barking, and the sheer anxiety and overthinking caused me.

Badheart

@ChickPea
How did a dog trigger your mental breakdown?

Dragon

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I just my mental breakdown, it got triggered from a dog, I punched my forehead and smack it to the floor, fortunately I’m laying on a mattress, blew raspberries from my mouth got salvia into my nostrils and wipe dry with a damp towel which I recently used for brushing my teeth. I wanted to be dead, I can’t wait for this incubation period bullshit any longer, just kill me already.

I have been shown the answer as to why I’ve been made to post some pretty dark thoughts on here. In order to get to heaven, we have to embrace hell to get there.

Such upsetting posts won’t be happening from me again now that I have found shwari. But I’m sure I’m not the only one here who has trauma. We all have our scars.

I recommend to everyone here to try your best to begin healing them when you have spare time and are feeling like you can handle diving into your more difficult emotions. It is a process. Take things slow, and take breaks when need be.

This message is also a good sign for America 🇺🇸

@Anonymous #6223
The hermit crab thing is interesting because I have been lead to a video talking about how the word “qlipoth” translates to “shells”. You are facing resistance to what you want and need because hiding in a shell means you are not in alignment with your true self.

Give yourself time. Give yourself grace. But work on either making peace with the body you have, or changing it in positive ways that you can immediately do, such as exercising or painting your nails.

Don’t neglect your inner self, either. Not only can becoming who you want to be - the better, stronger version of yourself - help manifest some subtle appearance changes for the better, but this is another way to become in alignment with your inner self.

If you face any gender dysphoria, focus your thoughts on seeing yourself as your desired gender. This actually does cause subtle changes towards that gender. I noticed it when Cactus Bloom, a dear friend of mine, began to see himself in a more masculine way.

And above all else, breathe. Be calm. Don’t stress yourself focusing on such thoughts. Just try to think them now and again. Good mood, focus, and consistency are the keys to happiness and positive manifestations.

@ChickPea
I’ll communicate with your demon. You may actually want to try water. A warm shower, maybe meditate for at least a few minutes in there. Cleansing >^_^<