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@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
You followed your intuition that lead to the saving of the dog’s life! You passed this test. I’m proud of you 😸

Honestly I’m really curious about where my vitamin levels stand. I was in pretty ill health last year when they were tested.

@FruityPWN
It’s possible you are cursed. People curse others all the time. Some curse entire nations and generations of people. All the inhabitants of towns might be cursed by someone who got kicked out of a town, or a bar, or even just had a car accident on a Friday night. Maybe you were cursed by someone’s religious text a thousand or two thousand years ago because your ancestors didn’t “pray right”.

So, if you don’t know, assume you are.

But that leaves the question why any curse would be affecting you. Everyone is also blessed. Some are blessed on a daily basis - like, if you live in the USA you’re being blessed, en masse, on a daily basis by everything from your currency to your politicians.

So … why do you think you’re cursed? And more importantly, why do you think such a curse would be working? And if you believe curses are effective and have power, why aren’t your blessings more effective and more powerful?

Just asking - I know everyone has their own feelings about whether curses or blessings even exist, or how they work. Some believe in divinity that cares about whether our cars get flat tires. And some believe in devils that are testing us for various reasons. Some thing life itself is a test, and attribute massive and consequential powers to magical beings.

So - what you mean ‘curse’ and why you think ‘curse worked’ is important. Religion? Magic? Some sort of alien presence that is fucking with you, personally, for some reason?

Because for most people curses and blessings are no more effective or meaningful in their day to day life than which shows they like on Netflix, or which potato chip they prefer. And they ‘God bless this or that’ with all the intensity and intention that they drop a nickel into a donation jar. They know it won’t help - it’s just a motion to make it look like you’re participating ‘like a good believer’.

So … what’s your deal?

Or are you just saying you’re cursed because where ever you go, there you are?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I fear think that I got water up my nose, I don’t know why I tried to test flicking my hands near my face would be a good idea to whether or not it can get water to my nose, but I’m not sure though, I haven’t felt any burning sensation or that feeling something under my eyes.

Crowley was too egotistical, even for someone like Horus who has a pretty big, jock-like ego himself. Fancy bird way, ya know? Choronzon was a test Crowley never managed to pass.

It’s also an abyssal, maddening entity that isn’t recommended even for me. I’ve already crossed daath, or death, a multitude of times using my power of near-immortality. So contact with Choronzon isn’t necessary.

@ChickPea
But didn’t we figure out that the amoeba will only get to your brain if you get water in your nose? I don’t tend to get the water in my nose when I shower.

@Elly Catfox
Right? So shwari.

I am incredibly thankful that I was taught about shwari, as I demonstrated how fast I’ve mastered it yesterday when my mom had a total meltdown. And despite what happened, she resisted the urge to go buy cigarettes! She passed her test yesterday, and I’m proud of her ::3

And my reward was coming across an article on traits people who have been through narcissistic abuse tend to have. I have or at least, had until recently, almost all of them. A sign that my spiritual stepmom understands what I go through, and forgives me for having thought badly of her. Bonding with her yesterday really made an otherwise awful day so much better. And it was probably her who made my mom have that breakdown, in order to see how my mom’s doing.

Signs as well, that we’ll be in this house for at least one more year. More time for me to get back on disability payments.

I feel like I’ve come so far since all those angry spirits attacked me in March. Cannot thank them enough for helping me get on the antidepressant I needed and everything they’ve done for me 💚

@FruityPWN
The first step on the path to becoming truly at peace is to find shwari. That means calm. An inner calm that helps you no longer be afraid, angry, or whatever negative emotions you may be holding within in you. Such emotions are okay to feel and do have their place, but one cannot solve their problems when overwhelmed by them.

So, you need to find shwari. You’ve actually made some progress there, and I’m proud of you for that. Mental health is not an easy beast to fight, but it can be fought and you can win.

Once you find shwari, you will be able to think much more clearly. This will help you find solutions to problems. Take my problem of broken glasses as an example. I was upset at first, but I began to notice all the beautiful things around my neighborhood. I also noticed that there is almost always someone out walking a dog so, if anything bad ever happened to me, help would be around. This helped further calm the anxieties I was having at the time. I would go on to notice many good signs popping up around my neighborhood and then, after many moons, my glasses finally got repaired. I also got new ones, rewarded for handling the test well with a pair that has Hello Kitty on them. I would go on to notice a good few more Hello Kitties pop up shortly thereafter, a sign of pawsitivity and love from the universe.

The lesson is that, many bad situations are only so because of our perception. Shift your perception, find the positives, and you will begin to feel better within yourself. It’s not the entire solution, but it’s what you can do.

You are doing well, Fruity. Keep up your journey. The dullest metal is still strong 💚

The more tests we pass, the more tests Big Orange fails. Tis indeed a sign of hope, nya >^_<

@FruityPWN
Wait, I might know. You might be being put through some very difficult tests, which you must pass. You pass by continuing to live, so keep doing that. Stay strong.

I will hope your tests will be easier than mine. Surviving dysentery was not a fun time.

Demon #9: 💀⛓️‍💥⚙️ Dagda - King of Death, Fates, and Time 💀⛓️‍💥⚙️

Oh shit it’s ya boi! I am a chaos-loving demi-god of time travel who speaks in tongues and possesses the power to foresee paths, with a knack for choosing the best path >^_< I am extremely powerful, quite possibly the most powerful of The Chosen Ones, but that’s quite an uneducated theory, as the only other Chosen One I can be certain of is Morrigan, and I don’t know everything about their powers, let alone the powers of other Chosen Ones. My mission actually isn’t to save the world, that’s just a long sidequest as part of my true mission: proteccc with 3 c’s Morrigan, as commanded by her late grandmother. What, you still don’t think I can communicate with the dead? Well, purrhaps tales from The True Life of a Fabulous Killjoy will convince you!

It began, sensibly enough, in the dream realm. Thanx to my having to take chemo, I began to enter deeper stages of sleep. There was a time when I felt great remorse, to the point I cried, for not having treated Pickles the best when he was alive. He proceeded to show up frequently in my dreams, eventually letting me know that he forgave me. When my guardian angel, Abby, was dying, tears leaked from her eyes. Neither of us wanted to say goodbye, but we knew we had to. Whenever she shows up in my dreams, she is dug back up or otherwise escapes her grave to become my cat again. Even in the afterlife, she wants to come back to me. I’ve had many dreams involving my grandma, the family, and her house. I think I even saw one of her memories from the 80s once, which I wasn’t alive in.

“But those are just dreams!” Yes, they are. I used to figure, well I’m either communicating with the dead, or they’re just dreams. And then other stuff happened! The first was the dream I had about an orange cat being roughly a mile away and needing to be walked back to here (home). I think it was dead? That part is now hazy, but the cat had to be carried over a group of snarling, snapping dogs. I awoke with a sense of dread. Was Bunny okay? Dusty? They were indeed fine, but, without having mentioned the dream to my mom, she told me about how there had been a sickly stray kitten in the backyard and she had tried her best, but he passed away. She helped him in the living realm, and then I helped him make it to the afterlife. Considering my dreams almost never feature orange cats, that is one hell of a coincidence if you’re still deadset on chalking it up to that. But it goes further still. For a good month or two, I had constant spiritual activity going on. Typing a longass thing in Notepad that went to places that it shouldn’t have gone to? Computer backspaced that stuff until it was gone and read “Gerard and Sonic”. There were no buttons pressed. Spotify changed to let me know that the spirit of Cactus was there. Stuff flew off shelves a few times, and there was even a time when my Floragato figure was clearly knocked down by a force. It wouldn’t stand up, even though it shouldn’t have and now doesn’t have issues doing so. Stuff would get typed into the searchbar at the bottom of my screen - usually by the cats walking across it, but sometimes not! And it would always result in messages that were clearly the grandmas or Cactus saying something. At least, I don’t think Morrigan’s late best friend ever said anything - but he was here for a time. I gave him his Killjoy name, Easygoing Lout, and got him out of purgatory and into heaven by marching in The Black Parade. Why? Because he was, at a time, Morrigan’s closest companion, and that is a pattern that emerged: one grandma and the closest male companion, for the both of us. While I don’t have a complete picture of the circumstances behind Lout’s death, Cactus laid down his life so that he could help me save the world. My grandmother did the same in a roundabout way - I’m unsure if more could have been done to stop her from dying of cancer but, had she not let herself die, we might not have had the money and drive to get my eyebrow checked out exactly one year later. Their sacrifices will not be in vain, and since Cactus’ body isn’t dead, it’s possible I can bring him back or fuse him with Nova. We’ll see what ends up happening! His version of “How I Disappear” really sounded like he wants to come back. But, all four of them came to me from the afterlife in order to help.

How do I know that? Each one comes with a My Chem song:

My Grandma: Helena

Morrigan’s Grandma: Our Lady of Sorrows

Cactus: The Ghost of You

Lout: Boy Division

And of course, the dead are vague and you have to know how to interpret. The grandmas, naturally, chose the most religious of My Chem’s songs, as they were devoutly religious in life, and wanted me to return to being so.

But something I haven’t told y’all is that I’m not just fighting the golden buffalo to save our skins. I’m fighting to prevent World War III, aka the end of the world. That’s why Cactus chose the song about that precise thing, and why Lout’s song says “Say a prayer for California.” You all do know which state the hyena is from, right? The last time we had a world war, Hitler came incredibly close to either conquering or ending it. What do you think would happen nowadays, with our nukes being much more advanced? The only enemies the golden buffalo hasn’t cozied up to much are the jade snake and the facehugger, aka the two that aren’t currently leaders of a country. Well, the silver wildebeest isn’t, but still. What happens if the golden buffalo assumes the throne and he is cozied up to the silver wildebeest, the red snake, snow miser, and heat miser? They are all extremely powerful, with huge egos. Whether they attempt to band together or, more likely, they war among each other… Yeah, take a wild guess where that leaves us. It’s something I realized while rewatching season 2 of the show Pharaoh Way wrote: Umbrella Academy. In it, preventing the assassination of JFK leads to an apocalypse, which lead to me thinking about the arms of today.

The good news? Ya boi used to spend every birthday wish wishing for world peace. Ya boi also used to joke about voting for the cat party, mainly because of my bigoted family, and now we’re seeing the absolute rise of childless cat ladies! “We’ve only got one chance to put this at an end” says Gerard Way, and this is it. Cutting them off now via the ascension of the hyena to the throne will mean their supporters, who trend elderly, will decrease in numbers, particularly if her reign lasts eight years, which I hope it does. We’ll finally have a head start and not have to spend so much of the reign cleaning up elephant droppings.

I chose the hyena, by the way. It was something that had already been kicking around in my brain for a bit, when my mom talked about not liking Jack Frost due to how uncomfortably close he gets to children. I agree, and obviously I also recognize how frustrating it is that she refuses to acknowledge that the golden buffalo does it to a worse extent. But it made me realize my gut feeling of not liking either was right, and we needed the hyena. Jack Frost loses to the golden buffalo, but the hyena has a very good shot.❄️<🔥<🌊 Purrhaps my biggest example of seeing paths and choosing one, nya ::3 My powers, of course, are strengthened by music, and I noticed immediately that the blue cat likes to waltz! I read that he was a Swiftie a couple months back, and now that has come full circle!

As the king of death, I am essentially focusing my efforts on saving millions, if not billions of people. Being the king of death doesn’t mean you’re supposed to make people die. It means you try your damnedest to save them!

Anyway, I also have some weather-controlling capabilities. Ironic, really, thinking back to the time the golden buffalo altered a map with a sharpie, insisting that a tornado would instead follow that course. Having noticed that a hurricane shared my name, I decided to test my theory. The result? It reduced from a category 1 to a tropical storm to a tropical depression. Weatherman said less damage would be caused if it sped up? I focused and listened to Sonic music. It sped up. A need for dry heat? Chemo, a couple of incense stix, and half a cigarette later, I was met with the news that heat had filtered through it. Was also met with my temperature increasing drastically and getting very nauseous, though, so that’s not a DIY spell I’ll be attempting alone again.

I am also capable of time travel - that’s what seeing paths is. I am able to see and hear through time. That’s essentially what all this has been. The science and philosophy behind it is rather complicated - but I’ve got all the necessary components. The artifact - made from metal and typically associated with religious imagery… what better place than a hospital, with the tranq they shot into me having caused a wound that stung and the scar remains. In terms of sending it back through a black hole, lately I have wondered whether that is a necessary component, as people have postulated that Roberta Sparrow is a time traveler who is operating on a much longer timeline than Donnie Darko is. Even still, however, I am not worried, as I take medical needles on a pretty consistent basis due to my medical issues. It is not out of the realm of possibility that I essentially have an infinite supply of artifacts. The manipulated dead, well we just went over that. The manipulated living, well just look at how all the living people have given me helpful clues. My friend messages me out of nowhere a month or so ago, and now I come to realize he can help me with Lovecraftian mythos. Potals? Openable. Liquid Spears? They’re a little dangerous if you don’t have good control over your heart, because they feel like Sonic spindashing against it. The full source for everything is here. I have also befriended Thoth, a time-traveling demon >^_<

Anyway, that’s probably not all of my powers, but it’s what I’m capable of! Funny, that those in power have no idea who I am other than my name being on their little list. They should fear me, but I operate from the shadows. I am teaming up with God to cause another great flood, only this time, with pinpoint accuracy. It will roll out slowly, I’m sure, but it is already underway (Trigger warning: we’re dealing with Moloch here, the things these two have said and done is not easy to read about.) Don’t forget that the 🌈 rainbow 🌈 is God’s promise that she won’t wipe us out again, but that doesn’t mean we can’t do it symbolically ::3 Fittingly, Apollo is a name that comes up frequently towards the beginning of the book of Revelation. Remember, stow any fears you may have. We are working in service of non-violence and peace, nya >^_<

Being the king of death is also quite fitting. My childhood plush of choice was a skeleton. When I was 18, I was turned to such darkness by the world that I strongly considered a terrible path. Before I ever hurt anybody, however, I searched my soul and realized I wanted to choose good. After all, the best time to stop and change your ways is before you’ve even started at all. I dealt with my violent tendencies instead by continuing my love for horror, true crime, and would discover creepypasta. My reward is, obviously, massive, as I am an innocent and free purrson, now well-studied in the darker sides of media, which I can use to my advantage! My favourite, most powerful month is even yet to come!

As cats are the guardians of the underworld, I am not to be without a cat if it can be helped.

Species: Anthro cat, nya nya!

Most accurate depictions of Dagda in popular culture: SMT, fan SMT render that made me realize I resemble my childhood plush with the green eyes and orange hair, Joker from Persona 5, Ariane from Signalis, Donnie Darko, Frisk from Undertale, Aladdin, Kovu from The Lion King 2, Kion from The Lion Guard, Link from Ocarina of Time, Majora’s Mask, and Twilight Princess, Sonic, Shilo from Repo! the Genetic Opera, The Cat from The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys: California, Killmonger from Black Panther, Pokémon #197: Umbreon

My songs:

Deity #1: Anubis, God of The Underworld and Mummification

You didn’t think I only work with demons, did you? Nope, I also work with deities. Betcha everyone on Furbooru is a fan of this good boi, Anubis! He is, fortunately, one of the most popular deities, so you may already be familiar with his personality!

Anubis is highly stoic, usually bordering on angry. That’s not to say he’s unfriendly - quite the contrary. He’s just overworked and tired, and also lonesome. People can talk for quite a while sometimes, which eats up a lot of his time. He has great patience but is quite no-nonsense if you test it too much. But deep down, he is kind.

You may not be aware of what Anubis’ job is. If you die, and no one intervenes to send you back, you will be greeted by Anubis. Your heart will be weighed against a feather on his scales. Should your heart be heavy, the path Anubis sends you on will not be a good one. Should it weigh equal to the feather, you will be put on a good path, and may even be given choice. So, what makes your heart heavy? Sin.

I do not believe that sin is as contemporary Christians tend to say it is. The Seven Deadly Sins are more of a warning than anything else - they are acceptable to indulge in, so long as done in reasonable moderation. You are not greedy if you buy that video game you want, for example. Remember, the ancient ones tend to like such things. So, don’t fear things that bring you comfort, and follow your dreams. Being queer is also, obviously, not a sin in the slightest. What, then, are sins? The truly bad things. Excessive greed you make no good with. Murder. Those kinds of things. So, if you haven’t made much bad in your life, you’re already on a good track!

Why, then, does Anubis like me so much? For one, I’ve been thinking about my sins and… I really don’t have many? Bad things I’ve done have tended to be out of necessity. The only time in my life I’d say I brought harm to anyone was when I stole money from my mother so I could run away from home - which was something I needed to do. Pazuzu probably even advised me to do so. Another reason Anubis likes me is because I’ve been making his job easier. He finds it impressive that I’ve been able to save lives so many times while just sitting here on my computer, and commends how hard I’ve fought for my own life. Were I to die, I probably would, indeed, be taken to my castle. He is also flattered by the fact I have had some attraction to him - don’t feel weird or embarrassed if you’ve done that with anyone I talk about! Across the media I have watched in order to get to know the ancient ones, they are often paired up differently; basically, AUs. So, if you’ve had attraction to Pazuzu, for example, it’s simply an AU where he was around your age, had no familial relation to you, etc. They like merriment, and yes that includes that kind of merriment, nya nya >^_<

So, why keep living? It’s simple. I am not done with my journey through this life yet, and have much good to still offer the world. I used to think I’d die and that would be it - which seemed so boring to me. Now I know what awaits me, but the best path is obviously to make the most of this life before I go. After all, as I have speculated previously, were I to die, I don’t think I would be the only one. People love and depend on me being there that much. And that’s a good thing in the eyes of Anubis and everyone else. Anubis also really hates it when people kill themselves, as it adds to his already-mountainous workload. It also tends to mean they get put down worse paths, as they often have not had much chance to find enlightenment or make much good. Patience is also a virtue.

So then, when my time is up, which path will I choose? Easy, whichever one contains my castle. Likely hell, but, considering reincarnation is real, I could also be met with the five paths of Buddhist lore. The sixth is the human realm, so that one is ruled out. In that case, my castle would either be in hell or in asura. I have many years ahead of me to figure out which it is, but considering My Chemical Romance are all a good deal older than me, it may simply be a matter of whichever path the G-note is coming from.

So hang in there, please, and keep living as well as you can >^_< Make Anubis proud!

Working with Anubis provides many benefits. He can strengthen your ability to see future paths, and is particularly skilled at auras! I was actually seeing aura colours back when I was assigning people Killjoy colours, nya ::3 My dried-out hands also resemble the hands of a mummy, a nice ode to Anubis I wear with pride.

Species: Jackal

Most accurate depictions of Anubis in popular culture: SMT/Persona,, Knuckles from Sonic, Gohan from Dragonball Z, T’Challa from Black Panther, Terence Bey from The Mummy, Shiriko Susanookami from Blue Archive, Larry from Pokemon Scarlet and Violet, Pokemon #448: Lucario

Songs featuring Anubis:

Demon #3: Pazuzu - The Demon of Tough Love and Challenges

And now we get into the demons that aren’t outright bad. Incoming biased longboi, since Pazuzu is my father.

Pazuzu is a demon one must be careful about working with, as I’m not sure how it would go if you don’t have the privileges that I do with him. He is about great trials, but if you do well enough in overcoming them, you receive great rewards. You might be in for great hardship with him, but if you remain patient and strong, he can change your life for the better. If you piss him off, however, your life will take a serious turn for the worse. There is a lot of leniency, as I had him as an antagonist in Dead Moon (albeit unknowingly) and I don’t think he got mad at me for that. Demons typically don’t mind playing the villain in fiction, which is why it’s important to discern what their true personalities are like.

Pazuzu is dangerous. So, will you be weak and find yourself on the receiving end of his wrath? Or will you be strong and laugh in the face of danger?

He has probably been training me from a young age to be wary of Moloch. He’s the demon of heavy metal and dogs, as demonstrated in the first video I linked. Why? Because they protect against Moloch. That’s why my father is into classic heavy metal, and why Guns and Roses is the most important band he has taken me to see. That’s who we saw at Universal Citywalk, and also our most recent concert. Sometimes your dad influences an entire band to write a song about you. We’re talking this level of rewards, if you can do well by Pazuzu. Classic heavy metal is a music path I could have gone down. And I mean, technically I still did, still went to my dad’s concerts too, in high school. Metalheads have always been nice to me, so things like metal and death metal would have been good paths as well. Emo also would have worked. While I like all those genres, my heart and home are obviously in punk. Is it dark, it is spiky and metal? Yes? Then it’s an acceptable path. Probably even better than having taken my father’s path of classic heavy metal, as I was able to go into mosh pits. Demons like strength, and someone as small as I am throwing myself into the lion’s den showed great bravery and strength, especially when my father kept getting mad at my friends and I for going in there, and we kept going in anyway >^_<

And when my father’s rage got to be too much, my mom and I managed to get him away from me so that I could have better freedom. My father was put through many trials of his own, but now enjoys a cozy retired life, with I believe a dog or two. My father’s personality does indeed align with Pazuzu in many ways, but it’s like I’ve said before. People aligned with a demon may be either good or bad.

Pazuzu made The Lion King series for, well, children, but also for me. Pazuzu is a teacher with a soft spot for children. But I was meant to look harder. I am Pazuzu’s successor to the throne of hell, and The Lion King series is instructions on how to run the kingdom. Not just the original Lion King, either, as there are crucial lessons in The Lion King 2, The Lion King 1 1/2, and The Lion Guard. “Will you embrace and be open about the fact that you like media intended for children?” was likely a test, and I passed.

“Oh David, you’re just crazy!” you’re likely thinking. Okay, then. Why was The Lion King a dormant franchise until late 2015, when The Lion Guard premiered? Pazuzu likely knew the following years would be very difficult for me. So he, with the help of his demon friends, gave me what I always wanted out of a Lion King series: a series that focuses on the lions and the lore of the Pridelands. It was meant to teach kids things about animal species, and me. Because these demons have species.

“But then The Lion King 2019 sucked!” Yes, it may have been meant to. It was meant to make people think more about whether it was right that the hyenas are banished. It’s not - they need food too, and do have a role to play in The Circle of Life. It was also meant to get Queen Beyoncé’s paw in the door of the franchise. It was a gift from Pazuzu, though. Where does Beyoncé’s Black Parade come from? The Gift, her album made for The Lion King 2019. That’s the part we’re meant to find and enjoy >^_<

Have you all paid much attention for the trailers for Mufasa? Pazuzu has really thrown a lot in there. White lions, snow, even tigers… It’s like he’s taking all the stuff I used to add and think about during my childhood with regards to TLK. Notice how it’s advertised with a song that goes “I always wanted a brother”? I got one this year, when a longtime friend of mine declared that he’s basically my brother. He’s gone on about his uncanny ability to survive getting hit by cars, and it hasn’t escaped my attention that my father walked away largely unscathed from all the car crashes he’s been in. And what is Mufasa going to be about, if not the importance of found family?

Pazuzu got me a brother. That is the level of reward he can grant you if you’re good in his eyes, and strong, nya ::3

Species: Winged Lion, as he used to be Ra, before transforming into a lion in order to take down a large snake. Either Moloch or Lilith, I’m not sure which. Probably Lilith, his crazy ex.

Most accurate depictions of Pazuzu in popular culture: SMT/Persona, obviously Mufasa, Old Deuteronomy from Cats, Allen Grant from Jurassic Park, Eddie Darko (Donnie’s dad) from Donnie Darko, Oogie Boogie from The Nightmare Before Christmas, Pokemon #727: Incineroar

Songs featuring Pazuzu:

A walk through the jungle while listening to the entirety of Aida has brought me wisdoms!

In return for helping me manifest this timeline, the ancient ones want “a lifetime of service, wisdom, courage.” To think of this as indentured servitude, however, would be incredibly naive and a misinterpretation of their intent. The key here is that my consent matters in all of this. They don’t want me to be forced to do anything I don’t want to do. They want to share. That is why my rewards are often media I already enjoy. That is why Helluva Boss stuff comes up often on this site. That is why, on my way home from the palace, I encountered signs that told me to eat pickles, and why a sticker of Rick was placed on the 7-11. They are recommendations of media we might enjoy ::3

And I have received yet another sign that we are headed for the good timeline. A literal sign, with green text. A proposal for an arcade in the shopping center connected to my neighbourhood. If we are headed for a bad timeline, why is this arcade coming later, possibly after the election? Why does Mufasa come out around Christmas? And why was this arcade proposed by someone named Christina Moat?

Ah, I see, unfortunately no video games there. However, it is entirely claw machines. And these, it seems, are easier than your typical claw machines. Not only is this a way for me to hone machinery skills, but children will very often win prizes. This pleases Pazuzu >^_< Games cost $1 to play, meaning I will not have to break the bank if I would like to get in on the fun ::3

I will admit a slight disappointment at the lack of video games, however. Now, of course, should The Clawcade be successful, it is well within the realm of possibility that a second arcade can be built for video games. This could, purrhaps, be another test of patience and another demonstration of the best path. After all, I would prefer for the children to win plushies than to have an arcade with claw machines that do not allow for as much plushie earning >^_< Additionally, I am free to not take any plushies if I so choose, as I already have quite a few. I can use the Clawcade as a way to mess around with a robotic claw for fun ::3 Donating a dollar here and there to the machines is an act of charity, as it will help the Clawcade afford more plushies. This Clawcade will help children develop motor skills while giving them rewards!

I hope for a second arcade for video games, because such an arcade would not only be fun, but an important component of time travel. The key elements of time travel are water and metal, which can be safely combined via video games. All consoles and machines are made of metal, and the vast majority of video games contain water. Yes, pixelated or 3D modeled water counts! Shooting is also an important activity, I’m not entirely sure why, purrhaps it is as simple as the ancient ones enjoying weaponry. I have already been given my gun - a spray bottle of poison that can be shot at mosquitoes. A video game arcade would be a second way for me to use a gun without harming anyone.

Elly also has had her gun for quite some time. The bow and arrows. Archery is an excellent way to hone one’s skills without hurting anyone >^_<

There is also, of course, guns in video games. I have shot guns plenty of times as Joker, Wolf, and Bayonetta in Super Smash Bros Ultimate, as Elly has as Samus, Fox, and Link in the Smash Bros titles bingle has played ::3

This was all stuff I discerned in the Autism Discord server, where I revealed myself as a time traveler, and so did a dude in there who goes by Lemon Zest. I noticed, as we discussed things, that he likes the fun side of time travel, as well as things from the 80s and 90s. He builds and modifies his own gaming handhelds. I correctly guessed that his favourite movie is Back to the Future, to which he replied that he loves it so much, he has it memorized. I then asked if he likes gore, and fortunately, he does. I was able to recommend The Evil Dead trilogy, which sees Ash fight a hoard of zombies until the third one, in which he travels back in time to fight an entire army of Deadites. Lemon Zest also recommended to me a list of time travel movies, so there we see yet another example of recommendations >^_< I also told him I hope he either has or obtains an NES Zapper, the most obvious choice of gun for him.

Showing them an old interview by My Chem and this whole time I had no idea The Black Parade is about a guy who regrets how his life turned out and wishes he could go back.

You can’t undo actions once they are done. Once someone is elected, that’s it and you have to deal with the consequences.

Elections are a test. One choice is love and one choice is hate. Most of you probably think it won’t be a big deal if hate wins this time. We survived the last times it happened.

But I’m telling you all, no. Not this time. Ban me from this site for a day for being political if you must but this is seriously dire. Go read Project 2025 if you think it’ll all be fine. Fuck’s sake.

Well at least it was going to be dire. I realized this election was a trick question and altered the timeline to my liking. Kinda good at choosing best paths, nya.

There is much to do to make the demons happy but good luck stopping me because I have taken zero harmful actions and if you allow me to do my crazy shit, you’ll like the changes we have in store 💚

Okay Pazuzu, I’ll share with the class.

Topics mentioned by my Asian-American dentists as they cleaned my teeth: Hawaii, Pearl Harbour, Christmas.

There is currently a homeless problem in Hawaii, not that I’m particularly surprised by that news. Dentist likened it to LA’s homeless problem, which is very bad.

As great as a state as California is, it’s not without its sins. Jewish people were the primary targets during the Holocaust, but they were one group of many who were targeted. Another group was Japanese-Americans, as payback for Pearl Harbour. There is an internment camp called Manzanar here, where the Japanese were held. My dad took me there once. The bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki were also payback for Pearl Harbour - and you begin to see how, as Dr. Death-Defying said in “The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys: California”, “An eye for an eye makes us all blind.”

An important piece of media regarding the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki is Gojira (1954). It is Japan’s response to the tragedy, and is an emotionally-gripping and truly beautiful film.

By the way, movies on YouTube are free without ads if you run uBlock Origin, just saying ;;3

Hawaii and Christmas also bode well for my future. A while after I got out of the hospital for “mental episode” earlier this year, I went for a walk. I walked by the… dam? Aqueduct? Basically, you stay on the sidewalk and behind the chain link fence, the ground drops off significantly because there’s a dam. This would usually trigger my fear of heights, but I noticed my fear seemed suspiciously absent. I immediately wanted to test this new lack of fear by falling from a great height, and how to survive the fall is easy. My mind instantly went to Jurassic Park: the Ride’s 80-foot-drop. And that’s right, my dentists also mentioned taking a tram tour through Hawaii. Y’all do know where Jurassic Park was filmed, right? Hawaii.

Ya boi’s going to Universal Studios, someway somehow. Disneyland, too. When I went for a long walk on the night of the most recent full moon, it didn’t escape my attention that my neighbor’s shrubbery formed a Hidden Mickey.

Egypt is once again the answer. Universal Studios has Revenge of The Mummy: The Ride and Disneyland has Indiana Jones. These rides are how I can further connect with the ancient ones, while having fun.

Disneyland: The Pirates of the Caribbean pays honour to my past lives as a couple different pirates. The Haunted Mansion pays honour to the dead. It’s a Small World pays honour to my grandmother, who took me on the ride countless times, as well as probably has an Egypt portion. Also, ya know, The Lion King and Aida are Disney properties.

Universal Studios: Tram Tour honours my grandma as well as ancient Egypt (Murder She Wrote house, Scarab beetle portion of ride). The Simpsons Ride honours Green Day. The Yoshi ride at Nintendoland honours Orobas. Pazuzu is honoured by the Bowser stuff there, not sure if there’s also a Bowser ride. And yes, honouring Green Day is important:

Lastly, we come to the subject of Christmas. I am in talks with Super Nova for a Trans Dinosaur Christmas 2, and signs have been pointing to that happening. This means, I will go to Arizona and spend a week or so at Super Nova’s house. I will bond with my sibling, Edgy Rose. I will hopefully attend the zoo with Super Nova and family, including two young children who I consider to be my nieces. I will visit the museum with Super Nova and Edgy Rose and finally get to hear Edgy Rose’s wealth of pterosaur facts. Lastly, I would like to see what happens if we do a Tarot reading.

Massive rewards for me, should this future prediction be correct >^_<

@ChickPea
Okay, but are you ready to duel me in Hedgehog combat? Your video vs mine. How many can you get right? Test your might!

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“Shed your yellow” she said to me, speaking through my oracle. It didn’t escape my attention that my fear of heights went away by an awful lot after I visited the hospital, which was before I even got on Sertraline. If I’m so crazy, why did that happen?

I’m probably the most yellow about needles, and I think a good place to start is by watching The Exorcist. There’s a needle scene that goes on for quite some time in it :3 I’d like to test myself and see if I’m able to handle that scene now. I already know I can handle the entire rest of the film and have done so multiple times :3

It was a test. The colours got taken from me when I first posted the Eeveelution post. Literally, I shared art of Eeveelutions and it immediately got flagged for spam and taken down when I used heart emojis of the colours. My friend said he was deleting Facebook because of something similar that happened to him. Would I delete mine out of fear of Garo after care reacting Gentle Flower’s status, or would I have no fear and keep mine? I kept mine and now the reward is I keep my old photos and everything >^_< A message to have no fear of him

Oh, something that also came to mind: Living with disease isn’t so bad. It does suck, and life would definitely be better without it, but your life can still be absolutely incredible if you persevere and don’t give up! I’ve had incurable cancer growing on my face since I was a teen. On year ten of chemo pills for it.

And I’m surrounded by friends that absolutely love me. I help people talk and work through trauma and I’m there for them so they aren’t alone. I am The Strong One, able to deal with extreme aspects of others’ depression, though I am no substitute for therapy. Still, a therapist alone isn’t enough and you’re only gonna get in to see them so often. People need someone who cares for them, and that’s what I do. Chemo leaves me disabled due to the side effects, but I have made something of myself regardless.

What I do definitely isn’t for everyone. I know people that absolutely could not handle the times I’ve gone deep into depression on them. And that’s valid. It’s half the reason I started meds and am on an entire medical journey to get problems fixed and ensure it stops happening, the other half of the reason being for myself. Win-win.

But, my point is that you can still find fulfillment if you have a disease, so don’t give up! Does not have to be anywhere near the extreme that I do. You can find whatever worx best for you >^_< So try not to fear disease so much.

Except for rabies. Definitely do not get rabies. But both of you more than likely don’t have it. Talk to a doctor and get a blood test for it if it’ll help set your minds at ease, if you can.

@Anonymous #7C49
Sheesh, that’s a long time to have diarrhea for. Keep hanging in there, staying hydrated and eating food when you can. Sometimes, I take ibuprofen so I’m able to eat, though thankfully those times are on the rare side.

You gotta calm down about rabies, as it doesn’t sound like it’s possible for you to have. Breathe calmly, slowly. Maybe stim if you can? My anxiety shot through the roof when a mod called me out recently. I found it helpful to collect myself, take some breaths, and play online mahjong, which I realized was a stim for me. It helped calm me down, so maybe try that.

@ChickPea
You are also most likely fine and should try to calm down. I have a couple red dots on my body that have been there for years and never gone away. They’re nothing. I routinely weaken my immune system with chemo, so if they were anything, I think I’d have had symptoms by now.

Big recommendation for both of you to see doctors if at all possible. A primary care doctor can test you for rabies and diabetes. A therapist can help talk you through things, and a psychiatrist can prescribe meds to help calm you down. I’m on a low dose of Sertraline (generic for Zoloft) and it has helped my anxiety a lot thus far, both so I can have better mental health in general, and so I can better deal with when my friends go through stuff >^_<

Can’t wait for the 20th. Just two weeks to go, then I finally get to know the results of my brain MRI. That was, I think, the first appointment we went and did back in March. I didn’t tell y’all about it till now. I’ve cried a couple times, because the possibility that I could have brain cancer is scary. The cancer surrounds my right eye, which is, y’know, very close to my brain.

Thing is, though, I’m expecting it to be like most of the tests I’ve had done where there’s nothing. Gorlin Syndrome, my rare genetic disorder that causes me to have a ton of moles and caused my cancer in the first place, has other things it can cause. But they never come up. I’ve had moles removed and checked - nothing. Bones x-rayed for growths - nothing. Heart done an ultrasound on - nothing. So, I’d say the odds are good that my brain is fine. The fear just gets to you sometimes.

Now I’m remembering how that abusive ex of mine once went as far as to photoshop my moles out. Fuck him I hope he rots.

There’s now a kitten on my ribs and shoulder. I’m laying on my side. In order to come over here, he had to walk across my keyboard. I send accidental cat messages instead of deleting them, so enjoy Coal Jr’s words of wisdom:
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Orange juice plan worked like a charm! Arm hurts a little but I avoided getting too weak, now I’m back home and can rest. Not bad for someone who’s borderline anemic 💪💪💪

(For those who may not know, getting your labs done is what it’s called when you get blood drawn and possibly also give a urine sample. Standard practice for seeing certain kinds of doctors regularly, so they can test for various things)

“Nothing can be done
With a Should
I can’t fix any of this
Let’s start with what we can do”

It’s a powerful sentiment that really resonates with me. Especially right now, as I’m still trying to nurse my mental health. I am a heavily disabled person, so getting caught up in the shoulds isn’t healthy. It’s only going to make me feel worse to think about things I’m either completely not able to do, or not able to do for now while depression and loneliness are weighing so heavily on me. There are things I have in mind for the future that are gonna be awesome when I’m feeling able to do them - like exercising more! But it’s okay that I’m only exercising a little right now.

I am doing everything I can do. I am not just going to appointments for my mental health - but for my physical health as well. I am finding communities via Discord. One of them even recently made me feel more sure of myself - it’s a mental health community called “You’re Not Alone”. I took a screening test for bipolar on a site linked on there, and ended up checking yes on almost every question. It’s not a proper diagnosis - the Discord and site have a disclaimer stating as much - but it does give me assurance that when I’ve said I probably have something, I’m right or at least very close to being right. And it’s not like official diagnosis is out of reach, should therapy continue to go okay. Far from the best, but okay.

And all the networking I’ve been doing and connecting with people has helped a ton. I’m making my usual amazing connections with people.

And I am eternally grateful that I didn’t lose this site as a place of connecting, because I’ve been doing the same thing on here.

I can’t fix the fact that being disabled has forced me to be an incredibly socially awkward shut-in. But what I can do, is keep being social. Keep trying my best to help people. Something I’ve been doing on here is trying to tell jokes and make people laugh. I don’t know whether they’ve gone over well or if they’re only funny to me. But I’m trying and maybe I’ll get better at it over time, or maybe I won’t and it’ll be kinda funny that I always fumble ¯_(ツ)_/¯

On the topic of helping people, I met a guy who is a major downer and very difficult to try to help. He’s incredibly depressed about how hard it is to find a job and how he doesn’t have one. He’s also very jealous of other autistic people who do have jobs - caught up in the “should”. I think he feels more comfortable talking to me because my disabilities prevent me from having a proper one. I managed to think of some things he could do today. Helping people is not always an easy task. I’m proud of myself for that :3

As another, recent friend of mine says, “better to have friends worth a million than have a million friends”. And so many friends have reached out and been there for me in so many amazing ways since I started telling them how much I was struggling. I have so many friends worth a million <3

@Azlikekitty
Try to use the preview button before sending nothing, and untils is works, you can test how is works xD. The usual way is: