Vent Thread

I don’t know the exact situation. It took a while to get me away from my S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W, so maybe it will be a while yet until Flower is freed. But we’ll of course keep talking and thinking and everything

Flower’s gotta be special. She’s gotta have something about her that makes her worth dying for. Because that’s what the Fab Four did. Died to protect The Girl. It’s funny how the romantic art I made when I considered The Girl to also be Whatsername isn’t ill-fitting with the re-interpretation of The Girl actually being Flower.

I wonder if Cactus is capable of reincarnation. Super Nova has been reconnecting with his family here in CA and I did just finally check his Instagram reel to find he shared someone drawing plants. Perhaps not all is lost yet.

I don’t want Super Nova, I want Cactus. I don’t want this distant dude I don’t hear from enough. I want the dude who would chat with me for like the entire evening. I suppose we’ll just see what happens.

A Cactus Bloom sure is a flower. Son of a fuck.

I’ll definitely take Trans Dinosaur Christmas 2, even just as friends. Plus I’d get to sing along to the entirety of The Black Parade and Danger Days on the way up there. It was the ride to Trans Dinosaur Christmas 1 where Cactus played The Black Parade and I just felt this connection to it.

The ride up there is when he died. He left me with the album I needed. It was after that that he began to get more distant than I had expected. I wanted to go cuddle him one night but he didn’t want to cuddle. All to set me on the path to escaping my S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W. I still remember how they made me feel so happy when they said I treated them better than anyone ever had. That was probably true.

That’s one hell of a way to tell me you can still use the vessel at least sometimes, Cactus.

But thank you for protecting me from my S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W.

They’ll live. Escape the abuse someday. But I would have died. Killjoys comic.

So hopefully that means that someone will also stop and all 601 of his victims will be freed. That’s the number that came to me at the hospital.

Power outages. Or at least Internet outages. That’ll get people away from him without harming him.

Jesus, that’s something you’ve had visions of, Whatsername? And… and you stayed to protect me anyway. I hope you’re okay right now. Stay safe. It’s not gonna happen anymore and we’ll keep working towards making things better 💚🩷

I’m sorry I didn’t ask you why you were crying. I just thought you were sad. You told me you have depression and such

It’s so hot outside you’ll shit your pants!

Killjoys comin atcha live from Los Gatos. Your cat couldn’t nap, but I know laying there with my eyes closed for a while is still helpful.

It was Cactus, after all, that got me to love a couple kids. I can get pretty squicked out by them what with my immunocompromisation but Cactus has two nieces and well of course I still love them with my entire heart.

YES! I CAN DO WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO TO HIM! JUST THROUGH A MEME VIDEO AND NOT ACTUALLY. IT FEELS SO FUCKING GOOOOOOD

Look. I am a good, kind-hearted person. I am extremely forgiving. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, probably more than I even should. I usually don’t have much bad to say about someone, or if I do, I’ll then go on to be like, “But this and this is good about them.”

It takes a very vile, fuckwad kind of person to make me talk about them like this. Do you have any idea how TRULY dogshit I have to consider someone to talk about them THIS WAY?

She’s not the only one he’s starving. I usually don’t like to put people down for loox but I’m sorry, he’s just so fugly. It was legit hard to watch this and eat my mac and cheese, the dragon is whatever but when the actual him is onscreen I just… Ugh. He might be the single ugliest person I have ever had the misfortune to see.

…Oh boy. Wellllppppp. Good thing I dipped out early and hit the ol’ waterfall before I even felt that tired. Because what I have to say may very well take me hours, and Roaring and I have a big day tomorrow. And it is finally happening, thank you for assuring me of that, NCIS. But it’s only like 8 and 11 or 12 would honestly still offer a solid chunk of sleep.
601 sounds pretty huge, doesn’t it? But that’s the number that popped up for me on the scale at the hospital. What the hell, right? If you saw my selfie from yesterday, obviously I’m not fat enough to be 601 pounds. Not thin enough to be 60.1, or I’d be dead. Well, it was 60.1, when I was talking to Super Nova, I worked out that that was my weight in kilograms. Very… bizarre, to happen on an American scale.

How much was she FORCED to keep praising him? God that sounds so mentally taxing. There are only so many words in the English language. Now I’m remembering the time Anthony would ONLY take me back if I “told him something I had never told him before” and I had to go over all this shit to finally say something that satisfied him. That was an incredibly unfun activity and not one a healthy relationship should involve.

Cuz like I’m beginning to think that might be the reason I feel such a strong drive to degrade the ever living fuck out of him

“If you really love me, let me go. Let everyone go. Change your ways and stop being so pathetic. Goodbye.”

We’ll get her able to say it someday :3

He is creatively bankrupt.

I’m usually not one to knock an oc, but it didn’t escape my attention how plain it is. And how he doesn’t allow others to make ocs. And how he can’t even wear a different colour from his oc.

Dude really needs to expand his mind and be creative and shit.