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I am alive, but not living. I can’t take this anymore. My quality of life is complete shit and there’s nobody around or reason for me to continue on any longer than I have to. I feel like I go through the motions of living an everyday life, but for what, an ounce of joy? A slither of happiness? Nothing in my life is worthwhile. I have lost myself in the bullshit that surrounds me all the time, a toxicity that doesn’t let up…I’ve lost that light, or spark if you will, to keep going. I just feel like there’s nothing worth staying alive for, due to the fact that life likes to take my trust and crush it into little, tiny pieces. It feels like my life has ended at such a young age, but I’m still alive. Does that make sense? Why is it such a bad thing to want to die? If it were possible I would gladly give up my life for somebody who is far less fortunate than me and have them make the most of it and make a difference in the world. I feel like I was destined to suffer, like I am being punished and now I am a disgrace, forever to be punished for something I did. I always go to bed, not wanting to sleep, but not wanting to wake up…I do not want to die, but not exist…does that mean that I am selfish? Perhaps, but…I have no drive to keep going anymore, since everything is the same. I have no purpose, no love, no friends, no family…heck, I don’t even think I have money or even a life. Not that I deserve the life I have, anyways, which I don’t. I don’t know what I’ll do. I am alive, but not living.

The neighborhood ho pops out.
I put in twelve slices of bacon

I wonder if this thread has been forgotten already?

If it has, then I can just quietly slip in and make the last post, becoming the winner.

Kind of like how the rat in the Chinese Zodiac won the race by just piggybacking off the ox and then jumping across the finish line at the last minute.

Perhaps it’s no coincidence that’s my sign! Anyway, here’s a picture of a cute rat:

I hereby claim this thread for the glory of Ratopia!

@Satu Putra
Ten cupcakes and a cookie come out.

I put in seven strawberries.

This question was answered definitively a year before this thread was made.

Well it’s a good thing I returned to Facebook. The reason I left was because, I think it was on the day of the hack, this page posted something that seemed like something I had said, verbatim. With the fact that I had heard people outside my house and also thought I saw people, well I had no idea what all was going on, that further scared me. I have no idea if there actually were people out there, or if I hallucinated. I think my mental health was bad enough that I could have. It’s all better now that I’m eating and sleeping and not absorbing Lysol, like I said. And therapy is around the corner on the 16th. But that’s kinda beside my point.

Because, not only do I have a friend on Facebook who doesn’t have any other social media for me to contact him on, but good lord, someone posted some stuff that has shown me I can’t even be friends with them. I suppose it’s not super egregious, it’s just… stuff I really don’t want to see when I’m sex-repulsed. And all I got was excuses when I asked about changing the audience of their posts so I don’t see them. It really makes me feel like they’ve been being deliberately malicious this entire time. It’s unfortunate to lose someone, especially right now, but it had to be done.

On a brighter note, my close friend/unofficial sibling (I’m an only child but I vibe with this person like a sibling lol) has been opening up to me more and sharing their world and the characters in it with me! >^_^<

Hedwig and the Angry Inch - Midnight Radio

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Shadrow - Never Be Alone

Osc Project - Earth and Sky

Nico Staf - Fast and Run

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Duende - Chicano Rap

Still in pain. The fight may be long sometimes, but I endure for all the people who need me. For the people to whom I matter

Edit: And now, the pain is mostly over. More ibuprofen and a high-calorie meal will set things right again. And if I can routinely overcome this, I hope it’ll serve as an inspiration to anyone reading this. You can overcome your struggles too. Be strong, be well, and be happy, friends >^ w ^<

Ufh I’m pretty chemosick tonight. Thankfully more nausea than pain, and I’ve just taken a nausea pill. It’s a tough fight, but I’m gonna keep fighting and keep winning

Edit: Oh there’s the pain. Oh goodie 🙃 I’ll take ibuprofen and see if I can’t just sleep through this awful night

My Chemical Romance - Sing

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