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@Garka la Garka
Not everyone has that luxury.

I’m homeless and struggling badly. I have a place lined up in April but Gods I’m struggling badly rn. :(

@FruityPWN
It’s a matter of perception. I feel the same, or felt, that everyone was my enemy, I trusted people I shouldn’t have, and other things. I have lost many friends and companions along the way, and that made me sad, if I was the problem, and not the others. Finally I realized something.

Neither option. It’s nobody’s problem. You are going to find shitty people in life, that is an irrefutable fact, and the only thing you can do is separate them, and stay with people who treat you the same, and are consistent with your actions. And it’s not easy to find people like that!

Before coming to this booru, I was in a Hispanic community on Telegram of about 1100 members, I was the highest admin below the two owners, and they told me I was the heir, but after finding out about VERY ugly things about the owners, I left being staff and the group, and that earned me their hatred, and a lot of lies.

I spent a month regretting it, but now I tell you, it was enriching and the best decision I made. I didn’t realize how badly they treated me, I just accepted their mistreatment from both of them. Now here, in furbooru, I feel comfortable. I help people, I do a job, and the owners or mods do not demand more from me, in fact they never demanded anything from me. That freedom…gods, it feels good.

My advice and moral is: Just look for a place with people you feel comfortable with, and stay with them. Change your scene, and your perspective on everything will change with that.

I really dislike how poorly I am always treated. It’s like everybody has a problem with me…or maybe I’m the problem.

Gorlin’s Syndrome, not Gordon’s. Didn’t even notice my phone had messed that up. Duck you, autocorrect! It’s a rare genetic disorder and it’s what we think is the cause behind my cancer and moles.

Spicy topics y’all lol

They spread lies about us, saying we are committing a holocaust, but the holocaust happened to us. We are represented by lions and the Palestinians are represented by hyenas. I believe we should be the ones represented by hyenas because of all the stigmatism and stereotypes surrounding us, and how in reality, lions do more harm to other animals than hyenas and lions are praised for killing hyenas.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I have a cyst too and it’s increasing my testosterone.

The people who claim that the land of my people is theirs built their temple over our graveyards and worship areas hundreds of years ago, much like how the Europeans took the land from the Native Americans. But people who think they’re smart say that my people act like the Europeans, but in reality we are the native people of Israel. People are Siding with the terrorists. They want to push us out to sea.

@Lunarmoon21
Fr, it’s fuckin weird that we make that medical decision for people born with penises and alter their genitals before they can consent to such a procedure.

Thinking about my new oncologist and how he recommended getting an MRI scan done on my brain, because Gorlin’s Syndrome can cause issues with the brain and it’s obviously important to catch them as soon as possible. Thinking about how my old oncologist ordered a brain MRI for me but we had never discussed me getting one, so we just assumed he had made a mistake and had the technician do my usual right eye orbital area to check for cancer. And then when I saw my old oncologist to discuss the results, I think he said something like, there had been something kinda there since 2017 that they weren’t sure was cancer?? I’m having trouble remembering, but he didn’t mention the brain thing then either. And 2017 had been with the oncologist I’d had before this one, and she had said my MRIs all came back clear of cancer.

Makes me feel pretty confused, and in hindsight, I probably should have asked my old oncologist more questions. Point is, he might have meant for me to get a brain scan all along, but didn’t tell my mom and I that he meant to, neither before nor after. I’m also remembering how I suddenly couldn’t order chemo pills one time because my prescription had run out. I hadn’t seen my old oncologist for an entire year at that point, out of procrastination because it’s the same thing every time (bloodwork is always good, blood pressure always good, like bruh I’m just feeling the chemo vibes and I doubt anything major is going to come up), but also because we were waiting for my oncologist to contact us and he never did. Not even once my prescription had run out. I wasn’t upset, because it was a simple fix - just go see him again. But with my new oncologist bringing up the brain scan thing, it makes me feel like my old one may have been too scatterbrained. Probably for the best that he “left the company” (that’s what it said in the text I got about needing to reschedule my recent appointment due to him no longer being there, but who knows if that’s the real reason) and I got this new one.

Fuck circumcision

Mood really tanks sometimes. Was gonna take a few more chemo doses while it rains and then take a break, but I probably need to tap out now. Also gonna look into walx at like 3 or 4pm soon. I’ve wondered if my mood swings are vitamin D deficiency and my new oncologist raised concerns about that without me having said anything my mood.

The hood to my car flew up and broke while driving on the freeway. Luckily I was near an exit ramp when it happened. Looks like I’m going to have to go to a body shop.

The hood to my car won’t open.

It’s been raining very heavily. I walked into my hallway and noticed a wet spot on the carpet. I figured one of the cats threw up or maybe peed… until a drop hit my head. I looked up and the ceiling is kinda messed up and drops were beaded. We have a ceiling leak. Lovely 🙃

The PC version of GTA5 is still infested with modders. And apparently, they’ve figured out how to kick other players from sessions and even crash the game.

A friend of mine posted that she and her family has the stomach flu. This confirms something has been going around, and is most likely the culprit behind what happened to Elly and I. My wife, Gwen, has also been experiencing stomach issues.

This is proof of the efficacy of masking. I’ve gotten sick from Del Taco twice. Once in 2019 and again yesterday. In 2019, I was at my then-boyfriend’s house, and ended up having to stay the night because I didn’t think we would make it to my house without his car getting vom’d in. I spent the evening in pain, voiding my stomach from both ends. Yesterday, I had some slight stomach discomfort and then what happened in the shower. Still bad, yes, but much more tolerable. I think the employee wearing a mask saved me from another 2019.

I don’t think this is an issue with Del Taco specifically. Fast food workers aren’t given enough sick leave, so they’re forced to work while sick. So, I am hereby quitting fast food. I’m lucky I hadn’t taken chemo for a little over a month in 2019. I may have needed a visit to the ER, if not worse, if I hadn’t been on a prolonged chemo break. I should have quit then. Fast food is not worth gambling my life on.

Why am I so bored?

@Elly Catfox
Well what do you know, I ended up shitting myself a little in the shower, then I started feeling a little lightheaded and weak so I turned it off and was trying to dry myself off at least a little. My body usually gives me a decent amount of warning before I throw up, but I guess we’re skipping that step today because I ended up very suddenly vomiting. Twice. Not my best morning 😓

My body has been going through a lot lately. Ovarian cyst causing soreness and my period isn’t happening (pregnancy is impossible unless I’m the next Virgin Mary), gadolinium dye used in my MRI to get a better look at my cyst, a couple vials of blood drawn from my other arm, chemo doses being carefully taken or skipped, and Del Taco. I know, probably a silly thing to end that list on, but what happened to me in the shower has me skeptical of continuing my post-appointments Del Taco runs. I got it after my MRI, and again yesterday after my labs. I had a moment of feeling weak and dehydrated after the first one, and now this. I think it’s time I cut ties with fast food for good just in case. Those are all possible contributing factors for what happened to me in the shower, plus one of the Del Taco workers was wearing a mask. Possible that they had a virus of some kind, and even with having a mask on, a very weak version of a virus is still going to hit me. I am coming up on my 10th anniversary of routinely weakening my immune system and stomach with chemo.

@Garka la Garka
Your friend is showing telltale signs of being in an abusive relationship. Her girlfriend is already cheating, and likely being extremely controlling and manipulative. That’s how people in relationships like that act - lashing out at anyone their partner decides they don’t like (which ends up being pretty much everyone) and oftentimes even people their partner knows little to nothing about, too. I know because I’ve been there. I remember lashing out at my friend Jake for making a joke about my “Jigglypuffs”, which, admittedly that was inappropriate, but my response was disproportionately hostile. Because it would have been an entire fight with my ex if I didn’t respond that way. A person in a relationship like that lives in constant fear of messing up, having to walk on eggshells because the abusive partner will meet perceived slights with explosive anger. It sounds like your friend’s girlfriend is telling her that you’re bad and whatnot, so she feels pressured into being cruel to you. The cheating is an even bigger red flag because abusers are almost always cheating the whole time. Friend is likely facing frequent accusations of cheating from her girlfriend, because abusers tend to assume their victims act and do things the same ways they do. Abusers then project their worst traits onto their victims.

If abuse is indeed what’s going on here, I’m sorry to say there isn’t a lot you can do. A primary goal of abusers is to isolate their victims from everyone else, which is another probable reason your friend is lashing out and cutting you off. If you’re still able to talk to her, you can try telling her you think she’s being abused, but there’s a good chance she’ll refuse to listen. Abusers manipulate their victims into believing their lies and delusions. I’m sorry to say your friend will likely have to realize it herself and escape of her own volition. She definitely needs to, though, because if it’s abuse as I suspect, it’s life or death. Victims who don’t escape often end up killed.

I hope I’m not being too alarmist, I just studied up a lot on abusive relationships after I got out of my second one. At best, that relationship sounds very toxic. Your friend deserves better. Hug

I’m sad, really.

Looking back, before being here helping, I helped in a Spanish-speaking furry community on Telegram. I spent two years, dedicating myself hours every day to things, be it monitoring chats, talking, and giving life to the chats, or even doing mega huge projects in the community, like contests and events haha.

Months ago I left, simply for telling the truth to one of the owners that the other was… let’s say a bad person, in addition to cheating her at the back (They were a couple). I showed her evidence, testimonies, and everything. At first she thanked me, but then she became more neurotic over time, she blamed me for everything, she blocked me, and now she doesn’t let me go to the community of a thousand people where I had dozens of people who loved me and missed me.

I feel lately… alone. Only in the total sense of the word, on the internet of course. It was my refuge, and I worked hard for it, but now I look back and it’s like… useless effort, wasted and on top of that it was undervalued.

And later you find out from third parties that all the effort I made for the community was simply wasted, no admin or owner does anything, it was filled with riff-raff, and it is slowly… decaying. Two years that without pride I can say I threw away.

It’s not the first time. I am guided by a strong moral compass, I want to do good, and help people who really need it, for me we are all equal, whether we are new or veteran users. And that has led me to problems in the communities, where there always seems to be favoritism. Not just fandom, role-playing communities, anime, everything in general.

I’m starting to think, maybe I’m the problem. Maybe I am a social misfit. Or, gods willing, I’m a bad person, with a hero complex, hahaha.

Only want to vent that here. Maybe someone can give me some support, in form of advices, heh. I always love to know others persons perspectives

@Elly Catfox
Is it weird to say I’ve wanted to describe diarrhea like that before too and I really appreciate that you have?

I’m assuming this is a stomach bug, food poisoning, or weed overdose. Most likely the former. I hope you feel better soon :( Hugs

Recommended options for recovery meals when you’re able to eat again:

I typed part of this edit while having diarrhea of my own and I’m off to the kitchen to go make option A: vegetarian lasagna and raviolis

Holy shit I’m pissing out my ass and vomiting at the same time oh God I feel fucking horrible 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮😿😿😿😿😿😿😿

Okay, I’m gonna relay what I’ve learned. I have clear picture of the situation now.

Lesson 1: Zangi is sketchy af. I didn’t understand why I was told to switch over to there when it’s functionally the same as Facebook messenger. I think it’s because data isn’t encrypted on there, so it’s much easier to commit crimes on. WhatsApp also seems popular for that kind of thing too. Additionally, images sent on these apps are often small-only, so sketchy photo manipulation can be much more difficult to notice. Be wary of anyone who begins talking to you in one place, then asks to switch to apps such as these.

Lesson 2: Let’s learn a little about money laundering! I didn’t mention this because I didn’t think it was relevant, but I had told the scammer that I don’t have very much money. I no longer think they were trying to scam money out of me, though it’s probable they would have asked for money had this continued. They told me their daughter was in boarding school and they needed to use their Western Union app to pay school fees, but the app wouldn’t work. What was going to happen, was I was going to open a Western Union account under my name and the scammer would have used it to transfer money. A romantic partner using your bank account to transfer money doesn’t sound illegal, right? Well, that actually counts as money laundering and would have gotten me into pretty serious legal trouble! I think the reason the scammer didn’t catfish me for very long before bringing this up, is they had a lot of money they wanted to launder sooner rather than later.

Lesson 3: I’ve been thinking about how shady it is when scammers say they can’t access their bank accounts. An app not working is much more believable, but in a lot of these cases, they claim they just can’t access their bank accounts. That’s not really something that happens. Call the bank if your account is frozen and it should be able to be unfrozen. Keep in mind these scammers always claim to have jobs that pay well, so there’s no bank issues due to poverty to factor in here.

Lesson 4: Do be wary even with people you’ve met with in person! A couple of these victims even met up with the person they were interested in, only to still get scammed.

Lesson 5: Don’t be afraid to speak up. Over 4,500 reported cases in 2018. And those are only the reported ones! You are not alone if something like this ever happens to you.

I’ve barely even gotten far in my playthrough of an Emerald romhack, not completely because of this, but partially. I’m into this documentary about scammers for now (it’s a compilation of episodes so it’s long lol), but after, I think it may be time to return to my true love:

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
I misread that as “Utaus are terrible” and I was gonna say “no you”.

Utah drivers are fucking terrible!