Vent Thread

ChickPea

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I had these dreams where all start when I was food poisoned then I became paranoid afterwards, suffering aquaphobia, over course of those weeks, I am been worrying and imagining those thoughts of PAM infection in my workplace in and out. I dreamt going to the village and swimming in a pool and getting an infection and die. I don’t know but it’s becoming scary.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

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@ChickPea
Aquaphobia is a symptom of rabies too, which is also obviously very bad. Hmm… it makes me wonder if there is any correlation between rabies and a brain-eating amoeba. Finding a cure for rabies would be MASSIVE, and purrhaps the meaning of your dream is simply a glimpse into the future of medical science and purrhaps a cure for rabies will be found! Scary dreams don’t necessarily mean bad things. Interestingly, I just contracted rabies again in a SIM game I’ve been playing, so the disease has been on my mind.
I’m drawing a blank on further advice, though. Be careful, don’t go swimming, and keep me updated if you have more dreams!
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

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@Anonymous #8DB1
May they stay safe 💚 I know how you feel, I’ve had buddies raise my anxiety to the extreme when they would have depressive episodes. Things seem to be much calmer with them as of late afaik, which is good! Gives me the chance to focus on finally having low anxiety when it’s been through the roof for all of my adult life. Rewiring my brain is gonna take time, and I can have relapses, but I’m getting there. And so, so proud of my buddies for holding on and still being here. It’s hard for us strong ones to stay strong when our friends worry us to our core, but keep staying strong if you can, because your buddy needs you.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

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Actually, my brain’s pretty lacking in chill in general today. And I know why. Sigh… I just want them to end for good. The last thing I need, on top everything, is 20 more years of these severe mood destabilizers. Lately I’ve been wondering if there are other options for ending them - I wanna curl up and cry when I think about how I got extremely nauseous when I tried birth control, so I don’t even get to do that option. This is suffering. I need out.
Remember, however: I am meeting with doctors in order to get this figured out. I am working towards taking care of this problem. It’s just taking forever, and my brain is literally hurting in the meantime.
ChickPea

I don’t know what to do, I feel so dreadful. I’m afriad something is about to happen to me after going on Vacation for three days, I showered three times now with groundwater. Now I’m thinking about this goddamn brain eating amoeba coming there and kill for the next five days.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

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@ChickPea
Science time for us!
My mom has been all about RFK Jr lately, naturally. I recently learned he wants to ban the use of fluoride in our water, and your amoeba thing had me wondering whether fluoride counteracts amoebas. It doesn’t, but I found this:
This is Dr. Greger, the only source that vegan person cited when I was arguing with them. Finding himself on the same side as a guy who drove around with a bear carcass in the back of his car and a guy whose son’s trophy hunt is not a good look. We already know that banning vaccines leads to terrible outcomes, as that’s how polio has been able to make small comebacks. I could sense there was something off about this Dr. Greger fellow, particularly because the vegan didn’t give me any sources that weren’t from him.
He has some stuff on his site that comes off as very anti-chemo, and the whole implication of our argument seemed to be that I could simply change my diet to survive. They weren’t saying sensible things such as “Going vegan might be good for you”, they claimed they were, “Saving my life”. So, sure, you can say I overreacted and I wouldn’t disagree with you, but they were dogmatically insisting on what was best for me with regards to cancer. You know, that disease I’ve had for an entire decade and have been studying for as long, that I see a bunch of doctors about? And, when I calmly told them oh, I can’t go vegan because I do have the health issue mentioned in one of the very links they sent me, they refused to listen to that and kept dogmatically sending me links. Hopefully, that helps contextualize why I ended up having such a strong negative reaction to the whole mess.
Back onto the amoeba path:


So, we learn that there is an extremely high likelihood that your water is safe, and that it’s only if it gets in your nose that you even have to worry! Additionally, swimming pools are typically treated with chlorine, so should be safe ::3
Sorry for not spending very long talking about the amoebas, but that’s all I can think of to say rn. Hopefully helps you feel better >^_^<
Back to the Dr. Greger path:


Seems he’s got a decent amount of good knowledge we can learn from, but he’s also a cherry-picker and is bought and funded by many animal rights groups. Some animal rights groups do take things too far, such as PETA with their mass euthanasia of the animals in their shelters compared to all other shelters.
The big takeaway here is to always maintain skepticism, no matter how appealing that source may seem on the surface. Seeing what others say about the person is a great way to learn what their shortcomings are and where the balance lies.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
And one more thing, how would I manage to go vegan? Well, my mom is the one who goes out and buys the groceries. So, I’d have to tell her I want to go vegan, when she rightfully complains about the cost of this or that after like every single market trip, and we already know from when I dated Cactus that vegan stuff costs more. And I’d be questioned on why I suddenly want to go vegan, so I’d have to explain that a person I was talking with online wanted me to go vegan… yeah, I’m sure that’s gonna go over well.
I guess the other option would be to lie, but then I’d be lying just to maintain a friendship. A friendship conditional on my being and remaining a vegan.
And ya know, maybe we shouldn’t be putting that much blame onto a disabled purrson in the first place. I’m not the one responsible for the animal industry being the way it is.
ChickPea

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I mean, I’m starting to get over this Amoeba scare, I haven’t seen cases reported of PAM infection in my country which is the Philippines at least, Naegleria and the other dangerous amoebas has been found in there, we only had one case from the 1980’s, strangely this wasn’t from Naegleria Fowleri but a new species of Naegleria called Philippinesis, the source from the disease is believed to be from A thermally polluted stream. Either way, the disease is deadly but the risks of suffering a PAM infection is extremely low, you’re more likely to drown than ever be very unlucky to let the amoeba feast on your brain tissue. You have to get all these conditions right for the amoeba to enter your brain and kill you, firstly you have the water be flushed really deep into your nasal cavity for the buggers to get on your olbulb factories which is also a challenge itself for the amoeba, let’s not forget your immune system is also has to face by the parasite. Even if those circumstances weren’t yet been faced by the microbes, It’s unlikely they’ll survive trying enter to your brain especially additional defenses from your immune system.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
@ChickPea
Sounds like you looked up even more about it and learned more, and it helped calm your fears a lot! Well done ::3
And now I know information on brain-eating ameobas, all ready to impress the next purrson I flirt with at a party (ya know, if I ever somehow manage to find a party to go to, lmao)
I can see it now… They have a horrible time at the party… and then ol’ David swoops in with the ameoba fax, annoying them and making the party an even worse experience! (A little self-depreciating humour not to be taken seriously, lols)
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
If nothing else, at least I can say I cared. And I tried. When my mom talked about being creeped out by one of the men, that’s when the epiphany hit me that we needed the woman instead. A month or so after that, my plan of putting her in place instead came to fruition.
I held my heart into the darkness. I learned all there is to know about the depths of evil. A big reason I’ve been unstable at times, is it wasn’t easy to learn about. But, I feel it was my calling to learn about it, so I did. And I do have proof of everything - it’s all saved in playlists on my YouTube. Tireless months of work to try and save us all. I finally did hit my breaking point, so I’ve been taking it easy so that, should I succeed, I can keep being here.
It’s out of my hands at this point, and in the hands of the people. If we fail, at least I can say I tried. At least I can say I cared. Probably more than anyone.
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
Stressed. Keep feeling very tired. Constantly stress napping. Need him gone. C’mon, vision of tumbleweed blowing through because no one supports him… manifest…
Queen reminds everyone to do their part and reminds me that she’ll “protect me in the mosh pit”. A good sign that calms me a little. I think my PTSD is kinda triggered today because of him but we’re possibly very close to him being out of my life for good and I hope so. Please no more suffering because of him
StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
Thx 4 letting me stress post today… I try keep it somewhat calm…
I remember, right after I got cursed, voice told me the furries were gonna take care of me… then it happened a few months later. Organization got hacked by furries and hackers even used nyas >^_^< I hope was first sign that everything turn out okay.
You all also been caring and comforting. The best. Love you all 💚🐈‍⬛
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