Vent Thread

@Anonymous #6223
The hermit crab thing is interesting because I have been lead to a video talking about how the word “qlipoth” translates to “shells”. You are facing resistance to what you want and need because hiding in a shell means you are not in alignment with your true self.

Give yourself time. Give yourself grace. But work on either making peace with the body you have, or changing it in positive ways that you can immediately do, such as exercising or painting your nails.

Don’t neglect your inner self, either. Not only can becoming who you want to be - the better, stronger version of yourself - help manifest some subtle appearance changes for the better, but this is another way to become in alignment with your inner self.

If you face any gender dysphoria, focus your thoughts on seeing yourself as your desired gender. This actually does cause subtle changes towards that gender. I noticed it when Cactus Bloom, a dear friend of mine, began to see himself in a more masculine way.

And above all else, breathe. Be calm. Don’t stress yourself focusing on such thoughts. Just try to think them now and again. Good mood, focus, and consistency are the keys to happiness and positive manifestations.

I have been shown the answer as to why I’ve been made to post some pretty dark thoughts on here. In order to get to heaven, we have to embrace hell to get there.

Such upsetting posts won’t be happening from me again now that I have found shwari. But I’m sure I’m not the only one here who has trauma. We all have our scars.

I recommend to everyone here to try your best to begin healing them when you have spare time and are feeling like you can handle diving into your more difficult emotions. It is a process. Take things slow, and take breaks when need be.

This message is also a good sign for America 🇺🇸

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I just my mental breakdown, it got triggered from a dog, I punched my forehead and smack it to the floor, fortunately I’m laying on a mattress, blew raspberries from my mouth got salvia into my nostrils and wipe dry with a damp towel which I recently used for brushing my teeth. I wanted to be dead, I can’t wait for this incubation period bullshit any longer, just kill me already.

@ChickPea
How did a dog trigger your mental breakdown?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
The constant barking, and the sheer anxiety and overthinking caused me.

@ChickPea
Dang, your mental health is in a rough shape. Keep doing your best to persevere, and try to begin training your mind to stay calm. Shwari.

Know that you can emerge from hell as a far stronger, more powerful purrson if you try, and keep holding on. Are you seeking therapy? That can also help big time.

And I still recommend a relaxing shower. I get the sense that there is no amoeba to worry about. Is there anything that brought this amoeba fear on? Did you come across an article or something?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
No, somehow my nervous breakdown helped me calm down significantly.

And a concussion too.

@ChickPea
Oh okay, then your nerves got messed with, probably with the goal of calming you down. I’m glad you have begun to find shwari. Hold onto that feeling and try to learn to bring it up again when needed. You get used to the dark, intense energy eventually.

Concussion, gotta watch out for that next episode.

Definitely! Remain safe, ChickPea!

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I love a relaxing shower

@Elly Catfox
I’m trying to not shower for a week and a half, because apparently the amoeba is in tap water too.

@ChickPea
Chances are, you’ll be fine, but if you’re still worried, then I’d forego showers altogether and just boil lots of water and take a pseudo-bath.

Purple poop.

I crapped the rainbow!

@ChickPea
But didn’t we figure out that the amoeba will only get to your brain if you get water in your nose? I don’t tend to get the water in my nose when I shower.

@Elly Catfox
Right? So shwari.

I am incredibly thankful that I was taught about shwari, as I demonstrated how fast I’ve mastered it yesterday when my mom had a total meltdown. And despite what happened, she resisted the urge to go buy cigarettes! She passed her test yesterday, and I’m proud of her ::3

And my reward was coming across an article on traits people who have been through narcissistic abuse tend to have. I have or at least, had until recently, almost all of them. A sign that my spiritual stepmom understands what I go through, and forgives me for having thought badly of her. Bonding with her yesterday really made an otherwise awful day so much better. And it was probably her who made my mom have that breakdown, in order to see how my mom’s doing.

Signs as well, that we’ll be in this house for at least one more year. More time for me to get back on disability payments.

I feel like I’ve come so far since all those angry spirits attacked me in March. Cannot thank them enough for helping me get on the antidepressant I needed and everything they’ve done for me 💚

And okay woah, they might be helping to get my mom into a much better place, mentally, before the big ol shoe drops.

We have all been trying to tell her. She keeps refusing to listen. All the way back in 2018 when someone pointed out the Epstein connection to her. To earlier this year when I brought up the island only for mom to say there’s nothing there. To a documentary on Prince Charles’ guilty connection that also mentioned you-know-who that my mom watched. Planting the seed. Which of course has yet to sprout. She still supports him, and all I can really do is laugh at the ridiculousness.

But we all know how difficult it’s going to be if and when the truth finally gets through to her. Not just for her but, for me. Hopefully she has calmed down enough and grown enough to not go on a hate-fueled rant at me a second time, to say nothing of what she may attempt to do to herself should she finally realize her idol is the exact opposite of the child-saving superhero she has built him up to be in her mind.

And that, I think, is the real lesson of not worshipping false idols. Always keep that healthy grain of salt with you for if the famous people you admire turn out to have done bad things. Not your fault for having admired them, but their fault for proving that they weren’t worthy of it in the first place.

It’s sad that my mom lacks that grain of salt. Or maybe she just lives in denial of it.

Or if he dies, that’s another path that has a high probability of occurring.

Fortunately for me, I have been lead down the path of self-confidence, self-love, and strength.

Spammers pretending to be the AARP have started to flood my email inbox again after a month or two of silence from them. How do they keep defeating the spam filter?

probably gonna blow my head off soon idk idc anymore

@Anonymous #F01E
I will literally send God in to save your life.

(Guess who just learned who the girl on the bike was that I saw when the spirits attacked me?)

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I don’t have a shower, I only have a pail and a bucket. The way you use it is a bit different, since you’re pouring scoopful of water on your head, compare that to a shower it has a stream.

@ChickPea
Oh. My apologies, I didn’t know.

Well, you deserve a nice, warm shower in a properly-functioning, well, shower. And now I’m wondering whether the heat of the water would kill an amoeba, heh.

@ChickPea
To kill amoebas in water, you can:

Heat water to 50°C for 5 minutes

Boil tap water for at least 1 minute and cool before using

Heat or boil, cool, use. Answer found!

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
The thing is… The amoeba is thermophiliac, so it thrives on heat itself alone.