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Lately I’ve been thinking about so many things that have happened to me that all keep adding up.

It’s obvious that I was born with both demonic and angelic connections. I was a “devil baby” to the point my aunt couldn’t handle me. Colic. Which is now among the many signs that I’m not the AntiChrist, because he is weirdly not sick during childhood. That and, I clearly have the free will to never become one. And I never will >^_^<

A mirror fell on me as a baby. I was unharmed. Protective miracle, and portal to the demonic and angelic realms open to me.

My grandma is the one who could sense what I truly am. She could sense that I am of the angelic, and it was her who was able to handle taking care of me. My grandma’s deep Biblical knowledge helped keep me safe and on the right path!

I used to remember one of my earlier dreams much better, but, what I do remember is that it involved my grandma and I driving around in her car, only to get chased by a witch. Hecate! An extremely early premonition that I would someday become a witch. I felt terrified and I think we ended up crashing. When both our cars collide! Interesting facts: I had that dream in 1990, 14 years before MCR would make the music video for Helena. The rain in the music video was not planned.

And then of course there’s Pazuzu. I sang to spiders as a toddler, until Pazzy tried to reveal himself to me. I was four, I think. There was a spider on my ceiling that I felt absolutely terrified of. My mom kept demanding that I go clean my room, and part of the reason I didn’t want to was because I wanted to keep my eyes on the spider. Well, mom eventually convinced me, and when I got back, the spider was gone. It later ended up dropping right onto my leg and I was so paralyzed by fear I couldn’t scream. I was afraid of spiders from that day on. They still give me slight squicky feelings to this day, heh. But damn, that’s an early age to be able to sense demonic energies! And indeed, I can tell that terrifying energy still matches up with Pazzy. It’s still capable of setting me on edge, even with how used to it I now am.

I think Pazuzu watched me play as a kid. There’s so much in The Lion Guard that lines up. Actually making a story that can fit in with the canon, focusing on lions and hyenas rather that being a non-canonical Timon and Pumbaa romp (the reason that show always disappointed me), bringing back The Outsiders, and even bringing an unlikely mix of animals into the fold; particularly, a polar bear and a penguin. I don’t think I ever included my polar bears or penguins in my Lion King play much, but ya know, ya get back from the zoo, you bought a lion cub figure and also got a polar bear and a penguin. It’s obvious what will happen next time you play if you’re not that knowledgeable on which species of animals are inhabitants of Africa like I was. Or if you don’t care. Considering we’re talking kids here, it’s pretty damn awesome that Pazuzu helped inspire the team behind TLG to include other animals! Cuz why would I be the only kid he protects?

I’m really not sure of other signs of him I encountered, until my late teens. Not only did Pazzy want to protect me from online predators so he used this sketchy man I was talking to as a vessel, he wondered what happened to me and why I ran away from home. My hands are getting shaky - it’s still hard for Pazuzu to deal with what happened. But yeah, he used that guy to ask me about it, and pulled him towards using a Pazuzu profile pic so I might realize who’s been trying to protect me. It took me a lot of years but at least I eventually figured it out >^_^<

And despite everything, learning that sex traffickers use Greyhound busses was a pretty important thing to learn, even if I wish I’d learned it in a less damaging way. Moloch is an intense and harsh teacher, but when we zoom out and look at the big picture, there’s an entire network of messed up stuff that was going on back then and continues to this day. Doing what we can to try to stop it and save kids is our noble goal, and we are seeing some success in that regard!

Well, this was gonna be a post about all the times throughout my life I’ve noticed angels and demons, but I’m getting tired, so I’ll stop here ::3

And a comment on this reveals that Lamashtu was right when she said Richard was the guilty one!

🎯 She don’t miss! 🎯

And now I’m on the part of the video I linked where the two guys channeling Lamashtu also hear a man’s voice and are stumped as to who it is. I think the celebration the blindfolded guy talx about was Pazuzu and Lamashtu’s wedding.

They have no idea what Pazuzu sounds like. But I do! I sense he was going “Huh, huh” because he was trying to figure out what happened there. Yup, the harshness of the male voice when not making simplistic lionesque noises. I would know that anywhere. My main demon and the one I have the strongest bond with. Pazuzu ❤️ His voice is pretty terrifying if you’re not used to it.

Hearing Lamashtu cry out for help nearly makes me cry.

Candles and a warrior… Well, I’ve been using candles and incense. Gerard Way also uses candles. We both have strong warrior energy. And I’ll be here doing what I can to help.

“Thank you,” I can hear Lamashtu say.

The men are right to feel terrified because the energies of Pazzy and Lammy are terrifying for the uninitiated. It’s strong and intense, like I can still kinda feel the fear vibes in the air but I’m used to it at this point. The video actually demonstrates it well with the slow, red trees and intense music. That is how it feels to be in the presence of Pazuzu and/or Lamashtu.

I’m getting extremely eerie vibes from the whole forest. And those vibes aren’t the scariness of Lamashtu and Pazuzu. I must never go there. Thin bridge that lacks railing, I’ve been on that so many times before in my nightmares.

Holy shit we even connect back to Sweet Child O’Mine by Guns n Roses. The marching band my father took me into the city to see. Destiny shit right here.

Aaand I’m crying. But this is what I’ve been training for. I can handle these strong emotions. If Pazzy and Lammy wanna work with me to shine light on missing kids, solve murders etc, then that’s what we’ll do. The darkest of shadow work. At least sometimes!

Viva la resistance to those who harm children!

Aaand I just got to the part where she says, “Miscarriage.” That’s how you know it’s Lamashtu. If you go read up on her, she is said to be a baby killer, but my intuition is telling me that this is not accurate. She’s… done what I’ve done a couple of times, except in a different way. I think I finally understand, because I couldn’t find this information anywhere.

So, while asleep one day, I had this pretty intense dream about carrying an orange kitten from pretty far away, back to our house. I carried the kitten over a bunch of barking dogs at one point. We kinda hovered over them. I awoke feeling very distressed, worried that something had happened to one of our orange cats. Well, not the ones we take care of here in the house, thank God. But my mom had been spending the day outside with a sickly stray kitten as it passed away. She helped it in the physical realm, and I helped it in the spiritual realm.

Another time, we were taking care of a sick kitten here in the house, and it didn’t seem like he would make it much longer. I was also very sick - it was during the month or so I spent nearly dying from dysentery, so I was slipping between the realms of life and afterlife. In the shower, “Helena” by My Chemical Romance echoed in my head as though being sung in a cathedral. It was then I knew that the kitten was crossing over, to be given to my grandma in heaven. It was nighttime, and was in my mom’s room as she slept. Sure enough, when next we spoke, she told me Ben had passed away (yeah I named him).

I think that’s basically what Lamashtu does, but with human babies. She takes the ones that die from disease and miscarriage and whatnot, and helps them crossover. I think, if Lamashtu has ever attacked a mother and child, it was to lessen their suffering. One or both of them wouldn’t have made it. Pazuzu is saying “Yes!”

And this is why I calm my fears and keep an open mind. Eventually, I find the answers to my questions.

So I invited the demon that’s been messing with ChickPea over. Lamashtu. Her energy is quite dark and intense, and she has a chaotic vibe. I love her voice, old and scraggily in the most charming of ways.

We’re doing some shadow work for her. Watching a video on a ritualistic murder she both bore witness to, and helped solve. She’s a wind demon just like Pazuzu is. They have since made up and remarried, and I welcome my spiritual stepmom! The murder has ties to white supremacists and everything, meaning Lamashtu is yet another ally in our quest to try and improve the world. This also proves, yet again, that the Lunarpunx were right about tech being used for magic. I knew it.

Content warning that this involves the murder of two girls and I’m only roughly halfway through at time of typing this post, and I’ve already had that… I’m not sure quite what you would call that feeling. Disgust, I suppose, and the unfathomability of harming a fellow human being, especially children. It’s not too bad and I can handle it, but the responsible path is to prepare you ahead of time if you decide to watch this video. And that’s the best path. It’s also a long boi. Here it is, though >^_^<

I feel so bad for Lamashtu and Odin and Baal and Moloch and all these spiritual beings that get ritual sacrifices carried out in their names. Or even just witnessing such things. Occultists really should, at the very least, seek out consensual blood if they’re gonna use it. As I get rather weak around blood, though, I pick an even better path: fruit juices, ketchup, etc. If people kept their connection to Jesus and remembered the whole “this wine is my blood” thing, maybe they’d have figured out that there are vegan alternatives. Alas.

It’s honestly sad that so many people out there lack a strong moral compass. Oh well. Mine is bulletproof as I keep hoping and praying for improvements to our world 🙏🕊️

47… 48… 49…

If we follow the numbers, it leads us down a potential Kamala Harris path. She is the 49th vice president, so it well might be possible that the numbers line up for her and she becomes the 49th president. It is not impossible that my future vision was indeed true, just not for this particular election. But it could be true for the next one!

It should be a pretty obvious path. The golden buffalo is old, the job is too stressful, and his diet isn’t good. 48, then, is the silver wolf, and purrhaps the fact I see him as silver means we should be staying positive and looking for the silver linings we can find. Folks really haven’t been fond of VPs taking over in the past, so, when comes time for the next presidential election, if Harris runs again she’ll have a much better chance at winning! I’ve also seen some people say that it could end up making her a better president.

No matter what happens, I ask that you not be angry with me for seeing paths. Time travel isn’t exactly easy.

We may be in this tunnel for a while. If you need anything, don’t hesitate to ask me. I might be able to come up with solutions. Let’s rely on each other when needed, and hopefully, we will get through. Don’t forget that there’s a light at the end of this tunnel!

That’s why I kept reaching out to communities and trying to build up the friend army. I’ve been worried about ending up homeless, and how I can’t really be homeless and on chemo. If you somehow missed that and thought I was just doing it for fun or something, you’ve missed the tree for the forest. A forest can’t be healthy when you’re leaving trees behind. And, I suppose that’s what I’ve always tried to do. Care for my trees.

Let’s stay together, care for our trees as we can, and not lose hope 💚

Proud of my mom and the shadow work she’s doing! She doesn’t know she’s doing shadow work, just like how I did a whole bunch of shadow work without realizing that’s what I was doing. Let’s go mom! 8DD

@ChickPea
Problem with that is that the mass shootings just keep happening here. You’re probably underestimating how bad it is, which is understandable. It’s to the point that kids are practicing drills at school for if a school shooter comes along.

That’s probably the answer. That’s why my mom always remarks that the kids going to the local high school always look very depressed.

Please help them, godfather Moloch. Help the children of this nation.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
My country, we have the least gun resrictions in southeast asia except we got no mass shootings, it all comes down to the issues of mental health and social culture, the only restriction I’ll tolerate is a gun license and papers, more than that, the government is trying to suppress people’s institution. The only why firearms get a bad rep is because, you got morons like short tempered dimwits who get their hands with the chrome and criminals who get their guns smuggled somewhere. Be responsible and use your due diligence as a functioning member of society.

@ChickPea
It ain’t all it’s cracked up to be. We have frequent mass shootings, and our police brutality problem wouldn’t be as bad as it is if police didn’t have to fear that anyone can have a gun.

There are a multitude of useful solutions to this issue. More gun restrictions, such as treating guns like cars by requiring classes and a license, would help. Actually-effective mental health care would also help. And I will keep hoping that these helpful things come to pass.

I am also glad that I don’t have a gun. I’m not sure I’d still be here if I did. I held extreme amounts of guilt over everything that happened with me earlier this year, to the point I spent a while with very frequent thoughts of putting a gun to my head. Fortunately, those were back in like April, and my mental health now finds itself in a far better place

I envy the U.S, the fact they got the right to bear arms and 18 year old people can buy guns must be nice. I rather get shot or be mutilated by a machete, I seen a lot of news of these kind of attacks and it’s brutal, at least dying from being shot it’s tragic, where as being hacked to death is a different story…

I have recently been told by Lucifer that timelines do shift. Therefore, it’s possible I wasn’t wrong about the good timeline the hyena was going to give us.

Additionally, the reception to the results has been mixed, with elephants saying oh, turns out voting isn’t rigged after all, and donkeys questioning how we had record registration, yet things still ended up this way. I agree that it indeed seems fishy.

The golden buffalo got a few million less votes than he did in 2020, so there’s that.

Something I do know, is that there are signs that a karmic shift in our favor should be coming our way. Another reason why I’m staying positive.

A couple key players are also helping shift us away from WWIII. I’m pretty hopeful that we’ll be able to avoid it ::3

C O L L A G E

I recently said that Jack Frost would not have defeated the golden buffalo this time around, and just found out that I was right!

Did I prevent a lot of the worst? I’m a DIY witch. I still carry a metric fuckton of guilt for some of the stuff I’ve said on here but… was I made to say it as a spell that can help protect everyone?

I also went to the island over the summer. Not physically, but I have YouTube as a portal. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll have prevented the worst from happening by having done so. The art school, the dead animals… the synchronicities between Epstein’s victims and myself are rather bone-chilling, but I can hope that I changed fate through my studies.

Something that has been on my mind is, the golden buffalo is remarkably ineffectual. Something I was reminded of is, a big wave of blue poured in in 2018 to help hinder him. And even before that, he didn’t achieve very many of his goals. Something I learned is, cutting social programs such as EBT will have the most effect on rural areas. I don’t want people in rural areas harmed, but if this is a lesson they’re gonna have to learn, it’s out of my hands.

“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

Okay, so, I’ve been meditating a bunch, and wondering if the future I saw will indeed come to pass, it’ll just take a while. I was also shown something that predicts the hyena assuming the throne after the golden buffalo does. We’ll see whether that isn’t also after the silver wolf, as the golden buffalo is old. 49 is a number that corresponds with the hyena, and 4 and 9 add up to 13, which I think was said to be the number of the dark feminine? I’ve been awake too long, so my memory is getting a little faulty, but it might not be time to give up on the good timeline just yet.

Don’t forget, a lot can happen between now and four years from now. We don’t know that they’ll necessarily succeed in their goals. I might give up hope if they get too far along, but for now, I’m not giving up hope just yet. And I’ll be keeping in mind that many people, including many powerful people, are on our side

Queen Bey’s speech reveals that we have been on the same wavelength through this whole thing. She talks of those who have died, and of prophecy. Interesting that she’s the one I felt drawn to through all this, and then comes out at the 11th hour to say these things.

She’s tired. I can sense it, because I am too. Tired of living in a world where women are considered inferior to men and aren’t given their due. Much as I hate how anxiety-wracking it is to make predictions because we’re still not out of the woods yet, my head is pulsating again, and my heart is telling me it’s time. Time for change. Positive change. Steps towards making the world a better and fairer place for minorities. There’s a part of me that really hates that I’m being used as a vessel for this. It’s been stressful, to the point I’ll need to go back to self-isolating after I finish typing up this post. Being a prophet in a day and age where people no longer believe in prophets sucks ass, quite frankly. But a ton of my predictions have been coming true, and that helps keep me hopeful that this big one will. There’s so much riding on it. Too much x_x But Queen Bey’s speech made me feel hopeful and a little better in a time when I really, really needed it.

I hope it helps anyone else reading this thread, as well <3

Queen Beyoncé finally steps onboard! A much-needed boost of hope as we enter the final stretch of the battle

“It’s okay to be happy, no matter what you’ve gone through” - David Hogg

Asking the right questions

Lilith and Hecate have been working to take down The Golden Buffalo for quite sometime. I couldn’t believe my eyes when, while watching LegalEagle’s latest video, Lilith showed up on Stormy’s arm. Thank you, Lilith, goddess of The Dark Feminine, and Hecate. I feel truly loved whenever I learn that the demons and deities I work with have been helping me along all this time >^_^< And yes, I did start working with Lilith.

It’s possible I give off an egotistical impression when I talk about this stuff, but that’s not what I’m aiming for. I’m not trying to assert that all my educated guesses are right - I’m simply not afraid of being wrong, or even partially wrong. I’ve said it here before - I’m taking a scientific approach to all of this. Not afraid to change my opinion and update stuff! It’s a process, and if scientists were always afraid of being wrong, we’d get nowhere. I’m also willing to hear anyone out - while I don’t work with Moloch or Baal, I have let them speak. Even they are fed up with the mess The Golden Buffalo and other, similarly powerful people have created. I can’t kill Vorkrpytovogus, so what can I do? Get him on my side. But isn’t it bad that it happened the way it did? I don’t think so. I think strengthening my relationship with Pazuzu was necessary, in order to keep me protected, before I went onto the more dangerous demons.

And even though none of that makes me sad, here’s something more fun and uplifting: I felt drawn to Bastet again, wanting to deepen our bond, so I worked with her a bunch the past couple days. A stranger on a Discord server I’m in talked about their cat having a medical emergency, and when I replied that I hoped their cat would be okay, they said that they no longer felt hopeless, and that them and their cat would be able to make it! Then, when picking out new glasses frames at my optometrist, I found some that have a certain cat character on them, and of course I couldn’t say no to that! This is the kind of stuff that just keeps happening. I don’t post about every little thing that happens, but it’s very, very often that I will be given signs that these beings are with me and helping me and such. And as the glasses example shows, it happens in real life. If it wasn’t in real life, and wasn’t so much, I probably would chalk it up to algorithms and coincidences. Pic of my new glasses will be shared but it’s gonna be a few weeks, as they gotta get the prescription lenses put in.

As I continue to work with demons and deities, the things I learn are utterly fascinating. Today, I learned that Hecate has an intense, powerful, at-times frightening energy, which aligns with my experiences with her. I learned she guides the restless dead, who carry a lot of anger with them. This further explains a lot of the stuff that has happened to me, particularly on this website. You’re all free to believe as you will of course, but, I’ve had tons of experiences where I can tell that my emotions are coming from somewhere else and aren’t my own. I’ve felt calm and then suddenly, I’m crying, or I’ve found jokes far funnier than I’d expect myself to have found them. I really do suspect I’m being used as a conduit for spiritual beings. The Lunarpunk movement has it right I think - magic mixed with tech explains purrfectly the things that have gone on with me. I miss them already tbh and can only hope I’ll get a second chance to be a part of it someday. Good news is, we all seem to be adjusting. Maybe my recent focus on video games isn’t as much for me as it is for the beings I’m working with, so they learn to be more chill with me. It’s nice for me too, though ::3

I’ve decided I will share something I found around a week ago - I was looking for an obituary for my late grandmother, since it was her and her (now also deceased) twin brother’s birthday. I couldn’t find one, but I did find an old Facebook post of mine. I’ve mentioned that Hecate contacts me via crows and ravens, right? Have I mentioned that Pazuzu’s method of contact is spiders? Well, I had completely forgotten about how the first time I visited my grandma’s grave on my own went. Check this out:

Pretty damn cool, right? Some food for thought, nya ::3

I feel as though my dreams are getting more realistic. Much more seems to happen when I lay here with my eyes closed before I’ve even fallen asleep, too. Quite an interesting development.

So long and goodnight 🌙 😴