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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
Had something existentially horrifying happen to me as a result of being on chemo. I will, of course, never lose my grip on the hope that I achieve my goal of living to 60 or 70, but things such as this happening are scary af. Will of course see doctors as soon as I can.
And that’s why I’m glad my last post ended with “Love you all”. Why I’m not afraid to be so open about things. It really changes your perspective on things like that, when you’re battling an incurable disease. When you’re scared that the end could come soon to the point of crying, you want everyone to know you love them, because you don’t know if that’ll be the last thing you say to them.
Let’s hope a break from my chemo pills helps keep me healthy enough until I’m able to see said doctors 💚
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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
@FruityPWN
Here is my advice for you. I shall post it as a public post, because I feel others may be interested in what I’ve come up with after meditating on your problem.
Begin by asking yourself these questions: What are my goals? What’s holding me back, harming me, etc? Take a while to think about the answers to those questions. Next, ask yourself: What can I do? What can I use? You’re only going to find yourself stuck if you dwell on such problems without searching for solutions. It’s not easy.
Here is everything I have found that helps me, and that I find to be pretty broadly applicable:
  • YouTube has just about everything you could want or need as far as videos go. Learning about topics you are interested in is a great way to pass time, calm the mind, and find answers. Another huge help is fun stuff. If, for example, there’s a video game you enjoy, you can find analyses on it, let’s plays, and so on. You can also do this for video games you haven’t played but want to learn about. Don’t be afraid to dwell in some comfort things.
  • Incense and candles provide calming scents. Get them and use them if you can.
  • Music is great for working through things and healing. See if you can’t find songs about your problems; for me, songs about my problems make me feel seen, heard, and understood. Considering that I found an album that accurately describes everything to do with my biggest Cproblem, there are likely songs out there that can help you as well! As a quick aside, I’ve realized that my love of that album has given me a very strong ability that I’ll likely be able to put to use someday. Music is powerful!
  • If you’re able to, exercise and get out of the house at least a little. Know that your body is going to need time to build up stamina, so start small. Looking at the sky and connecting with nature are both powerful and empowering things anyone can do. And don’t think such things are out of reach if you live in a city! I live in a city. This, of course, pairs excellently with music. Start by focusing on being aware of your surroundings, though. Finding the balance between letting yourself get a little lost in music and thought, and still keeping focus on what’s around you, is an important key.
  • If you’re looking for social interaction, ask yourself what your interests are, then see if you can’t find communities for those interests. I’ve been re-integrating myself into communities lately, and they’re getting better at understanding me and meeting me halfway. Know, too, that you don’t have to interact every day.
It’s hard to better oneself when left all alone, I know. But these are the things I’ve been doing, and they’re also doable for everyone else. And if you ever need me, don’t forget I’m just a DM or Discord message away! Take care Fruity, and anyone else reading this. Love you all >^_^<

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FruityPWN
Birthday Fur - Joined within the first year of the site operation and has had significant amount of activity as of June 1, 2021.
Astra - Helped choose the name for our mascot - Astra.
Passing of the Eclipse - Joined within the first month of public opening and has had at least some activity as of August 3, 2020.

Fruitiest of PWN
Really strained my mind last night…gave myself angina and a mild migraine, attempted to fix it and then just passed out…been trying to fix myself for three nights straight, but it only seems to be masking the problem. Inevitably, it may, indeed, come back…I could use guidance, though I’m not sure how to even guide myself.
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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
@Ciaran
Wouldn’t surprise me if the local police already know but, it’s not that simple. I live in CA, not FL, and this is a powerful and wealthy man I’m talking about. Another P Diddy, except he keeps being treated as though he is above the law. So all I really can do, is vent about it, and keep hope alive that the tides change on the situation
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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
I just want surgery. I just want this gone. I feel like crying. I’m so tired of being in pain every day. This isn’t a normal cyst and it’s clear now that it’s not just gonna burst and go away. Not for lack of trying - I went to so many OBGYN appointments just to get referred to a gynecological oncologist, only to be back to the “Let’s have you get an MRI” step. And the fact that he somehow didn’t have the results when last we spoke just makes me want to scream. It’s no wonder I’m in pain - OBGYN said it’s the size of a grapefruit with a lemon on top. God, that should have been a far more immediate call to action. It’s clear to me that I should get a hysterectomy at this point, just like it was clear to me that I was suffering from vitamin deficiencies long before it was confirmed that I had them.
Finally getting to untangle my root chakra and finally not being in constant pain would do a world of good for my mental health.
I hadn’t mentioned I’ve been in pain the past few months because I’ve been trying to be more positive, but fuck it. Because the pain just keeps getting worse.

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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
Today I learned about potential sex trafficking recruitment at… a palace, let’s say, in Palm Beach, FL. If it comes to pass that we have another P Diddy situation with this man, then well, I tried to tell you all. There’s a reason I hate him so much
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ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
Even Worse Kobold -
Birthday Fur - Joined within the first year of the site operation and has had significant amount of activity as of June 1, 2021.
Derpy Fur - Prevented Furbooru's terrible fate in April of 2021.
Astra - Helped choose the name for our mascot - Astra.
Passing of the Eclipse - Joined within the first month of public opening and has had at least some activity as of August 3, 2020.
Artist -

Zamasu.
Anime Banzai’s final convention is kinda depressing, TBH. It’s not as busy as it was in the past (possibly due to it initially being canceled before announcing its final con.)
At least there’s still Isekai in the spring and Salt Lake FanX next September.
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ChickPea

I suffered hypertension, I felt like I was gonna freak out, couldn’t calm myself down from breathing, ended up barfing out my lunch in the bathroom, multiple times now. Felt my world was spinning with how intense my dizziness.
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MoonOtter
Even Worse Kobold -

Moon.
@FruityPWN
Never said they weren’t. Night terrors and the resulting sleep disruptions are absolutely awful, I hope you can get things sorted. So much of doing better for ourselves starts with rest and sleep.
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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
@MoonOtter
Noted, I’ll try helping Fruity in DMs from now on, but, their dreams are real problems. Hence, why they vent about them here. Having night terrors and being unable to sleep as a result is a real problem. I’m trying to help them sleep, ya know? They seem like they’re always going through an awful lot, and I’ve yet to hear much else in the way of helpful solutions to their problems. I would assume they’ve already tried conventional things like antidepressants and melatonin and the like. Promise, I’m trying to help them, not hurt anyone. Sorry, though.
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StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys

Meow meow :3
@FruityPWN
Mm. Moloch again, to put things in simplest terms. I’ve learned a ton about him since I last mentioned him. Try to relax and not be so afraid, I don’t think that entity can actually hurt you. We’re estranged but he’s actually on my side. He’s been turned into a marketable plushie recently, too, if that helps >^_^<
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FruityPWN
Birthday Fur - Joined within the first year of the site operation and has had significant amount of activity as of June 1, 2021.
Astra - Helped choose the name for our mascot - Astra.
Passing of the Eclipse - Joined within the first month of public opening and has had at least some activity as of August 3, 2020.

Fruitiest of PWN
Had multiple impressions of being held hostage by some sort of indescribable entity. Out of maybe a dozen, the last one was where I managed to run away, but I had to leave everything behind just as it was…very odd, kept me up every hour last night.
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