@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
My post had nothing to do with you.

Women.

@Elly Catfox
I’m the closest thing to a friend that anyone can hope for.

Being judged for my mental illness I’ll simply go my own way.

@FruityPWN
Get off of Furbooru some more, find good people. Go out and live a little, irl or online. There’s more people out there. Please don’t die. I would feel partially responsible. I know I’m not but please Im begging you Fruity. :’(

@FruityPWN
Have you tried hanging out on Twitch? Check out wastelandcanid, sussybnuuy, thelastseahorse, Wrenrabbit, Tiger2Wild, and Ookitsu. They’re good people. They have fun and safe spaces. Please. I’m begging you. I’ve lost too many people to suicide. Please. Please get your life back on track. Please. You can. Please. I know it hurts but you can. You can get better. Please. :’(

@FruityPWN
Fruity please go back to the hospital and get help please :’(

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
I got some percs and a 40 ounce let’s go time to perish into oblivion and some sizzurp

@FruityPWN
As a %100 pure-blooded metalhead I can relate to what you’re saying.

@Elly Catfox
Well, I almost did and honestly I still might though I’m probably too much of a fucking pussy to even do that right so I get to live in my own hell. Nothing matters. I’ve come to realize that, as far as I know, nothing really does. I’m just cursed with myself and there is no cure for it. I’m glad you’re doing well. I came to the conclusion that I’m just not well in the slightest…I don’t really blame you and I did warn you that I’m a terrible individual…just know what ever you did see, that psycho thing, I didn’t even remember it but I believe it happened because I guess my memory is just shit now. Too much of a full on fuck up to even have good memory…why should you or anybody else even care if I’m gone or not? I’m not important. Don’t try and sugarcoat it. My greatest desire will never truly be met because how can it be met? My mental crisis is draining me and I don’t really see a purpose in anything anymore. I am but a simple meat husk that is just acting on impulse and doing things out of habit. I need help, but how is anybody going to help? Does it even matter? Does anything matter? I should have been gone many years ago, but for some twisted reason, I’m still here. Suffering in my own life. In pain. Not sure what to do. Everything I do is just wrong and I bring suffering anywhere I go. So, what would me being gone really matter? It seems everything and everyone would be much better off without…I’m sorry for the pain I put you through and I wish there was a way to change it but I can’t and it is what it is. I don’t deserve this life…

You were frustrating and possessive of me and went fucking psycho on me, but you’re still a person and I’d still feel really sad if you offed yourself. I wish there was something I could do but there isn’t,and I’m not gonna pretend like there is.

Personally, I’ve been great this last month or so. Found a good therapist, got on HRT, and found good friends. made a huge difference. Maybe you can find something that makes you happy, gives you a future to look forward to while living in the moment more… maybe you can be happy Fruity.

I won’t pretend like the system will make it better. It likely won’t, especially not hospitals.

But please don’t kill yourself.

Please. :( ~

@FruityPWN
Excuse me if this seems unsympathetic, but it sounds like you know where you are at, and know that you need to be responsible for yourself. That’s great. Now you can stop waiting for someone else to act, and stop being dependent on others.

If nothing matters, then get to an emergency room and get help for your mental crisis.

Having another mental crisis. I don’t matter anymore. Nobody is going to save me this time. Nothing matters.

People in my life are the worst, smile in public and nasty in private.

That does it! I’m getting some tricked out sunglasses to record their bullshit.

Kinda sucks that Walmart is no longer open 24 hours a day.

YOU DARE LECTURE ME?!?! FEEL THE WRATH OF MY BRAIN!!!!!!!!

That is the last time I get laughed at. Maybe.

i’m actually much better right now overall in my life. I’m missing my meds at the moment. But I’m doing my best. :)

I’m suppose to be cute? After you called me a faggot?

Nuts in an elephant’s shit to this.

@FruityPWN
I hope you have good luck.

Leaving the hospital despite needing to stay at least a few more days. Going home.

Welp, I did something stupid. I woke up in the E.R. from ingesting something I should not have. My throat really burns, so I am guessing that it burned on the way down. I barely remember anything or where I was when it happened. I just know what I did was really stupid.

@Ciaran
I don’t know, but I’ve had Asthma since I was young. Plus, I may have had COVID at some point, but my head hurts on and off and the coughing won’t stop.

One of the speakers in my Samsung A52 5G smartphone is blown. And I’ve already verified it’s a hardware issue, not a software one.

@FruityPWN
Did you have covid? If you did, talk to your doctor about your symptoms. Might be ‘long covid’ symptoms. If you’ve got the ‘nerves and arteries are inflamed’ symptom, then you might be getting a headache that feels like someone drilling a hole in your temple.

Thought about it and just woke up wanting to blow my head off. Still kind of do, but I will persevere…I think. Maybe not. I need help. Nobody would miss me, anyways. No, this is not to anybody specifically, I’ve been feeling this way for…a week or two.