You were frustrating and possessive of me and went fucking psycho on me, but you're still a person and I'd still feel really sad if you offed yourself. I wish there was something I could do but there isn't,and I'm not gonna pretend like there is.
Personally, I've been great this last month or so. Found a good therapist, got on HRT, and found good friends. made a huge difference. Maybe you can find something that makes you happy, gives you a future to look forward to while living in the moment more... maybe you can be happy Fruity.
I won't pretend like the system will make it better. It likely won't, especially not hospitals.
But please don't kill yourself.
Please. :( ~