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The costly bills, gaslighting, negative effects of medication, lack of positive effects, and lack of care that I’ve received from the mental health industry over the years has caused far more harm than good and it’s only in recent times that I’ve finally found some medication that seems like it might be doing more good than harm, however subtle, and that I have a therapist who actually gives a shit and works to understand something about their clients instead of treating them like cookie cutters with checkbooks.

Far too often we tell people to get help without realizing how incredibly difficult, costly, and ineffective that is the majority of the time. I’m not saying don’t try, but damnit, it’s incredibly frustrating. We need reform. We need to stop collectively yelling people to get help without making the help we have already actually do some good.

I have been gaslighted, neglected, and lied to so many times by the mental health industry and I’m not alone. I’m lucky I can even articulate my grievances, but welcome to Asperger’s I guess. I’m just so incredibly disgusted by it. It makes me sick even thinking about it. The sheer ridiculousness of so much of it. We pour millions of dollars into facilities in this country where people go to sit on the couch and watch TV surrounded by criminals, the mentally handicapped, and people with vastly different mental health problems all under one roof screaming and causing problems. We give them less treatment and care than they get on the outside and let them rot in there, and then when they get out we expect them to magically be better somehow instead of worse. It’s a complete farce. It’s an insult to collective intelligence. It’s utter nonsense. It’s disgusting, and yet our nation’s voters, our parents, our psychiatrist and therapists and other mental health professionals are complicit in it. We’re all complicit in it for letting this continue like this and saying “this is normal. This is just the way it is.” It’s absolutely disgusting the way that we treat people in this country. It’s maddening and no, I’m not violent and I’m not gonna go do somethimg crazy, but I can understand the thought process of people with no hope who go on shooting sprees and shoot up schools and doctors offices and the institutions which are rightfully symbols of suffering and utter negligence in this country. At the end of the day, no, I don’t agree with it, but I can understand why people feel that way and you should too.
 
This is what happens when you treat people like dollar signs.

@SerenePony  
I see a therapist every week. After 13 years of searching, I found one this past year who both A. isn’t completely ineffective, and B., actually gives a damn. So, that’s nice.
 
No offensea, but the mental health industry sucks ass though. I hope you’re one of the good ones. I’ve spent nearly 2 years of my life institutionalized and it was almost completely pointless. I came out of those looney bins (no offense, some of us just called em that in there to keep a sense of humor and survive) with more screws loose than when I went in.
 
Why is it, that unless you have money, when you see a med manager/PA/actual psychiatrist if you’re lucky in the US, that you go in and see someone who gives you 3 different medications and 2 different diagnoses after talking to you for less than 5 minutes and then saying “See ya” so they can get onyo the next client? Why the fuck do so few people in this country care, that it takes 13 years of begging these people to let you slow down and try different options slowly to figure out if there’s any medication that might not be too strong and might actually work, one at a time, to be able to find anything? Why do these godforsaken assholes make up their minds about what is right for their clients before they even listen to what their clients are telling them? I almost died once after my throat closed up when they forced me to take haldol at one point even after I kept telling them it was killing me and I couldn’t take it. I have permanently never felt quite the same, quite as sharp as I used to since that incident and that was 6 years ago. The next month is a completely hazy fog in my memory and I just remember being extremely confused and scared. They did that to me after I told them repeatedly it was killing me and I was sure I had some kind of allergy and they repeatedly gaslighted me. They even almost did it again even after the incident.
 
The mental health industry has a lot to answer for. The only reason I kept going back is because I desperately need help and have had so many times in my life where I’ve had nowhere else to turn. But why is it that it’s always done more harm than good until the last year when I just got lucky and finally found some decent people? Decent people in this industry shouldn’t be that rare. I might be crazy, but I’m not stupid. I know what I’ve been through and I know negligence and mishandling of care when I see it. It’s everywhere in this industry and yet there’s nothing most any of us can do about it. It’s so normalized most people don’t even see it. But it’s true, and I’m so sick of it.

I hope you aren’t going through it alone, do you have support from friends, family, somewhere to be able to talk about it?

@SerenePony  
I’m not okay but I keep going. I have to.

@OliverHancock  
Its okay, don’t worry dude. As long as you are doing ok, thats the main thing. And sorry if I came off as mad or judgemental, I study counselling for a career so I have learned to be weary of stuff like this, even mentioning it online.  
Guess I went into therapist mode. But naw I’m not mad at you or anything.

@SerenePony  
I’m an open book. Also just kinda cracked last night. IDK. Don’t worry. I’m fine. I mean what, are you mad at me for mentioning it or something?

@OliverHancock  
That sounds like quite a personal thing to share, especially online.

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A new hobby might be good. I have trouble with sexuality in general. Got molested as a kid and went through a lot of other fucked up shit but yeah uhh, new hobbies yay lol.

@OliverHancock  
Thats so perfect!  
Also here is a video tutoroll on drawin’ dicks, dont forget to use the spray tool and listen to Smash mouth midis.
 
No need to be anon if you drawin’ dicks.

@SerenePony  
This
 
Edit: Oh oops I posted not anon. Oh well it’s fine haha.

Whose been drawin dicks?

Dicks are nice and hard. Everyone should draw some dick!