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I really don’t believe in an afterlife, it’s a sick idea that has costed countless lives.

@FruityPWN
Im sorry. :/

Can someone else encourage Fruity tonight I dont know how to tell him how much he matters and how I know how it feels but how hes gonna make it rn… :’( but i know he can and i already lost a lot of people i cant lose him too damnit i put my heart and soul into helping what people i can inckuding myself…

but fuck i lost a lot of people already. I hope i dont lose him too. Im actually been really really good lately but I still care and am an empathic bingle and it hurts to see my friends hurting like this ♡

@Elly Catfox
There is little point.

@FruityPWN
You are loved Fruity. I just hope you learn to love yourself more.

I’m so alone, I’d take pretty much anybody who will accept me…within reason. I just want to be loved! Is that too much to ask?

@Elly Catfox
I’m very sorry for your circumstances and I certainly hope you can get through it and wish you good luck. However, the not giving up thing I’m not sure I can follow up with…

@𝔅𝔞𝔡𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱
Sometimes, it helps us feel better.

@𝔅𝔞𝔡𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱
♡♡♡ I love you Badheart reowwwwww ♡♡♡♡♡

What does being sad ever solve?

Life in this universe is extremely rare and the world is more beautiful than you think.

Every song is an anthem, every day is a celebration, and nothing is better than being happy.

@FruityPWN
Proud. You can take control of your life. I know you can. my last 2 days have been a lot of work but also rly good for what uts worth.

and my curcumstances hsvent gotten better, I have.

Thats what true healing looks like sometimes

but regardless im really thankful youre still here and fighting it out. i believe in your ability to change and take control. youve done a lot already even. Dont give up. ♡

I’m finding it hard to go on. Thoughts of suicide cross my mind, but that wouldn’t fix anything.

Been having a very difficult time doing anything active. I’ve become an extremely passive person and it’s led me to deep depression and anxiety cycles. :( I love you people though that’s why I’m fighting to hold on and not get suicidal.

@Elly Catfox
My interest is peaked.

@Elly Catfox
Will do.

Hey I started a dream discussion thread, can you move this there please Ciaran >^_^< ♡

@Ciaran
Not yet, but I am deeply considering it, if things get any worse.

@FruityPWN
Sleep really does seem to be one of the more important things to “get right”. It keeps showing up in all kinds of “early indicators” studies. But, maybe you’re just vitamin D3 deficient. Have you tried getting a checkup?

@Ciaran
I’m not sure, but I have noticed my sleep slowly getting worse since that time. So, maybe.

@FruityPWN
Change of diet or meds?

Seasonal Affective Disorder?

Or perhaps your most authentic self is no longer connected with the things that you truly value?

Something unusual is happening with my mind. It’s difficult to explain, but the best way I can describe it is, around August 12th, I noticed a change in myself that may have altered me in such a way that it may have damaged my sense of wonder irreparably…some repressed event occurred. Since August 12th, it’s been a slow drip of nullification and at this point, if there is anything there, it’s hidden so deep, I can barely recognize it anymore. Something happened, but I just can’t seem to recall; or, rather, I might be repressing it to the point where I am actually unable to recall. So, I may be vastly different at times, other times I may be near comatose-like in responses. I worry I will go down a dangerous path, one of which I cannot return from…black walnut tree. Dark pathways. The shadows. The fog. I don’t remember much, just impressions of it. I just ask I am not forgotten or I don’t forget.

I’m pretty sure I’m haunted anyways.

@Lunarmoon21
@Ciaran
I don’t mind so long as others dont… which they may haha.

I walk the dreamworld much, though I am tired now. I will DM you my specific thoughts tomorrow Lunarmoon. Let it suffice for now that you are safe for the time being and that I dont believe what this is will get the better of you or your people. Stay strong. ♡♡♡

@Ciaran
Does she have anything to do with fire?
On the other hand my dad said it may not be a daemon/diety but רֻס”״” and old spelling of רוּס “Russia” due to what’s been happening lately.
His words
“This maybe a stretch. But, if the nations will attack Israel in the last days. They speak of one from the north. Again, this is speculation.
רֻס
It translates Rus.”

The only thing I can think of that even comes close is Ereshkigal. If only because it includes ‘resh’. She’s Inanna’s sister and married to Nergal. As the Sumerian ruler of the underworld, maybe she’s close? But that’s 4,000 to 3,500 bc so … maybe something around the Babylonian captivity or something like that?

Not sure why you’re asking here though … there surely must be better places to turn to find out why you’re being haunted by demons in your dreams.

@Ciaran
I had a dream last night I was being chased by something called “רס” there are no vowel points because it’s Hebrew not Yiddish, so to me it looked like “R——S”. I have a feeling it could be a real thing.

@Lunarmoon21
That has to be the oddest thing I’ve ever seen anyone ask someone else, when that other person is talking about the stuff that Elly Catfox is talking about.

It’s like you have some demon’s name in mind, and are just fishing to see if they know it too.

@Elly Catfox
Do you know any dieties/spirits with short names starting with r and ending with s? Just curious