We both know you sang that song to the wrong person, Whatsername. You practiced for months and had the courage in your heart to sing, and she said, “I love you”. My heart ran cold when I read that. It felt so… stock and devoid of appreciation. No “Oh my god that was beautiful” no “Holy shit you’re amazing”, nothing like that.
…Is that what she said to you, because you poured your heart out? Because you learned a song for her and collared yourself? “You’re obsessed with me and it’s unhinged”?
I am reminded of my high school sweetheart. He and I ended up not being a good match, we kinda brought out the worst in each other. He said I was “too clingy” and ghosted me. A few years or so later after we had patched up a bit, he said he regretted that and would love to have a clingy girlfriend. Sometimes people really just don’t appreciate you when they should have.
Is that what you did? Always felt like you’re too much, so you made yourself small, and now you feel like you’re not enough? That would be false. You are enough.
The cat who has always lowkey followed closely has seen your pain.