The Music We're Listening To

More bonding with my friend Kris today and she’s talking about her crush’s ex who treated him horribly. Kris was talking about how them and their crush bonded over this song, which is funny because I listened to it a whole bunch a few months back when I was hurting. And like, it’s so fitting now after everything that has happened. Here I am today, beating depression and PTSD as the friend army just sends me love >^_^<

All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell

Enya - Tempus Vernum and Deora Ar Mo Chroí

Holy Death - The Knight, Death And The Devil

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
A very otherworldly feel, I feel as though I am on a hayride through a cemetery but when the singing starts, I feel as though I have been transported to Mars. The atmosphere is heavy and red :3

JT Music - After Hours

@Satu Putra
Dropping your power to 0%, your music box to unwound, your audio, video, and vents to malfunctioned, your beddle full of Freddles, your springs unlocked, your office boiling, and never letting you escape the pizzaplex while also dropping sick beats!

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia

Christine has had DEER visiting her backyard and that is cool as all fuck. And then she said, “They have chosen dis land” so you know I had to send the movie OST nerd who goes to orchestral concerts of film scores sometimes, this:

Hans Zimmer - This Land

Finally! An anthem for us Garfield emos!

Shellshock Lullaby - Garffeeld!

Bout to catch the premier of The Cog is Dead covering Folsom Prison Blues aaaaa Lucky Cat >^_^<

Update: HOLY SHIT

Pokemon 2 B A Master - You Can Do It (If You Really Try)

My old friend Pete added me out of nowhere on Facebook. I chatted with him briefly, he’s doing well >^-^< Plays bass in a Badheart-approved band called Epicaricacy!

Epicaricacy - Clinging to Misery

Party time let’s go!

Cyranek - Big Yoshi’s Lounge

Yoshi’s Island - Flower Garden (Remix by GlitchxCity)

Today is also Bidoof Day, because of course Bidoof Day would fall on Gareth’s birthday. He completely and unironically loved Pokemon and Never Gonna Give You Up. Get Bidoof Roll’d!

Pokemon - Bidoof Day Announcement

My Chemical Romance - The Kids From Yesterday

The Sex Pistols - Anarchy In The UK

Cats - The Naming of Cats

Donnie Darko - Cellar Door

A song Cactus Bloom and I shared >^_^< And gives me an idea of how to feel better

Steam Powered Giraffe - Bad Days On The Horizon

The Casualties - Static, Feedback, Noise

The Unseen - We Are All That We Have

You are all going to watch this all the way to the end. Especially you. 💚

My Chemical Romance - Teenagers

This song. It popped up on my YouTube recommended yesterday. Gee, does it remind anyone of someone? “Sex drugs and violence if that’s the only way” it says. I hope you can all understand why this would scare me.

Kennyung or however you spell it - Good Old Green Days

And how is she supposed to feel if she sees this? Don’t you think it would scare her too? We all know she’s been through a lot and has anger issues. That’s lowkey what a lot of my posts have been about, how love and kindness can win over that kind of thing. I hope she’s okay. This is a lot.

When I was going through a lot and posting on here, I copy-pasted the lyrics to La Vie Boheme A and B on here. Elly posted this really angry thing on Facebook about someone calling her the f-slur and showed her holding a small knife. At the time, I assumed she wasn’t talking about me and someone had shouted that at her. But obviously, I don’t know that for certain. And it scared me and sent me into that psychotic episode.

So, I want to help her feel better and such. And hope she’s trustworthy and everything. Fucking obviously I didn’t intend to hurt her by posting that. La Vie Boheme is my life anthem, I had told her that previously, and the slur is reclamatory. Exactly like it is in American Idiot and Holiday.

…Wait, has Elly ever talked about what their favourite band is on here? Cat has, er, quite the deep connection to Green Day, let’s say. I remember something she told me once.

No prizes for guessing what my favourite band is.

Rent - La Vie Boheme A

Rent - La Vie Boheme B

Green Day - American Idiot

Green Day - Holiday

My Chemical Romance - I’m Not Okay

Okay, I’m calmer now. I read the description and it’s references. That’s… exactly what I do. I’m sorry I got so worried, but it’s probably understandable why. We have talked this through and I am calm again.

Some motherly advice from when I had that psychotic episode, though… Don’t make threats online. Shit’s scary, lol

Still, though. No regrets about living my life by love. One must become in tune with truly living, occasionally sharing memories of the past but mostly, embracing the thoughts and desires of the present. Worry about the future? A little, sure. But it is best to not get too overwhelmed by it all. I did and well… Yeah, lol.

It reminds me of the lesson Mimi teaches us:
“There is no future. There is no past. I live this moment as my last.”
It may sound alarming at first, but she’s being metaphorical.

“There’s only us. There’s only this. Forget regret or life is yours to miss. No other road. No other way. No day but today”

I was suicidally depressed when I was 14 because of my dad’s homophobia. I bought my first punk CD at Hot Topic. Wanna hear the first punk songz I ever heard?

The Unseen - On the Other Side

The Unseen - Scream Out