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@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I am alive, but not living…really was close to calling it earlier.

“Trust the process, trust the process, trust the process” my mind keeps saying. And that is exactly what I’m being told in a video rn.

Don’t fear Project 2025, y’all. I’ve received a lot of signs that we’ll be okay.

Stay safe and be good to yourselves 💚

Update: Fruity is alive thank goodness

@ChickPea
Hmm… You need to find some way to get past these fears. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and see if I don’t eventually find helpful advice for you ::3

It’s the middle of the night, I’m still worrying about getting sick and dying, I have two running thoughts. It’s getting rabies or getting Naegleria. Everytime I get a headache, I just quietly freak out. Earlier the day, I trying put my cat outside because he doesn’t belong inside, now I fear I might get rabies or the fact I’ve just showered. I know my cat didn’t bit or the water being contaminated.

@alexa
You see, folks? Things can and do get better. So glad to hear >^_^<

Well great, been a while now since I’ve heard from Fruity and I’m worried af.

To everyone else here, please stay with me. Please keep holding on even if you’re feeling depressed and things look bleak.

I’m so, so sorry I’ve gone through a lot of rough depression stuff earlier this year. But lately, I’ve felt like I needed to go through that before these scarier times were upon us so that I could be strong and calm now. And, while I can’t promise I won’t have the occasional bout of depression, I’ve also been feeling like I’m not really allowed to die - like the spiritual realm forbids it. So there’s not really a point to my getting suicidal ever again.

So please, stay here with me. Especially because a phrase that has been on my mind a lot lately is, “Things have to get worse before they can get better”, and that’s honestly what I’ve spent the year doing.

We don’t know for certain what will happen. Take time and space as needed but please stick around. Every friend in the friend army is important 💚

november 14th is coming up and i don’t really like that day, because of personal reasons that only me and strangekitten talked about, it’s a bad day with bad memories for me

also, i got a bond agreement for a studio apartment, so pretty soon i’ll be moving out into a proper place and out of crisis accommodation which i’ve been living in for pretty much the entire year, so i’m on my way to HOPEFULLY having an at least half-decent rest of my life

@FruityPWN
It is not time. Please stay 🫂

It is time…I am sorry.

@FruityPWN
Keep holding on dear friend 💚

@ChickPea
Allow me to teach you about a little thing called Project 2025! I so happened to post part of it over in the spirituality thread. Here’s that part:
“The next conservative President must make the institutions of
American civil society hard targets for woke culture warriors. This starts with deleting the terms sexual orientation and gender idtentity (“SOGI”), diversity, equity, and inclusion (“DEI”), gender, gender equality, gender equity, gender awareness, gender sensi-tive, reproductive health, reproductive rights, and any other term used to deprive Americans of their First Amendment rights out of every federal rule, agency regulation, contract, grant, regulation, and piece of legislation that exists. Pornography, manifested today in the omnipresent propagation of transgender ideology and sexualization of children, for instance, is not a political Gordian knot inextricably binding up disparate claims about free speech, property rights, sexual liberation, and child welfare. It has no claim to First Amendment protection. Its purveyors are child predators and misogynistic exploiters of women. Their product is as addictive as any illicit drug and as psychologically destructive as any crime. Pornography should be outlawed. The people who produce and distribute it should be imprisoned. Educators and public librarians who purvey it should be classed as registered sex offenders. And telecommunications and technology firms that facilitate its spread should be shuttered.”

Essentially, they want to make it illegal for trans people such as Elly and myself to exist. They want to label us as sex offenders so that they may then round us up and arrest us. Sound familiar? Sound like what Germany was up to in the 1930s and 40s? That’s because it is! We’re not demonizing the far-right. The far-right is demonizing us.

And that is but a small excerpt of the 900-page manifesto that is Project 2025. It’s the American conservative party’s vision to drastically reshape the country into what they want it to be. And their vision excludes people like me.

Unfortunately for them, things are very different this time around. A group of hackers managed to bring the project into the national spotlight. Many powerful people joined the resistance via endorsing Harris - whose website had (and probably still has) all of Project 2025 on it. Many states are going to prove to be a thorn in the side of conservatives should they actually try to enact this. I find myself in the fortunate position of living in a blue state.

Big Orange also wasn’t a wise figure for the conservatives to throw everything behind. Nobody likes him. Not even the people you’d think would. I’m disabled, and as such, I have nothing but free time. This is true now and was true during Big Orange’s first term. To keep myself informed and to help counteract the lies I would occasionally be told about Big Orange, I watched leftist news channels on YouTube day in and day out. I am not kidding when I say I know my stuff here. The odds of Project 2025 coming to pass with Big Orange at the helm are much worse than you’d think. As for his running mate and to-be VP? I’m also not as scared of him as most are. He showed much more civility and much less fanaticism in his debate with Walz. It also wasn’t too long ago that he correctly compared Big Orange to Hitler, and I have a feeling that sentiment hasn’t completely left his mind.

One last thing I’d like to point out - no, a majority of Americans don’t hate you and don’t want Project 2025. The reality is much simpler and stupider. The cost of living is too high, and they bet on the wrong horse to help bring it down. There’s the hateful, vocal minority, absolutely. But for the majority, it really is as simple as grocery prices are too high. They blame Biden and Harris for that, even though it’s not their fault and Harris had plans to help in that regard. And for young voters, they were kids and young adults during Big Orange’s first term, so they don’t remember what it was like and how ineffective he was at helping the average Joe.

Guess they have to learn the hard way.

I had a bad reaction tonight to stress…I’m not usually a fainter, but I almost fainted because I take things way too damn hard. I hate my feelings, I get so damn jealous if someone else I love us doing something with someone else and then I feel selfish because I want them to myself, but then I feel sad because I feel bad for being selfish, then I get pissed off at myself because I hate how stupid my feelings are…I just don’t want to be alone, I would very much rather kill myself than be alone. I’m so worried about everything going on and now I have stress because of all the crap going on in the world plus other things pissing me off made me burn out. I just want to be loved and not a resource.

@Elly Catfox
I don’t really understand what the concerns are, the mainstream media always has the tendency of demonizing and overexaggerating people and picking sides instead of being neutral on the stance especially this one. Even if I was a U.S Citizen, I could care less to be honest.

I’m going to post my very post drawing in this site, and it’s going to be Meowskulls, except the fact she’s flashing to the viewer it’s not perfect, but it’s good enough improvement than my previous drawings.

@Anonymous #0E0B
Those who are scared right now have the most valid concerns possible. How would you feel if those in power were attempting to target you?

I would be a complete mess of anxiety if I hadn’t already spent the summer shadow-working this and acclimating to meds that keep me calm. From my gained headspace, I’m able to look at this far more calmly and think the situation through. I’m able to be strong for those who can’t be.

Please try to have empathy for those who are scared right now. Being kind in such cruel times is what’s needed.

@Anonymous #0E0B
Oh sure hide behind anonymous why don’t you while telling people to “stop taking stupid pills.” People aren’t stupid for having real concerns. Not everything is just happy sunshine and rainbows in this world.

That said I… Wanna be kinder. I feel like I’m turning into a person I don’t like today…

Everyone is flipping out, everyone (nobody specific, just in general) need to stop taking stupid pills…everything will be okay, trust me.

@FruityPWN
Keep hanging in there. It is possible that you are feeling some of the collective anxieties going around now. Stay safe and know that I will be here for you.

The rest of this post goes out to everyone: If you are feeling sad, or weak, or powerless, give yourself time to feel those feelings. It’s okay. Be good to yourselves.

I feel, however, that now is not the time for me to be feeling such feelings. Now is the time for me to be the strong purrson I was meant to be. I feel like all the awfulness I’ve had to endure was a lead-up to now - to further strengthen me during such scary times so that I may step up and be able to be there for those who need me. Which is a lot of people. The friend army is pretty large nyaow, and made entirely of queer people and autistic people - the exact kind of people they want to target. Fortunately for everyone, I know our enemy, and knowledge is power!

Check out my first unscripted video essay here if you need help calming down: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-RVlHl9TAnc

And my second unscripted video essay de-mystifying the man: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CtDk937jgLE

Let’s keep holding onto hope, everyone!

@ChickPea
I’m so anxious right now for very little reason, bad thoughts are perpetually present and I’m just not sure what to do…I’m trying to mask it, but it feels like I’ll strain myself again and cause a migraine again.

@FruityPWN
Listen, you will go through it, keep your head up.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
You too.

@FruityPWN
Hang in there 💚

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I’m trying, but it feels like I’m living in Groundhog Day.

@FruityPWN
I’m tired from stress too, and feeling the chemobrain a bit for the first time in a long time.

Breathe. Remain calm. There’s a lot more preventing the bad than you may think. This path will be rough but, I’ve received some signs that things aren’t as scary as they once seemed.