Keep hanging in there. It is possible that you are feeling some of the collective anxieties going around now. Stay safe and know that I will be here for you.
The rest of this post goes out to everyone: If you are feeling sad, or weak, or powerless, give yourself time to feel those feelings. It's okay. Be good to yourselves.
I feel, however, that now is not the time for me to be feeling such feelings. Now is the time for me to be the strong purrson I was meant to be. I feel like all the awfulness I've had to endure was a lead-up to now - to further strengthen me during such scary times so that I may step up and be able to be there for those who need me. Which is a lot of people. The friend army is pretty large nyaow, and made entirely of queer people and autistic people - the exact kind of people they want to target. Fortunately for everyone, I know our enemy, and knowledge is power!
Check out my first unscripted video essay here to if you need help calming down: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-RVlHl9TAnc
And my second unscripted video essay de-mystifying the man: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CtDk937jgLE
Let's keep holding onto hope, everyone!