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@Anonymous #F01E
I will literally send God in to save your life.

(Guess who just learned who the girl on the bike was that I saw when the spirits attacked me?)

probably gonna blow my head off soon idk idc anymore

Spammers pretending to be the AARP have started to flood my email inbox again after a month or two of silence from them. How do they keep defeating the spam filter?

Or if he dies, that’s another path that has a high probability of occurring.

Fortunately for me, I have been lead down the path of self-confidence, self-love, and strength.

And okay woah, they might be helping to get my mom into a much better place, mentally, before the big ol shoe drops.

We have all been trying to tell her. She keeps refusing to listen. All the way back in 2018 when someone pointed out the Epstein connection to her. To earlier this year when I brought up the island only for mom to say there’s nothing there. To a documentary on Prince Charles’ guilty connection that also mentioned you-know-who that my mom watched. Planting the seed. Which of course has yet to sprout. She still supports him, and all I can really do is laugh at the ridiculousness.

But we all know how difficult it’s going to be if and when the truth finally gets through to her. Not just for her but, for me. Hopefully she has calmed down enough and grown enough to not go on a hate-fueled rant at me a second time, to say nothing of what she may attempt to do to herself should she finally realize her idol is the exact opposite of the child-saving superhero she has built him up to be in her mind.

And that, I think, is the real lesson of not worshipping false idols. Always keep that healthy grain of salt with you for if the famous people you admire turn out to have done bad things. Not your fault for having admired them, but their fault for proving that they weren’t worthy of it in the first place.

It’s sad that my mom lacks that grain of salt. Or maybe she just lives in denial of it.

@ChickPea
But didn’t we figure out that the amoeba will only get to your brain if you get water in your nose? I don’t tend to get the water in my nose when I shower.

@Elly Catfox
Right? So shwari.

I am incredibly thankful that I was taught about shwari, as I demonstrated how fast I’ve mastered it yesterday when my mom had a total meltdown. And despite what happened, she resisted the urge to go buy cigarettes! She passed her test yesterday, and I’m proud of her ::3

And my reward was coming across an article on traits people who have been through narcissistic abuse tend to have. I have or at least, had until recently, almost all of them. A sign that my spiritual stepmom understands what I go through, and forgives me for having thought badly of her. Bonding with her yesterday really made an otherwise awful day so much better. And it was probably her who made my mom have that breakdown, in order to see how my mom’s doing.

Signs as well, that we’ll be in this house for at least one more year. More time for me to get back on disability payments.

I feel like I’ve come so far since all those angry spirits attacked me in March. Cannot thank them enough for helping me get on the antidepressant I needed and everything they’ve done for me 💚

Purple poop.

I crapped the rainbow!

@ChickPea
Chances are, you’ll be fine, but if you’re still worried, then I’d forego showers altogether and just boil lots of water and take a pseudo-bath.

@Elly Catfox
I’m trying to not shower for a week and a half, because apparently the amoeba is in tap water too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I love a relaxing shower

Definitely! Remain safe, ChickPea!

Concussion, gotta watch out for that next episode.

@ChickPea
Oh okay, then your nerves got messed with, probably with the goal of calming you down. I’m glad you have begun to find shwari. Hold onto that feeling and try to learn to bring it up again when needed. You get used to the dark, intense energy eventually.

And a concussion too.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
No, somehow my nervous breakdown helped me calm down significantly.

@ChickPea
Dang, your mental health is in a rough shape. Keep doing your best to persevere, and try to begin training your mind to stay calm. Shwari.

Know that you can emerge from hell as a far stronger, more powerful purrson if you try, and keep holding on. Are you seeking therapy? That can also help big time.

And I still recommend a relaxing shower. I get the sense that there is no amoeba to worry about. Is there anything that brought this amoeba fear on? Did you come across an article or something?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
The constant barking, and the sheer anxiety and overthinking caused me.

@ChickPea
How did a dog trigger your mental breakdown?

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I just my mental breakdown, it got triggered from a dog, I punched my forehead and smack it to the floor, fortunately I’m laying on a mattress, blew raspberries from my mouth got salvia into my nostrils and wipe dry with a damp towel which I recently used for brushing my teeth. I wanted to be dead, I can’t wait for this incubation period bullshit any longer, just kill me already.

I have been shown the answer as to why I’ve been made to post some pretty dark thoughts on here. In order to get to heaven, we have to embrace hell to get there.

Such upsetting posts won’t be happening from me again now that I have found shwari. But I’m sure I’m not the only one here who has trauma. We all have our scars.

I recommend to everyone here to try your best to begin healing them when you have spare time and are feeling like you can handle diving into your more difficult emotions. It is a process. Take things slow, and take breaks when need be.

This message is also a good sign for America 🇺🇸

@Anonymous #6223
The hermit crab thing is interesting because I have been lead to a video talking about how the word “qlipoth” translates to “shells”. You are facing resistance to what you want and need because hiding in a shell means you are not in alignment with your true self.

Give yourself time. Give yourself grace. But work on either making peace with the body you have, or changing it in positive ways that you can immediately do, such as exercising or painting your nails.

Don’t neglect your inner self, either. Not only can becoming who you want to be - the better, stronger version of yourself - help manifest some subtle appearance changes for the better, but this is another way to become in alignment with your inner self.

If you face any gender dysphoria, focus your thoughts on seeing yourself as your desired gender. This actually does cause subtle changes towards that gender. I noticed it when Cactus Bloom, a dear friend of mine, began to see himself in a more masculine way.

And above all else, breathe. Be calm. Don’t stress yourself focusing on such thoughts. Just try to think them now and again. Good mood, focus, and consistency are the keys to happiness and positive manifestations.

@ChickPea
I’ll communicate with your demon. You may actually want to try water. A warm shower, maybe meditate for at least a few minutes in there. Cleansing >^_^<

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
It’s not helping me the fact I am still in this anxious state

@Anonymous #6223
But for real, try to find ways to make peace with your body in its current state. It’s not going to do you a whole lot of good to be stuck in the mental prison of, “I hate my body”. The forces that be tend to dislike negative thinking, and manifesting rewards tends to happen once peace is made with the problem, or if you can show that you’re at least thinking of solutions.

I’m transmasc, but I’m also tiny as hell and no one is going to think I’m a man at first glance. I have so many obstacles to physically transitioning that it may not be possible for me. So I thought about what I can do to feel better. I found that building muscle on my arms helps a ton, and only then did I actually start seeing results. I found I can exist in my own space free of the confines of gender rules, and I actually prefer wearing some glamorous things. Fabulous femboy ✨

I think one thing you could do, is find people who accept your body as it is. I do. I may not even know who you are but, I’m all about body positivity. Your body is a temple. Love it and maybe decorate it ::3

Just cremate my ass.