Vent Thread

I woke up several times with sleep paralysis…guess I’m not used to hearing sudden sounds whilst asleep. Finally got up, feel like crap.

@FruityPWN
I’m still not entirely sure what’s going on with you. Hang in there 💙

Allergy season has been kicking my ass.

@FruityPWN
Wait, I might know. You might be being put through some very difficult tests, which you must pass. You pass by continuing to live, so keep doing that. Stay strong.

I will hope your tests will be easier than mine. Surviving dysentery was not a fun time.

The more tests we pass, the more tests Big Orange fails. Tis indeed a sign of hope, nya >^_<

Pffff, I can do all that without scamming people

I just find it hilarious that the bot completely missed the opportunity to post in a spirituality thread over this one.

I do not wish to continue on but I do not know why I do continue on anyways.

Also, spammers, go fix yourself.

@FruityPWN
They’ve been particularly bad lately.

@FruityPWN
That why they just strike endlessly for spamming the forum with suspicious virus links for their hijacking data for it since Friday last week

@FruityPWN
Oh just be careful out there right

Dammit, mom gave the Pitbull spaghetti.

I just want to be wanted.

Also, I think I have a vitamin deficiency…

@FruityPWN
Eat some vegetables and fruits, usually the good stuff.

I ate too much spaghetti.

@Anonymous #B4DC
Easy on the red pills, buddy.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
As much as I respect your passion, please don’t feed the trolls.

@MoonOtter
Well, it is important to let everyone know we’ll be okay. I’m not the one who had that vision 10 years ago. The one who did will see my post eventually. They need not reply, though. They deserve respect and space here.

Enjoy a sign that I got the correct answer. And now I drop the subject >^_<✌️

I…am suffering. I have no more will than an empty aluminum can; it wishes to be stainless steel, even tin would work, but it is weak. Easily broken…I have been going through a lot in the last couple of weeks and I am ready to just give up. I do not want to be where I was many moons ago; I would rather be twelve feet under, not just six feet under…looked back on my archives - I was rotten and still have some of those tendencies…look at me, I have done nothing but just let things go by. Think health is catching up to me and that is also an unfortunate state of affairs. I do not want bad things to happen. I do not want to lose anyone else. The ones I did lose, I want them back… want… WANT… I truly am a selfish creature…lonely, sad, pitiful too. Maybe, I do not deserve it.

Also, I am neutral about what is going on in the world today. I just let it be as it will, but I have my own views and passions…sadly, these goals may never be truly met. These goals I have…they are pipe dreams, are they not? I think so.

Physically, I am getting weaker. Mentally, I am breaking. I am just pathetic.

I am just an aluminum can.

My beard keeps shedding…so does my hair.