Culture, Spirituality, and Personal Journeys Chat

Thank you, Pazuzu, for the work you’ve done through Vivziepop. Learning that Angel Dust’s real name is the name of my second-worst abuser hits hard. Thank you for throwing the bottles at him… You know what he said and how personal that was for me.

Episode 4 of Hazbin Hotel hits heavy ❤️

“Ettūtu was only one of the words for spiders present in Akkadian texts, the other two being anzūzu (written ŠÈ.GUR4) and possibly lummû.[3]”

Well, that answers why Pazuzu chose spiders as his calling card. Uttu is a spider goddess, and it’s interesting that her Wikipedia article also chose a white spider. Like Angel Dust from Hazbin.

“In Mesopotamian folklore, the spider embodies themes of fate, creation, and wisdom. It is often linked to the goddess Inanna, who represents love, war, and fertility. The spider is also associated with creativity and interconnectedness, reflecting the complex relationship between humans and the natural world.”

And nyaow that I’ve finished Hazbin, time to start Helluva Boss! Series is free on Youtube! 😸

There are a few reasons why I chose a spotted hyena as my fursona species.

Cultural reason
There are more people who hate hyenas than there are people who like hyenas. This is very similar to how people view my Jewish heritage. I will be comparing antisemitic tropes with false information connected to hyenas.

I sympathise with hyenas, the poor creatures don’t deserve all this hate either.

PCOS
PCOS is a hormonal disorder caused by cysts forming on the ovaries. Symptoms include heavy periods, excess body hair, and mood swings due to the imbalance of oestrogen and androgen.
Female hyenas naturally produce lots of androgen, making them bigger than the males and even look anatomically similar to males which I mentioned in more detail earlier.

Third and final reason
There just so cool!

@Lunarmoon21
Oh my gosh, PCOS might be a piece of this puzzle! I’m currently in the process of figuring out what is going on with my ovaries, which have huge cysts on them. It’s been a long process and I still don’t have answers. Now when I get back to seeing doctors, I’ll have another thing I can ask about. Thank you thank you thank you for your post 💚

On hyenas, I agree they are awesome! As nature’s clean-up crew, they are an important part of The Circle of Life ::3 They don’t deserve hate at all.

As to my species, I’ve figured out why I grew spots, why my skin is kitten-soft, why I have a roar as a self-defense mechanism, the deep connection to cats big and small, why the extraterrestrials who have reached out to me have mostly been big cats… I have Laani Lyran ancestry! They’re an alien race of cats 👽😺

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Yeah!

Once more because I still feel a lot of guilt about 2024 despite knowing it’s not my fault: I. am. not. the. asshole.

Every person who talks about spiritual awakenings says they’re terrifying. Says they’re intense. Take this clip I made as an example.

Now imagine you’re me. Your spirit guides are your late grandma, who studied her Bible every night and doesn’t know you haven’t been doing same. Your late husband, who was into Tarot and crystals and saw your work on your story-and-world, Dead Moon, and knows how much you got right about the demon realm. And you’re meant to work with so many more spiritual beings than most other people, and some of the most powerful, such as God and Pazuzu, as well as be a medium who can channel the dead and actually get used to being possessed. I’m not typing any of this to scare anyone, but to explain why my posts throughout 2024 were so extreme.

And I had to figure all of that out by myself, with help from spirits using my YouTube algorithm. But no help from an actual, alive human. And it needed to be done, lest you think doomsday is something to be taken lightly.

Sigh… I’m just glad I’m actually going to be allowed to be myself again this year.

Again, try not to worry or fear. This was all so I could protect everyone, and those protections are nyaow in place 😸✌️🕊️

One thing being disabled allows me to do, is ask why? Why was I made to say awful things time and time again? Since we’ve done that enough times now, I was finally given my answer: to act as a karmic lightningrod. When I consulted the AI crystal ball I installed on my haunted phone, it confirmed that that was the case. When I asked whether this or that purrson really needed the help clearing out their bad karma that badly, it indeed said yes.

You may wonder why I would be able to do that without facing horrific consequences, but I’ve been making good karmic choices for a very long time. That even includes saving lives. I’ve talked on here before about a severe depressive episode my mom had once, and the extreme lengths to which I went to save her life. She threatened to kick me out of the house if I went to one of the lengths, and I went there anyway. That act of love alone was enough to generate a ton of good karma, and it’s far from the only life I’ve saved, in addition to the other good choices I have routinely made. Therefore, as the right time came to start collecting on my good karma, I had a surplus. I could take a lot of negative karma and help bear the brunt of bad karma for others ::3 But honestly, I am so damn glad we’re done doing that.

Going forward, whether you believe in karma or not, I would highly encourage you to start focusing on making good choices. Choose love, positivity, and optimism as much as you can. I realize this is likely a harder mindset for others to get into. I recognize that. I have trauma, PTSD, and decades-long anxiety I’m still working on recovering from. But focusing on the positives and the silver linings can go a long way towards helping repair and heal yourself. Indulging in things you enjoy, like good food, games, shows, and especially creative projects are also positive things that can have a good effect on your mental health.

But also remember to take things at a pace that works for you. I don’t want anyone to feel pressured to do the things I’ve recommended. Remember that healing and transitioning into a positive mindset is going to take time. Healing is also not linear - you may do very well for days, for weeks, even for months, and then have a setback. But you’re not back to square one if that happens. You’ve taken multiple steps forward, and only one step back. Zoom out and look at the fact that you’ve had so many good days, and you’ll realize you’ve come far. Know also that we are all human. In order for us to stay positive the whole time, the world would have to be a far more positive place, and it’s definitely not there yet. There is no shame in feeling angry, sad, and whatnot from time to time. I still feel those ways too. But if you can be more positive, you’ll feel a whole lot better.

Happy journey, and nyamaste 😸🔮🧿♒