Aaand I just got to the part where she says, “Miscarriage.” That’s how you know it’s Lamashtu. If you go read up on her, she is said to be a baby killer, but my intuition is telling me that this is not accurate. She’s… done what I’ve done a couple of times, except in a different way. I think I finally understand, because I couldn’t find this information anywhere.
So, while asleep one day, I had this pretty intense dream about carrying an orange kitten from pretty far away, back to our house. I carried the kitten over a bunch of barking dogs at one point. We kinda hovered over them. I awoke feeling very distressed, worried that something had happened to one of our orange cats. Well, not the ones we take care of here in the house, thank God. But my mom had been spending the day outside with a sickly stray kitten as it passed away. She helped it in the physical realm, and I helped it in the spiritual realm.
Another time, we were taking care of a sick kitten here in the house, and it didn’t seem like he would make it much longer. I was also very sick - it was during the month or so I spent nearly dying from dysentery, so I was slipping between the realms of life and afterlife. In the shower, “Helena” by My Chemical Romance echoed in my head as though being sung in a cathedral. It was then I knew that the kitten was crossing over, to be given to my grandma in heaven. It was nighttime, and was in my mom’s room as she slept. Sure enough, when next we spoke, she told me Ben had passed away (yeah I named him).
I think that’s basically what Lamashtu does, but with human babies. She takes the ones that die from disease and miscarriage and whatnot, and helps them crossover. I think, if Lamashtu has ever attacked a mother and child, it was to lessen their suffering. One or both of them wouldn’t have made it. Pazuzu is saying “Yes!”
And this is why I calm my fears and keep an open mind. Eventually, I find the answers to my questions.
