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@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
If you can’t love yourself, love somebody else. The Almighty already knows your goal.

Love is what makes us strong.

When there’s no one to love, you can always love yourself and grow strong again.

i just want to love and be loved but i don’t know how to find it

ADHD is really a disease of unregulated executive functioning. Making decisions is really hard sometimes. It’s like you’re driving a formula 1 car, but stuck in a traffic Jam.

I can find details in something that nobody else can describe, and solve a moderately-sized problem in 5 minutes that would take someone else 50 minutes.

But something that would take someone else 10 seconds takes me 100, and something that takes someone else 3 days takes me 30.

I do really good with things that are in the middle. Too big and I’m overwhelmed. Too small and it’s not stimulating enough so I get distracted and forget what I’m doing.

Edit: I can take a big dick tho. Or a little one. They’re all fun if you use em right. ^_^

@FruityPWN
hugs I don’t want that, just some help maybe tho. I appreciate the gesture, regardless. ♡ nuzzles

@OliverHancock
I would clean your apartment for you.

I just can’t get my fucking apt clean and do the shit I need to do. I hate adhd i hate it i hate it I’m tired of living like this :(

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
hugs I know it’s easier said than done, but I think you should just be yourself and not worry. ♡

I hate my own principles of separating my bronyhood from this site, at the same time I don’t wanna miss any ponies on here.

Although it’s nice to have a bolder presence elsewhere than being scolded as edgy.

It’s hard to be yourself when the majority is so different.

@Ciaran
I had it. I will have it again. Just gotta find a plan.

@OliverHancock
I sincerely hope that you find it.

I want stability. :’(

I don’t want to fuck an escort. I want stability and to be okay and to have the energy and ability to not feel constantly overwhelmed and get my apt. clean and have relationships and a life that doesn’t feel like constant torture.

@OliverHancock
I would recommend getting some cash together and going to Backpage.com and hiring an escort, but the feds shut it down four years ago. Maybe try Skipthegames.com?

@OliverHancock
For me? It’s betrayal.

We’re here if you need us.

It doesn’t matter how hard I work. It doesn’t matter what I do or how hard I try or who I become. I will always be unrelatable and unlovable and kept at arm’s length.

I’m really good at math and predicting world events and remembering details and flight simming and cooking and I have nice hair and I’m thin and physically fit and can run for many miles and can tie different types of knots and weave bracelets and chokers and make youtube poop and play ragtime and many different styles of music by ear and add my own spin.

And yet I’m lonely af, feeling chronically exhausted and can’t even find a fling to just get my brains fucked out for once, let alone find actual love. Fucking pathetic.

I just want to love someone and give them my all and have the same thing from them and be safe and okay and stop feeling tortured and crazy I can’t take this anymore. :(

I won’t kill myself cause I don’t want to hurt anyone else like that and I want to stay strong so i won’t but why does everyone always abandon me my whole life I just want to be loved 😢

@OliverHancock
Oh dear sorry for your lost

@OliverHancock
I’m so sorry. I hope you will be ok. Using the bark for tea and poultice sounds like a very sacred way to remember your time with your friend.

@OliverHancock
Sorry for your loss. Losing a friend is never easy, to tragic circumstances doubly so.

@OliverHancock
We do not know what happens to us after death.

In regards to the spiritual realm, I sincerely hope he finds peace.

@OliverHancock
If you need someone to talk to, you have but to ask. My condolences, lad.

Found out one of my best friends killed himself today. I’m sorry that he’s gone, but thankful for the memories. :’/

Might work on it more later, but I carved his initials into the silver maple in front of his house and saved the bark for a tea and poultice.

He liked Linkin Park and DragonBall Z, was generous to a fault, and had a heart of gold. Rest in peace, Anthony Cooper. You are missed. Your death won’t be in vain. I will cherish my time on this planet evermore, be thankful for people I still have left, and be the best I can be.