Vent Thread

@FruityPWN
It’s possible you are cursed. People curse others all the time. Some curse entire nations and generations of people. All the inhabitants of towns might be cursed by someone who got kicked out of a town, or a bar, or even just had a car accident on a Friday night. Maybe you were cursed by someone’s religious text a thousand or two thousand years ago because your ancestors didn’t “pray right”.

So, if you don’t know, assume you are.

But that leaves the question why any curse would be affecting you. Everyone is also blessed. Some are blessed on a daily basis - like, if you live in the USA you’re being blessed, en masse, on a daily basis by everything from your currency to your politicians.

So … why do you think you’re cursed? And more importantly, why do you think such a curse would be working? And if you believe curses are effective and have power, why aren’t your blessings more effective and more powerful?

Just asking - I know everyone has their own feelings about whether curses or blessings even exist, or how they work. Some believe in divinity that cares about whether our cars get flat tires. And some believe in devils that are testing us for various reasons. Some thing life itself is a test, and attribute massive and consequential powers to magical beings.

So - what you mean ‘curse’ and why you think ‘curse worked’ is important. Religion? Magic? Some sort of alien presence that is fucking with you, personally, for some reason?

Because for most people curses and blessings are no more effective or meaningful in their day to day life than which shows they like on Netflix, or which potato chip they prefer. And they ‘God bless this or that’ with all the intensity and intention that they drop a nickel into a donation jar. They know it won’t help - it’s just a motion to make it look like you’re participating ‘like a good believer’.

So … what’s your deal?

Or are you just saying you’re cursed because where ever you go, there you are?

Ok,I understand

@Ciaran
Well, bad luck just seems to follow me all the time and I am romantically hopeless no matter what I do. It’s like life itself is just toying with me with false hopes and dreams that are just that, false. I ain’t got nothing and nobody to really count on and at the end of the day, I am still lonely…I think about death a lot as well and I wonder if it is truly the end, or just the beginning. I am afraid of a lot of different things, some are practically incurable whilst others have a remedy, but I’m afraid I’d just be trading one phobia for another; an example would be having arachnophobia, I get over that, but then another fear like Scopophobia, which I also have, gets worse. It really does feel like life is teasing me with good, but then just takes it away at a moment’s notice…also, my quality of life is so terrible and bad that I dare say that I am alive, but not exactly living…I don’t want to die, but I long for death…am I just in a vicious, cursed cycle or am I truly just doomed to fail?…

My regular driver to Corpus has become a depressed wreck.

@Eeveesans
What will we talk about?

Death metal? Beer? Forza?

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
I’m coming 15 years,but I drink soda pop
But I never play in forza,I think it very cool game
I heard the death metal but it for me,it norm

A youngster, it seems.

But I no too young,I’m teen,and I can make safe and suggesive arts,but no sexual arts

@Eeveesans
I’m 37 years old, we’re mostly adults here.

Okay,but i’m most young in it group 🤨?

@Eeveesans
You’re the youngest person here afaik, yeah.

I’m 34, turning 35 in a week! 🥳

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Okay

My age is [REDACTED]. I’ve been around a few times.

@FruityPWN
I’m 10,000+ if one believes in reincarnation

I narrowly avoided being sucked into the seedy underbelly of door-to-door Kirby vacuum sales. What a fucking bait-and-switch!

So I accepted a “conditional offer” for a job from a retail merchandiser and am trying to do the paperwork. But I have to send an email to somebody I know in person to help me complete Section 2 of the I-9 form (a task normally reserved for HR and management.) Is this shit even legal, I mean my (possibly) new boss pawning a task on a family member or friend?

I don’t want to kill myself but I keep crying and screaming uncontrollably and am stuck in my traumas. I keep getting triggered veery easily. My cptsd is too much and I am at the intersection of too many marginalizations. I think one of these days I’m going to end up dead or in prison.

I’ve done a lot of things I haven’t posted about. Good things.

The reason I say try to remain calm and don’t worry too much is because of what I worked on. There is a plan in place ✌️🕊️

I can’t keep waiting around for something that ain’t gonna happen. I need a hero in my life, even if I am my own villain. I am convinced that maybe it’s not just them, but it’s me too. I see a pattern here…it never lasts longer than a year. Reminds me of a novel I once read a long time ago. Is this vicious cycle all there is to be or not to be?

@FruityPWN
What would a hero in your life look like? What would they do?

The vicious cycle is not all there is. Life contains infinite possibility if you let it. It’s going to be a difficult, uphill battle - but if you can face your traumas and fears, you will be able to begin healing from them. However, I advise caution during this process, too. Don’t overwhelm yourself. Know that it will be a slow process and that you should go small step by small step. In that regard, you’re doing well. You’ve shown signs of strength you didn’t before.

Your goal when faced with strife is to make it through to the other side. Trauma is like a boss with multiple phases. I know how difficult it is, but if you can make it, your life may begin to become incredible.

Some grounding:

My neighbor’s Pitbull had escaped when I brought my own Pitbull out to ride

I nearly slipped on the ice, but now both dogs are warm inside.