Vent Thread

Food poisoning is a bitch but I should be over the worst of it by now. More a matter of patience than anything, and ya femboy has that in spades, nya :3

goddamn, I shouldn’t add a steam authenticator. now I had to request two times, a password removal and this one.

Being in such a hyper-weakened state makes me realize that my frame of reference is to be prepared for these. That’s part of why I’m such an exercise advocate - it helps tremendously to have so much fat and muscle on my legs when walking is hard. So like, don’t take it as a put-down or anything when I talk about the importance of fitness :3

Chemo may see me get weak more often than most, but food poisoning and other illnesses can strike anyone at anytime. They’re easier with a trained body :3

I also find myself wishing society didn’t prop up people who are thin as a twig so much - though I have seen that change little by little. Fat is so much more useful than most give it credit for and I find myself thankful for the good amount of fat stores my body has on a day like today when it’s been forever since I’ve been able to eat food :3

Trying to get up… so weak and out of breath… I need to eat something.

You’re here with me, Dr. Death-Defying. Send me strength 💚

I’ve never been THIS sick. I’ve never had diarrhea for this long. This is getting scary.

If I die… remember me

Slow… maybe I should take this slow. Don’t eat. Drink. Juice. Electrolytes

Growing curious about fruit. Right when I need it most, I have watermelon. Guess this is now how not to die of dysentery: a step-by-step guide

After eating and drinking just a bit, I got very tired. I have been sleeping. When I’m done sleeping, I’ll likely feel better.

I drew on my knowledge that diarrhea is all about staying hydrated and put it into practice. The human body can go days and days and days without food but not so many without water.

Master survivalist, and that’s why this Killjoy never dies 💚

I had chips and bean dip (a decently healthy choice - the bad was sour cream and cheese I guess but also beans, salsa which is tomato and onion, and chives. I eat healthier than it may have appeared on here because I’ve mentioned my junk foods but not as much my healthy foods. Then, I had a cookie. I later had popcorn.

I think I’ve gotten way too sick for this to be the only factor, but I likely need to slow down. The reason I am awake for long periods of time is precisely so that I can put a lot of space between meals and snacks. I had a time years and years ago when I’d sleep after only having been awake for 12 hours, which meant I slept on a full stomach and caused constant pain.

You have to keep in mind that I live my life by the chemo - who other than me would develop strategies to take the 150mg of poison that I must take as often as possible? My cancer is an aggressive, evil vore Sonic (unironically, it’s called the Sonic Hedgehog Gene because its appearance is spiky and scientists are peak nerds like that) that I take Robotnikinin (another name for my chemo) to combat. It’s basically an AU where Robotnik is the hero and Sonic is the villain, lmfao. Part of why I have fully embraced being a Sonic fan (that and I’ve honestly always loved Sonic)

Anyway, I doubt chemo is as much a factor in how sick I got, because I wisely hadn’t taken it for a couple days prior to getting sick. Hence, my money being on food poisoning rather than chemo poisoning.

Sorry for another long boi stream-of-consciousness post, I’ll keep em brief for the vast majority of them. But gimme a break, I nearly died and I found it important to tell some important info on living with my cancer.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
It’s the sour cream

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
Thanks, I think so too.

Still so sick. Exhausted and headachey, and feverish. I got a Baozza and three cheese triangles down earlier, and kept them down, which is so good for calories. Just did more fruit but my upper intestine is having some pain.

I look like death. Considering asking mom if she has any vegetarian soups in a couple hours or so, assuming my pain subsides.

This ISP is taking the piss out of me with their inconsist, one minute they’re maniac the next minute they’re depressed, this wifi is bipolar.

I’m starting to think my “evil” look on my face is just my hurt/frustrated look - it’s not my fault my face looks weird.

Why do I get called evil when I’ve been deathly ill for the past couple days? I’m looking for stuff to eat, for fuck’s sake.

Whatever, at least I ended up getting some corn with a little butter :3

Havin’ a real normal one tonight, heh.

I feel a lot better. Another day or two, and I should be back to my powerful self >^_^<

Someone has lost their way - I remember being told they “don’t like watching things about Jesus”… he’s supposed to be their strongest spiritual guide like he is for me. The things they do watch are so negative, too. As are the vices they over-indulge in.

Once I’m better, I will attempt to reconnect with my late grandmother and see if there isn’t some way we can help.

May they get a good rest tonight that helps strengthen mind, body, and soul. Same for me :3

Nyamaste, so long and good night 💚

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Proud of you. Nyamaste! 🐾🙏💚

I’m sick of having my Pitbull attacked

My next dog will be trained to kill

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
Violence is never the answer. Try thinking of other ways to prevent attacks.

Right, memory loss. I likely don’t have to worry about my mom reading my posts on here because, while she made it sound like she did during the aftermath of my hallucinations, there’s no way she would remember this site.

She told me not to post stuff about her online but, I’m sorry. I think I’m justified when you call your deathly-ill child a bitch over a can of soup. I don’t care that I’ve never eaten soup before, what the hell kind of reaction even is that?

Regardless, always love forgive mom 💚

We just had a bad rain and hail storms in Northern Utah. I haven’t seen this much rain since my trip to Vegas two years ago.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I was pretty fuckin’ drunk when I wrote that.

Serious though, I’m gonna get something big and scary like a Tibetan Mastiff.

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
Could be related to Tropical Depression Debby. Rain is good, and needed in this time of climate change. May nothing worse damage you or your property 💚

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
Great idea! Mastiffs are wonderful dogs ::3