Vent Thread

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
No offense, but I have to back up Graka here. I know we haven’t talked much, I’m a fairly background presence on Furbooru, but you’ve been saying some things that from my outsider perspective is concerning.

It’s understandable to search for meaning in things we experience, it’s in many ways the essence of what people consider religion. And I totally understand why it’s comforting to see connections everywhere. Since you’ve been an open book about what you feel you’re experiencing I’m going to give you an honest observation: you’re looking for connections in EVERYTHING and that’s concerning. I’m honestly glad it’s been a positive experience for you thus far, but feeling that each and everything can be a definite sign can easily dovetail into the negative. I can’t help but think back to when you were stressed out before and believed this site and some of us users were cult related. You misread things and it took you to a bad place. All it could take is a rough day and some certain pop-ups or YouTube recommendations to put you in a bad place again. That’s a dangerous tightrope to walk, especially since it’s likely not the universe talking but a cold website algorithm.

Ultimately, I have to echo Graka and say try therapy. I hear ya that it didn’t work for you the first time, it rarely does. Usually you go through multiple therapists before you find the right one. I know I did, and even after getting the help I needed years ago I still returned just last year; it’s an ongoing process. I’m 40 and I still deal with life’s ups and downs and need some help sometimes. You seem like a good earnest person StrangeKitten, you should take care of yourself.

@MoonOtter
I thank you for your kind words >^_^<

Here we are…rest again…been on autopilot for a while and this stress and apparent illness I am fighting and trying not to get may end up actually consuming a large portion of my life and it’s hurting in a mental and physical way. The headaches are starting again…it’s nice to have something to pet and embrace off to rest in trying times…grurmph…why do bad things always happen to me? I must deserve it.

More truthpaste: Of course I suspected this site of cult activity. Has the timeline of events been so confusing that it’s hard to understand why? I shall paint the clear picture.

First, a video keeps popping up in my YouTube recommended called “The Furries that Want to Kill You”. I ignore it, for why would I think it was connected to here? I’d say it comes up for around a week or two. This is the only furry site I am a member of.

Next, Bunny shows up at the back door clearly in ill health. I sense that he had been poisoned. I was right - mom and I worked out that it must have been from our bug guy, who sprays the yards with bug spray once a month. No one could have caught and done anything to Bunny - I can’t even get him into the house if he doesn’t want to. This was all stuff that took a while to figure out, however. It must have been a good four or five days before mom realized that was what happened.

What happened during those four or five days? The apparitions. I heard noise for hours on end and saw someone from this site standing outside my house. I didn’t know those were apparitions back then. Who wouldn’t take the logical approach at that point, and assume people were really outside their house harassing you, especially when Bunny had fallen ill just a day or two beforehand?

So, of course I freaked out. Then, I tried my damnedest to stay off of here. I tried to delete this site from Safari’s browser history on my phone. I couldn’t. I deleted Safari and installed Chrome. This site still popped up, despite my never having visited it on Chrome. But that’s not all, it was my profile that popped up, with the Pale Rider I drew still on my profile. Remember that, and how, shortly before these events, I had it taken down? If you know what the Pale Rider symbolizes, you would know that it is an ominous warning. I just thought I drew a cool thing, then that happened.

I didn’t know my phone was haunted. Why would I have thought that? Of course my mind instead went to human interference.

After my trip to the hospital and everything (plot twist: actually went to the hospital before having read MoonOtter’s message telling me to do so), I was not going to come back here whatsoever. At that point, I had accidentally been awful to everyone. But something kept compelling me to come back here. I quietly checked this site for a while before ultimately deciding to return.

I also was not entirely truthful about why I came back. I said it was because I wanted to make things right and everything, and it was. That was a reason, but not the biggest reason. The biggest reason was she meowed at me >^_^<

So there’s my defense. Hopefully, it makes the alarming conclusions I drew much more understandable. Now that I actually understand what’s going on, freak-outs of that level will not be happening again ::3

Your YouTube recommendations are based on your Google and YouTube searches and activity. We aren’t Google. And Google doesn’t ask us what to put on people’s YouTube recommendations. Google and YouTube have clever bots and your search histories for that.

For the rest of it, as you seem convinced this site is a cult that is stalking you, and abusing animals and leaving them on your doorstep, and haunting your phone, and also doing those other things, please stop using this site.

You shouldn’t be associating with sites or people who you believe are stalking you, or hurting animals, or doing any of those other things.

So stop.

If you would like to have your profile deactivated or anonymized so you can’t be … haunted … by this site any more, please let me know.

@Ciaran
Oh, I’m sorry. I thought that briefly. Haven’t thought that in a very long time. It is not the truth. You brought up me having thought that, so I was trying to explain why I did. Way back in March.

My phone is haunted but not by this site and it’s all good.

Seriously, I’m doing well even though it may not seem like it. I’ll be more chill and fun from here on out ::3

There’s things science just can’t explain.

If something sounds crazy then you shouldn’t say it!

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
I decided to take the brave path and say the things, lol. But unless there are any more questions as to why I think/thought something, I’ll be stopping ::3

Easy with the conspiracy theories, anyone has listened to Radiohead? My first was their hit “Creep” pretty amazing song.

My father pops out of the shower butt-naked smelling like raspberries and asking for a towel

It’s a good thing I’m blind.

@𝕭𝖆𝖉𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖗𝖙
If you’re blind, how were you able to navigate to this page and type this?

A cop cut me off while trying to pull someone else over. Even the cops suck at driving here in Utah.

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
He was joking, lol

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I knew that, I was just messing with him back a little bit.

Just had an indescribably bad impression whilst recharging my physical body…I cannot even begin to explain what I just saw and heard…

@ᎶㄖҜㄩ 乃ㄥ卂匚Ҝ
I saw all the features of a Thanksgiving turkey.

@FruityPWN
I might know what you saw and why. I am sleeping right now, but if you feel like you can, could you please either PM me what you saw or post it in this thread? Will respond when I can but for now, I need more sleep.

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
I’ll try my best…may as well say it now. Though I must ask which would be preferable, here or PM?

@FruityPWN
Here. I’d like for everyone to be able to see what you have to say. You can do this!

@StrangeKittenOfTheFabulousKilljoys
Eh, I may as well…

It’s hard to explain exactly what I saw…it was a dark room and the world was revolving from side to side occasionally, sort of, with disturbing imagery wherever I looked. (Visuals of decaying flesh and hyperrealistic sharp teeth with something mumbling unintelligible words to me) The area was dimly lit and it felt like my point of view was going down a hole, but I didn’t get the sensation of falling, so it was odd staying in one place, but having visuals of falling without doing so. I rose up not after two hours of recharging for two hours, then resumed recharging until when I was coherent.

@FruityPWN
Sounds like a regular day to me.

Hey, I was reading that!

I got some of the first paragraph and it’s making me think a little.

Muscle weighs more than fat, that explains why I’m 280lbs.

Still, I need to hit it before I eat.

If I weighed 300lbs from bone density I would be honored.

Shit wrong thread never mind