We obviously care about you and we have done all that we can to help you.
But no amount of talking or any kind of self-care or supportive care via social media will ameliorate the polypharmaceutical nightmare that you’ve described.
Once you handle the pharmaceutical and physiological stuff, talking and self-care can be beneficial, and can be an important part of your long term recovery. But for where you are now, you need to talk to a professional to find a path forward.
When you go to the emergency room they are going to help you with your immediate symptoms and will get you through your immediate crisis. That is help, but it is not all the help you need. It’s only the first step - the incredibly important “don’t die from this” and “get you to tomorrow” step. They can get you through the immediate side effects of the meds you are taking, but they can’t change your meds, and they can’t do anything for you once you are past the crisis.
Having gotten through this crisis and survived the night, you must now connect with a medical professional who can help you create a plan that will rationalize the medications you are taking, and stabilize you, and help you find a path to recovery.
Please connect with a professional before the next crisis.
This is what friends on the internet can do. They can ask you to please - PLEASE - talk to a professional as soon as you are able.
They talk to you in PMs. They refer you to videos and self-help sources. They listen. They ask you to get to a professional as soon as you are able.
That is help, and it’s really the only help that you can get via social media.
Please. Talk to a professional. And if they don’t help you keep talking to professional until you find one who will help you.
Be honest with them about what you are going through, and what you are doing to try to handle it. Even if they judge you for it, it doesn’t matter - the thing that matters is getting better.