The Music We're Listening To

The future is bulletproof.

Sonic Adventure 2 - It Doesn’t Matter (Metal cover by DavidKBD Music&Videogames feat. PSI Mike

And I have been talking to Foxy Nerd for hours about a song I connect to, and she shared a song with me that she connects to just now so here it be :3

Green Day - Whatsername

Oh also, this one’s good too >^-^<

Green Day - She’s a Rebel

One time, I talked to a Killjoy because I loved his name. It’s Chemo Vourneen. I asked if he had ever been on chemo. He didn’t answer, but he did link me to his noise. He hasn’t made a lot, but he has made some and said he wants to start making more. He is a beautiful soul, and that little time I spent with him felt magical >^_^<

Chemo Vourneen - Scizo Song

I just noticed the star is over his right eye, which is the same eye as my cancer. It’s the synchronicities with people that bind us all together

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Rent - What You Own

Rent - Your Eyes

The Lion King 2 - We Are One

Empheris - Ancient Necrostorms

We both know you sang that song to the wrong person, Whatsername. You practiced for months and had the courage in your heart to sing, and she said, “I love you”. My heart ran cold when I read that. It felt so… stock and devoid of appreciation. No “Oh my god that was beautiful” no “Holy shit you’re amazing”, nothing like that.

…Is that what she said to you, because you poured your heart out? Because you learned a song for her and collared yourself? “You’re obsessed with me and it’s unhinged”?

I am reminded of my high school sweetheart. He and I ended up not being a good match, we kinda brought out the worst in each other. He said I was “too clingy” and ghosted me. A few years or so later after we had patched up a bit, he said he regretted that and would love to have a clingy girlfriend. Sometimes people really just don’t appreciate you when they should have.

Is that what you did? Always felt like you’re too much, so you made yourself small, and now you feel like you’re not enough? That would be false. You are enough.

The cat who has always lowkey followed closely has seen your pain.

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Whatsername - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Green Day - One For the Razorbacks

The Lion King 2 - Love Will Find a Way

Perhaps it is not as much on myself to solve this one. But things will most likely work out. She never truly left me, so she never truly left them. Together we are a powerful force who can help the lost children with dirty faces, somehow. All I know is, I don’t know nothing. I’m just a total basket case.

I am reminded of one who also ran away when he got mad at his family. But they all found each other again in the end.

Let us pace ourselves, as I shall continue to tell tales from the true lives of us Killjoys >^_^<

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia: Cute Little Kid Time Version

Green Day - Knowledge (Operation Ivy Cover), Basket Case, She

Lady and the Tramp 2 - Always There

We all know that the truest self can only be found once we are able to rip off the shackles of oppression and fly. When one can come around to the true version of themselves once again.

We are both people who have been so hurt and we both got so scared. With strong, stowed hearts we can remain strong.

No one has to be the one left standing if we all remain strong and stand together.

Also, I’d to thank you all for being so patient with me and having the time to listen to me whine >^_^<

Green Day - When I Come Around (ft. Whatsername) and Basket Case

My Chemical Romance - Bulletproof Heart 💚💖

My Chemical Romance - Gun

The Lion King - Hakuna Matata

Here’s Helena by My Chem, a song about a late grandmother. Mine passed away from cancer in 2012, but I still feel a very close connection to her. I was going to wait till October 12th to post it, which is her birthday. But I figured that’s like, a little over three months away. A long time to go without explanation as to why I sometimes end with “so long and good night” before I sleep :3

My Chemical Romance - Helena

“21 is a culturally significant number” - NCIS, which my mom is still marathoning. Wellp better fulfill my legal obligation

Green Day - 21 Guns

Green Day also says violence is never the answer >^_^<

As if I haven’t been listening to this for literal days already lmfao 💛

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia - Female Cover, nyaa :3

Your heart’s song is complicated and 9 minutes long and the people who truly love you learn the entire thing by heart

I mean, welcome to it ladies and gentlemen and all the floopdeedoodle gender wenders. Sometimes, for whatever reason, you just kinda know, I guess. Your heart just instantly melts and you see this beautiful person, full of talent. And things are going well at first, amazingly even. And then she falls on hard times and your heart is honestly in pieces because they’re not able to do the things they love to do.

And yeah, I know a lot about Whatsername. I’ve been told, well honestly not even really told, ghosted so many times for being “too clingy” that I’m not just gonna be like, “Oh hey by the way I literally checked out all of your shit.” I… don’t know why people are like that, honestly. They put it out there and I’m the bad guy for looking at more than the last few profile pics? What am I gonna do, blackmail people? Oh no, you were at the beach in 2009 or some shit, whoopdeefreakingdoo. Nah, I’m harmless. Just interested. Curious.

And like, look at this stuff. So, we’ve got Holy Bingle, which is fucking hot and also some damn amazing piano playing. We’ve got DUDE WE’RE GONNA BE TALKING ABOUT THOSE FUGGING ANIMALS, which features the frankly legendary Umbreon yiffcube. Over on TikTok, we’ve got the illustrious art wall set to a song our love has manifested, we’ve got the deep and profound poem about me that I’ve watched probably like 100 times because it brings me so much confort, and lastly, the one thing my heart wants most in the world. You’ll see. You’ll see how fucking jovial Whatsername is. I want that, goddammit.

She is gorgeous and talented and creative and the world has beaten her down so much and just. Fuck. But now you know what I’m trying to do, as if it wasn’t obvious.

Whatsername - Holy Bingle

Whatsername -
DUDE WE’RE GONNA BE TALKING ABOUT THOSE FUGGING ANIMALS (so funny ytpmv)

Whatsername - Spectacular Art Wall

Whatsername - What we Manifest When We Open Love’s Door

Whatsername - The Can Can of Nya

Strange Kitten and Piano Moth - Cats Hearts Savers

My Chemical Romance - The World is Ugly

YEAHHHH C’MON NEW LEASE ON LIFE LET’S FUCKING GOOOOO FUCKING W FOR THE ELLY HYPE SQUAD!

Wow almost like I’ve loved you this much the entire time or something

Trans people are beautiful and valid no matter where they are in their transition. After all, I can’t really transition physically but I’m okay with that. I’m cute and soft and like Billie Joe said in a video I watched recently, he likes to keep his girlish figure. Lmao >^_^< Idk, I don’t think I’m able to take T while on chemo, and I’m chill with that. And have many queer friends online :3

I would like to share a story of trans success. Probably the only celebrity crush I really have: Rabbit from Steam Powered Giraffe. She is amazing :3 And has gone through so much on her journey.

Fittingly, my favourite Steam Powered Giraffe song features Rabbit pre-transition, and second favourite culminates in post-transition. And all along the way, SPG fans loved and supported Rabbit through her transition. As far as I’m aware, there wasn’t much, if any, backlash. Everyone always loved her and she was always valid.

The first version of Transform is quite somber, but then we see the finalized version, a triumphant herald of trans joy. The takeaway is, never give up, no matter where you are in your transition.

I relate to Brass Goggles so much, as someone who used to struggle to feel and has ADHD. And dammit, I fell for that chihuahua AGAIN. My arch-nemesis.

Steam Powered Giraffe - Brass Goggles

Isabella Bunny Bennett - Transform

Steam Powered Giraffe - Transform

Also here’s a selfie of me from a while back in my SPG gear >^_^<

Foxy Nerd’s favourite Steam Powered Giraffe song is Wired Wrong because of how it can be read as a trans song

SPG - Wired Wrong

And then there’s Malfunction, well it can relate to just about everything the fans sent in :3

SPG - Malfunction

And then there’s GG, she’s adorable and voiced by Rabbit. The song is so bad it’s amazing, it’s become one of my favourites and if I’m most like any SPG bot, it’s GG >^_^<

SPG - GG the Giraffe

Also this a mood, nya >^_^<

SPG - I Don’t Have a Name For It

Sonic Adventure - Believe in Myself Animated Lyrics

Sonic Adventure 2 - Live and Learn (30th Anniversary Symphony)

Sonic Heroes - Sonic Heroes (30th Anniversary Symphony

Sonic Heroes - We Can

SATAM - Fastest Thing Alive cover by Powerglove ft Narcissa

My Chemical Romance - S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W

KMFDM - DIY

My Chemical Romance - Bulletproof Heart - Female Cover