I think I was wise in my decision to never have children. I don’t think being a parent is a role I’m well-suited to. And well I guess I adopted a tulpa son which is a pretty good compromise.
I am being shown other compromises. Being around loud, screaming children all the time is not something I’m cut out for. But being around them for a day here and there? That, I can do. And it has not escaped my attention that I’ve been notably less ill-feeling from my chemo for close to a year now.
Should I manage to re-connect with Super Nova and his family, I can re-connect with my nieces. I was right to adopt them into my heart. They are the children of Super Nova’s brother and sister-in-law. Hopefully, my vision of us visiting the Arizona zoo will come to pass, and then eventually, I shall hold out hope for Disneyland and Universal. As I have said before, if I visit those theme parks once, that does not mean I won’t be able to visit them again. It would be possible that I will be unable to ride Jurassic Park the Ride should we visit soon, as my nieces are young. It is also possible that we will split up, and the girls can do a different ride while Super Nova and I do Jurassic. Diplomacy and discussion with others to find the best paths is, after all, my specialty.
And what the girls want to do will obviously matter most. There are many rides and shows that are less complex that are still fun, and any choice is a good one >^_^<