I know it’s hard to help my depression and suicidal ideation but I kinda feel like I have… a new perspective on it?? I’m going full research mode on romance scammers and it’s like, why am I even feeling so down about myself sometimes when these people exist? I’m over here hating myself when a scammer was seeing a woman in person for a couple months and then suddenly “had to go to Tel Aviv for work” and to make this a little more brief, flew her around and eventually gave her a certificate she had to keep track of that would “make it so he could bring a briefcase full of money into the UK without having to pay taxes” and had his “cousin” steal the certificate when she wasn’t looking. Which was now $10,000 to replace, money he will definitely pay her back mhm mhm /s
It’s like, dang, that’s on such a deep level of evil, I can barely process it. And anything I’ve ever done, any of my mistakes and my flaws… I feel like saying they pale in comparison is too much of an understatement. I feel more like any negative traits about me are a drop of water, compared to these two men who are an entire ocean of evil. This like, weirdly makes me love myself a lot more.