It's less about depending on medication. That's not the problem, because the worst that can happen is you sometimes you run out and don't have it and then you're just like you are now again maybe. The problem is they might prescribe you medications that don't work and that make things worse. I've had that happen a lot and been misdiagnosed so many times. I haven't been able to get the medication I need, that actually works for me, in 2 years. But I used to be on stuff that worked great for me and I'm supposedly gonna get to go back on it in a couple weeks again which I'm super happy about.
Don't worry about depending on it. Take what you can get. Just make sure you stand up for yourself and reject outright the stuff that doesn't work for you, including doctors and therapists who don't work for you. Don't take it personally if you have one that says bullshit to you like, "all meds have side effects" every time you have something that does more harm than good to you or they don't take you seriously. It's not you, it's them. We live in a Kafkaesque cishet patriarchal capitalist dystopia. No pill is going to fix that, and plenty of doctors are opinionated on the wrong side of things. That's not your fault
Also something I think you should look up is how to heal, open, and otherwise work with your root chakra. Root chakra meditations, heavy-bass music, dance, Qigong, breathwork, and certain foods/ingredients can really help stabilize and strengthen a person and give one a sense of power when feeling otherwise powerless.