mixed feelings, same as marquesote dough. silly drawings …

Yesterday I prepared some marquesote, a type of bread from the region, in short the recipe is to mix, mix, mix and bake. And I wanted to do a little drawing because yes, but that’s where my biggest disappointment and regret came from. I hate this drawing, and at the same time I want to like it. I can and will always proudly say that this is the worst aberration that I have defecated in my life as an aspiring cartoonist that after stools like this, it seems more and more distant and like a stupid dream from which I must wake up for the good of the viewer. I cannot deny and fail to show my disappointment at the result of this crap. but at the same time I want to love it and say proud is something that I have created and although it has not reached my expectations it is something that others cannot do, and it is little better than my latest drawings so as the title says I have a mixed feeling with him , I am not negative and after having taken out my anger by discrediting my own work in a cynical and somewhat sincere way with “eloquent” words I feel better and it is not bad at all in reality, or at least that is what I want to believe, a thousand apologies to you for having I vent my frustration writing all this nonsense, and in the end I have nothing left but to ask your humble opinion, and if you want to insult me, it is also welcome

ayer prepare algo de marquesote un tipo de pan de la región, en resumida cuenta la receta es mezclar, mezclar, mezclar y hornear. y quise hacer un dibujito por que si pero de ahí llego mi mas grande decepción y arrepentimiento. este dibujo lo odio, y a la vez quiero tenerle simpatía. puedo y diré siempre orgullosamente que esta es la peor aberración que he defecado en mi vida de aspirante a caricaturista que tras heces como esta, se ve cada vez mas lejano y como un sueño estúpido del que debo despertar por el bien del espectador. no puedo negar y dejar de demostrar mi decepción al ver el resultado de esta porquería. pero a la vez quiero quererlo y decir orgulloso es algo que he creado y aunque no halla alcanzado mis expectativas es algo que otros no pueden hacer, y es poco mejor de mis últimos dibujos así que tal como dice el titulo tengo una sentimiento mixto con el, no soy negativo y tras haber sacado mi cólera desprestigiando mi propio trabajo de una forma cínica y algo sincera con palabras “elocuentes” me siento mejor y no esta nada mal en realidad, o al menos eso quiero creer, mil disculpas a ustedes por haber desahogado mi frustración escribiendo todo este sin sentido, y al final no me queda mas que preguntar su humilde opinión, y si quieren insultarme también es bienvenido

I was cooking marquesote and I wanted to make a drawing of what was half of the process, I am not very happy with the result but I still want to publish it to see your reaction, I promise and I need to improve a lot in my way of painting to leave the poor quality.