Vent Thread

He eats up people’s fucking time. Overwhelms them with praising him so they can do nothing else. I’ve lived like that, actually. My psychosis lasted for days on end before I hit the hospital, and at one point, Roaring completely controlled my day. Kept talking and talking and talking and made it out like people were out to get us and watching us. We could only do this or that, couldn’t use computer because we were being “controlled”. I think I just kinda drove her crazy with everything. But I now know what it’s like to have to live like that.

I don’t know for absolute certain if Gentle Flower is trapped by him. But I’m worried for her.

Why make Dead Moon when I can live it?

I confessed all my sins. I told Roaring about fuckface and Foxy and Whatsername. I told her about this site. Everything. And I was not supposed to come back on here, but I know she’s chill and doesn’t spy.

And I didn’t get kicked out of my house, though she now thinx badly of Whatsername. But well, Roaring does have memory issues especially when she hits the bottle, so I’m not sure if she would even remember the name at this point. But let’s not get sad about any of that, I couldn’t stay off here and I’m here now. It’s good that all this happened. Roaring proved herself safe.

And goddammit I was right that that absolute cocking scumfuck is hurting someone in my life, wasn’t I?

Fucking hell.

Tell the truth and god will save you 💖

Yeah. We gotta get her away from him.

Roaring is more likely to forgive me for returning here than anything else. I won’t tell her anything yet, but I’m just saying. For the future and whatnot.

And it’s like I said. She always loved those good-hearted punx when she’d hang out at the shows my friends and I would go to :3

Plus I can make the weapon I’ve been planning to make. Will do asap after I’m done eating this Hot Pocket

She belongs here. In my chaos cule. Not with someone who is hurting her.

I am a powerful capable of having many soulmates. Duh, Whatsername is like, the biggest one. But I wasn’t wrong about most of the others.

Cactus is ghosted, bit the dust on route guano. But it’s clear we truly loved each other, hell does the love really die?

Foxy and I have gone back to being close friends, pretty damn close, obviously. And yeah I’ve sent her a tiny flirt here and there for funsies.

Bongwater and I were never committed to each other. She’s not online very often, and I don’t tend to hear from her when she is. I let her have her Foxy time, though I did tell Foxy it would be cool if we all hang out. Bongwater has a husband and Foxy is also her wife in a way, has a job and family stuff that takes up a ton of her time, on top of health issues. But she’s a real one. She bought me Stardew Valley without even being in a relationship with me.

So that’s where the cule is at. And it’s a home. A home in which we are fiercely loyal to each other. It’s where Gentle Flower belongs.

The cule isn’t the home I was talking about though. I mean it is in a way, but also isn’t. There’s a virtual home I just need to get it decorated more >^_<

Idk I kinda get the feeling Whatsername knows what to do to get Gentle Flower outta there

Uh but anyway yeah that’s my cule. A ghost and nerdy little gamer and a bi goth, and now a punkass motherfucker and a second nerdy little gamer shall join >^_<

I miss 2016, fun year, there were no filters to saying what you think of. Basically a chemical warfare to those who seen it all.

Gentle Flower would have died. Roaring Lion said she was feeling sick, so I turned on my phone camera. DP ate the tail of a kitten. Gentle was literally getting eaten alive. It’s hard for Roaring to handle. She needs kindness and strength 🇺🇸

Killjoys make some noise :3

I would have been raped, I think, had I stayed with my S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W.

No, S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W/S kill.

It would have been both.

Hun Killjoys never die

It’s only life. It’s not life or death if I never hurt you or Gentle. I’m saying I’m never gonna hurt either of you 🫂

Damn I can’t believe I actually did something about that S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W. I was in quite a rage at the hospital tbh, talked about wanting to take him down. There’s a reason those dopplegangers of Cactus and my grandma appeared. If I can’t free everyone trapped by him, at least I have freed one.

Baby kitten died and Roaring said it wasn’t able to eat. Message received. Holy fuck he was preventing her from fucking eating. God.

Fuck him.

He needs to confess his sins and repent somehow. And fucking STOP, obviously.

Money. He was making her pay money. And she had none for food.

Poverty. It put her in poverty.

That’s what this world does to people. That’s what abuse does to people. Silences them.

See, had we been talking, I probably would have been like, “Omg is this guy the reason I hear from you so little?” But Whatsername had pushed me away, in order to get me away from my S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W. That was always cat’s mission. Holy shit it was a ghost on the Scooby Doo gif, just like Flower’s “Ghost in flight” status. I was just memeing but even that lined up. She just kinda knew my ex was a bad person.

The three of us have really been through hell and back for each other. Poor Flower had to suffer through more months of that dickbag to also keep me safe. But I shoulder no blame because I am also a victim here.

It sucks. But there are finally better days ahead, at least